I've thought about it long and hard and have decided, with the help of
sisabet and
sockkpuppett's
The Best Laid Plans, that my Supernatural OTP is unconsummated Sam/Dean. which feels revelatory to me even though when I think about it I'm like oh, that's just canon. they're erotically codependent but don't kiss. but they still need to get laid, and I believe that Cas and Gabriel should do the honours, respectively*. so that's pretty much how I approach that fandom.
though I still haven't figured out why I balk at the consummation part so much. YES. I EXPEND BRAIN POWER ON THIS. it's not like I've never shipped siblings full-frontal before**. but whenever I try to read about the Winchesters and sex,
together, my face goes like this:
D:I'm sure — possibly — that this has something to do with the amount of fluff that's written for this pairing, which just. no, no, god no, why. well, I'm not sure if fluff is the right word— it's more like, I love the potential of Sam/Dean but I feel like a lot of it is written for an audience that is not me, an audience that has already accepted that the boys are MFEO, and I really want to be convinced every time. like why should I accept this pairing within the context of
this story? I would probably read a lot more of it than I do but, you know, even the good authors assume I'm already sold so I don't really know how to find what I want.
anyway, I realised a long time ago that my fandoms tend to shift pretty much in sync with major life changes*** and whatever fandom I'm currently invested in is one that most suits my present mental state. which is why I tend to be a serial monogomist and not really understand people who can stay with the same fandom forever. they must be much stabler people than me, I think. I was into SPN during s1/s2, but there's something about the latter seasons**** that I find especially appeals to me right now — I don't want to examine it too closely because I mean who even cares, but I'm sure it has something to do with a day job that I am just completely unable to relate to (whereas I dropped Merlin like a hot potato once I got my new job 'cause I could relate just a little too well to running around after a man who consistently makes you feel unappreciated and belittled).
all of which is to say, I guess: recs, anyone? also I'm sorry this is the first time I've updated since October, and that about my vagina. what you all (and random passersby) must think of me.
*I may ship Sam/Gabriel more than Dean/Castiel. shh, don't tell fandom.
**see icon for one example, though I mostly picked that one because my paid time ran out and now I have no icons.
***speaking of, I moved recently! I mean. I can still see my old apartment from the new one, but I'm looking at it while standing on a balcony. we have very exciting plans to acquire patio furniture and also some plants!
****still haven't seen s6, though. the hubby and I tend to wait until each season is over and them consume it all in one fell, obsessive swoop. we feel this is the best way to enjoy Supernatural.eta: I'm
jeeps at AO3. I have no fandoms in the queue because I suck, but I do have an invite if anyone would like to claim it. I was pretty whatever about AO3 until I got my Kindle, and now I have realised it is the most amazing resource ever and think everyone who writes in fandom should archive there because it makes my life awesome.
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