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Yes, folks, I have risen from the dead the apathy.
I needed a good kick in the pants to get me active again. It came in the form of
ingridmatthews,
cerebel,
rapfic and many others making me realize that I am/could be enjoying the fandom and the fic much more than I have been enjoying the actual show lately.
I felt a break between my experience watching the show and my experience in fandom some time ago. I felt that fandom participation was detracting from my ability to love the show. I was confused and hurt by a lot of the opinions and negativity I saw on the part of some fans. So I retreated, I occasionally lurked, I withdrew.
I was wrong.
The show was jumping the shark and it had nothing to do with my fandom. I threw the baby out and kept the bathwater, so to speak.
I want to try again to hold on to the things and people I love about the show. I want to ignore all the bad things going on in canon and immerse myself in the warm comforting embrace of fanon.
So if you see me around again, commenting, posting, friending you, that's my explanation in a nutshell. I freaked out, I left, and now I want to come home. I blame Ron Moore for everything. ;)
I needed a good kick in the pants to get me active again. It came in the form of
I felt a break between my experience watching the show and my experience in fandom some time ago. I felt that fandom participation was detracting from my ability to love the show. I was confused and hurt by a lot of the opinions and negativity I saw on the part of some fans. So I retreated, I occasionally lurked, I withdrew.
I was wrong.
The show was jumping the shark and it had nothing to do with my fandom. I threw the baby out and kept the bathwater, so to speak.
I want to try again to hold on to the things and people I love about the show. I want to ignore all the bad things going on in canon and immerse myself in the warm comforting embrace of fanon.
So if you see me around again, commenting, posting, friending you, that's my explanation in a nutshell. I freaked out, I left, and now I want to come home. I blame Ron Moore for everything. ;)
anxious
drunk
calm