Whether is was a good idea or not, Indigo and I sold our condo and bought a semi-detached house on the East side of Toronto. It is a fabulous house with a 21 foot Kitchen! 21 feet!
And, it's walking distance or a short bike ride to my work. I am hoping that will help me not be so late as often since I still have the hardest time getting out of bed in the morning.
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The one part of my job that is not assistant like is getting to organize the tax clinic for this year. Every year, we host a tax clinic where I get about 80 volunteers to help low income individuals fill out their taxes. This year I got a hundred volunteers.
Anyways...I have to coordinate all 100 going to two different trainings, plus I have to do the scheduling for the whole clinic, and am in charge of booking approximately 1500 clients who will be using our services. The tax clinic is only a few weeks away.
In the middle of all this, my boss hands me a stack of files of volunteers to enter into the database and tells me that I need to start to do this. What?! You want me, right now, before the busiest time of the year for our whole department, to stop what I am doing to organize the next few months, and sit here and do data entry? for a database we haven't had for the past 20 years now there is a sudden mad rush to get it going? really? seriously? let's think about this one. or maybe let's not think and just expect the totally ridiculous and impossible.
there is no way i am doing data entry today. it's just not happening. I have too much to do. And if my boss complains once that I haven't done it yet, I will let her know about timing. Anyways, that's my rant for the moment. I swear it never ends.
Sometimes I really don't like this job. When I applied for it the job title was volunteer coordinator. It turns out that it's actually an assistant position. I think I should sue them for false advertising. :) I went from running my own programs since college to ordering office supplies for my boss. The crazy thing is, I am actually getting paid more to be someone elses assistant than I was to run my own programs.
But....I am smarter than this. It was nice at first because I didn't have to think too much but now it's just plain, I don't know, not boring, but not quite right. It's not something I am going to quit for but I think I will keep my eye out for other jobs.
In addition to ordering office supplies, I have the glorious job of data entry. 5,000 freaking files need to be added to the brand new database. What kind of organization that goes through 1500 volunteers every year doesn't have an online database yet?! So, it's my job to enter all the hard files onto the system.
I've never been so happy.
I wish I could convince them to contract the position out to someone who enjoys data entry. There's nothing wrong with it, but I'm smarter than this. I know that I am. I am smarter than this job. But, it's a good paycheck.
So, this is a rant for those of you who aren't interested. for those of you who are - it's very amusing in a not so funny kind of way.
i am losing my ability to drive. i got into a car accident in november and they want to charge me close to 600 dollars a month for car insurance. whoever said that things were better in canada is a liar. things are way more expensive here. so, i am transferring ownership of my car to indigo who will then be the only person insured. it is the only way i can keep my truck - sort of. :)
so, on friday night some asshole parks too close to my car on the underground parking. i try to get out and wind up scratching most of the paint of my rear passenger side fender. it looks like shit. immediately i am in a bad mood but grateful that it was a post and not another car that i hit. so, saturday i go to the store to pick up paint to try to make my truck look better. i get some but you have to wash your car before you can paint it. since i don't have a hose i go to one of those places where you put your car in neutral and just cruise through the car wash. this is not as easy as it sounds. halfway through the carwash my truck gets stuck. there are a couple of cars behind me trucking forward and honking their horns because i am in the way. no one comes to help and i don't know what to do. suddenly my car jets forward off the track and i wind up on a grate that can't support my car so my car literally falls through the grate. i am now in my car on an angle because my front end is below the floor. i panick. finally people come to help me. it takes an hour of being stuck in the middle of a car wash to get my car back on the track and get the hell out of there. i think about getting my money back but really i just wanted to go home.
so i go home and try to paint the car as planned after my half ass traumatizing car wash. i can't get the lid of the paint. i use a knife that's in my car and almost slice my hand open. then i can't tell which way to spray the can and it gets all over me. it was a very bad day.
then, later, as i am driving i notice more than one idiot. one idiot is checking her blackberry while driving with kids in the back seat. one idiot has headphones in both ears while driving. one idiot has no hands on the wheel and is fucking texting!
now, i wonder why MY car insurance is so fucking high?!
on top of all that i've been doing way too much housework and not getting nearly enough rest because of chronic insomnia. i am in a very bad mood.
can i get a little help here? from anyone? i just need a break. i know there are worse things in the world, i realize that. i just am really pissed and need desperately to take a hot bath and a chill pill.
Your result for The Kink Spectrum Analysis Test...
Green (530 nm)
You scored 45% self-confidence and 38% bandwidth!
Not bad! You're probably not willing to try everything, but you have quite a few kinks. Or you strongly prefer one side of the fence. Look for another Green, or a Blue if you feel adventurous. Reds may be okay as well if they share one or two of your likings (see below). But stay away from Ultraviolets unless you want to radically spice up your sex life. You've been warned.
But I promised you a more detailed analysis, so here it is. Note that most scales are twofold: There are separate values for giving (active) and receiving (passive). If you scored high on one of them, you should look for a partner who scored high on the other. If you scored high on both of them, go for someone who is similar (or for multiple partners if you're into that). If you scored low on both, this probably is not your kind of kink.
You scored 56% giving and 23% receiving on oral.
You scored 56% giving and 0% receiving on anal.
You scored 77% giving and 0% receiving on bondage.
You scored 22% giving and 5% receiving on humiliation.
You scored 33% giving and 0% receiving on pain.
You scored 33% dominance and 23% submission.
You scored 42% voyeurism and 19% exhibitionism.
Besides that, you're 44% into fetishism and 52% polysexual (i.e. interested in sex with multiple partners, whether at the same time or not). You'll probably want a partner who is similar, whether you scored high or low in these categories.
Finally, you scored 17% on autoerotic - a scale that measures your ability and/or willingness to have kinky fun without a partner. It's not exactly a matching criterion, but it's good for you if your score is high. Keep it up!
You are an open, emotional person and very sensitive to the things going on around you. You are empathetic and make an excellent listener, but you also like to share your thoughts, feelings, and opinions with the world. You are not particularly extroverted, preferring time at home with a group of friends than a busy and stressful night out among strangers and acquaintances.
You wear your heart on your sleeve, and probably become upset when someone tries to give you constructive criticism. Your loved ones tend to accidentally hurt your feelings with their insensitive, off-hand remarks, and then accuse you of being too sensitive.
You are open and honest, and you do not do well at hiding your feelings, even when you try. You prefer to get things out in the open and resolve them, rather than leaving them to fester. Other people might sometimes frustrate you by hiding their feelings, shrugging and saying "oh well" instead of standing up for themselves, like you try to do.
Your daemon's form would represent highly sensitive nature, your frank honesty, and your devotion to friends and family. He or she would stick close to you and whisper comfort and advice in your ear most of the time. When you or your loved ones needed defending, however, he or she would become as openly vocal as you, and help you in your protestations.
....and for the first time in a really long time (like 10 years) I don't automatically get a week off between Christmas and New Years. That means that I have to work until 5pm on Christmas Eve. Now, I know this isn't the end of the world, but I feel really sad that I won't get more time off to spend with friends and family.
In other news, I STILL haven't been sleeping. I think it's been about 6 months since I fell asleep at a decent hour. I can't remember the last time since I slept through an entire night. Seriously, it's been years.
So...getting up for work is really really hard. I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and now am supposed to sleep with the CPAP machine every night but I can't fall asleep with the machine on my face. What's more, is that the mask makes my skin really red and irritated. I don't know what to do. I've tried 3 different sleeping pills, even doubled the doses, and I'm still not sleeping. Sleep apnea can really hurt your heart, and considering that I smoked for so long, my heart is not in good condition. But I can't fall asleep with the mask so I just don't wear it all the time. Seriously, it is really uncomfortable. I was told by a couple of people that the CPAP machine really changed their lives. I haven't been so lucky. So, I still stop breathing about 35 times in an hour and I will probably have a heart attack in a few years from the sleep apnea. But the good news is that I might just go crazy first from the lack of sleep.
other than that, life is pretty good. Got into a small car accident which sucked - it was my fault. and considering what I am paying a month for a 1,000 dollar deductable I couldn't get all of my car fixed. So, junior has some boo boos.
Indigo's birthday was a smash. For the few of you that don't know, she wrote a novel this past summer. I snuck a copy of the file and got it designed into an actual paperback book. It looks great and she really loved it.
Now, I am going to try to work, but I'm not making any promises. ;)
My boss just told me to listen to music and surf the internet for the rest of the day! It was only 2 when she told me so I thought I'd update on LJ. Three hours to kill.
Happy Halloween and Happy Birthday to my lil sis Jocelyn who enters her thirties today!
Other than that, things have been well. Indigo and I carved pumpkins this week. Mine is of a wolf howling at the moon and hers is a pumpkin cat. I'd post pictures, but, again, I don't know how.
Looking forward to chilling tonight and passing out candy. Might hit up the crazy partay at Church but not sure yet.
Oh, and my parents were just here last week for my birthday. We had A BLAST! I can't believe how much fun we had: CN Tower, Bus tour of the city, boat tour of the islands and lake ontario, the castle, lots of shopping, lots of restaurants.
I remember that when I left for college I never thought I would ever talk to anyone in my family again.
I'm glad some things do change.
My sister told me on the phone the other night that she is really sorry for how she was when we were growing up and was crying about it. But I know that I forgave her a long time ago. Meth is a horrible drug and makes you do horrible things. I truly understand addiction from my own experience. Maybe not quite the same, but close. I atleast understand how difficult it is to quit. She's now 8 years off meth, 5 years off alcohol, and 3 years off smoking.
Well, this day brings good news. I just got offered a job as the Volunteer Coordinator for a community centre. I think it's going to be a lot of hard work - they have over a thousand volunteers doing absolutely everything from tutoring to delivering meals. I have NO idea how I managed to score this job as I am grossly unqualified but I'll do my best.
The best part is that the pay is decent, not great, but decent. But they have great benefits and vacation, life insurance, and a pension! Woo hoo! Here's to a real fucking job.
It's also a Unionized work place which means that I won't be doing 80 hour weeks and not getting overtime anymore. They do hour for hour comp time so if I work 3 hours too much, I take 3 hours off. There is something about fairness in the workplace that makes me excited.
I had an interview with them and felt good about it. Apparently my gut was telling me something because as soon as I got home I had an email from them telling me they would like to move forward with me. It feels good to be wanted again.
This couldn't come at a better time since I've slowly been going crazy with nothing to do and Indigo and I have been flat broke.
This job is a little over 7,000 more a year than my last job which is a step in the right direction. I think I'll have a lot of opportunities to learn and grow in this position. I start on the first so wish me luck!
