what to say... I'm graduated. I have my AA in technically General Engineering now (due to that's the only way I didn't have to take Bio) but I still think it's in mathematics. I'm dating someone new, who is le wonderful, been... hm... a lil more than 2 weeks. I think I might quit WoW... it doesn't do it for me anymore. I realize I need a hobby, I'm seeing a therapist.
Once I facebook prune, I will have cut a very large chunk of my life... out of my life... The only contact I will have through that group is through my WoW guild... I couldn't leave them, after they helped so much, and the group I'm cutting away is 3 people out of like... 30, at least. I know I could find another place, especially now that Cordy's guild is recruiting for rogues, but I'm gonna stick it out, unless they make it an issue.
There were a lot of friends removed from myspace, a lot of screennames blocked. I can't do it anymore, it hurts too much, and the stupid and snarky comments don't help either. Someone, take me from this place...
On that note.. UF wants essays for the CLAS... so essays I shall do.. as a math major. Makes tons of sense, right? On a slightly? happier note.. I may be going to Dallas for my birthday (specifically Apr 2-4).. not like I had anyone to celebrate my 21st with anyways.
Started to talk to someone I hadn't talked to since last summer, mostly cause I was told not to.. that was interesting. Reminding me how frustrated I am. I just want to leave, get the fuck out of this place... I hate it here. It seems like my only friends are my brain bowl team, and the few acquaintances from work/class.
At least it won't be a hard goodbye.
Just to see if anyone actually reads this.. comment if you do.
So, we're about at a month of MA being entirely single, and I'm lonely as hell, oh well. Had an interesting conversation yesterday with someone.. we'll call him Salmon for now.. 'twas interesting.
On the college transfer update: 1/3 schools heard from, accepted. I'm going to a transfer expo @ FAU on the 7th (the one I heard from), so I'll be able to see the campus and stuff... and it is only 1 hour away.. I dunno. Rob went there, and he's not a bad professor... anyways...
We got 2nd at the CC Sectional for NAQT, means we're going to nationals (in Orlando... very national, huh?).. but if we get top 6 in that, we go to the ICT (location yet to be determined, but rumors say that UChicago and NU put in bids to host, which would be amazing because it's on my 21st birthday)... we shall see, but whereever it is (if we make it) it'll be out of the state!
Um.. diff eq is fun, discrete is fun, aerobics is fucking exhausting. I think I might rush again, wherever I end up, which should be interesting.
There was a party.. somewhere, I don't know.. and I was flirting with boys, many boys.. everyone was there, I kept pushing the boys away, because I love Sean, and he was there watching me... we left, walked somewhere, he walked away..
There was a plaza.. selling asian things.. curtains all over.. halls going back and forth... then you walked up, handed me a folded bunch of papers, told me that one of them needed to be fixed... you walked away.
I only got to read one of the notes... you called me "your love" and told me that my life had changed, from joy and happiness to cynicism. I don't remember what else it said, but it affected me... I think I was crying in real life... it all seemed so real... I walked back to Sean, he asked what was up, I said nothing.
... then I woke up.
I hate dreams like this... I remember glimpses.. but not all, and I remember that note.. I wish I could have read the others.
boo.. have to do a paper when get home tonight... some calc 2 teachers give very frustrating problems... *nod nod* WoW is sucking my life... but I don't mind... I'm lvl 66. ^_^ Kk. Comment. bye.
Transcripts from EVIL have arrived to FAU and UF, though I don't know about UCF, cause I can't log in, because they wanted the app money mailed.... stupid college, GET WITH THE TIMES! Anyways. Weekend should be interesting... gonna be part two of "Who's gonna die? Prince or everyone else?" and Ryan and Adam are supposed to be coming down for the game that Adam runs... (Sabbat), but we'll see. I start work tomorrow at 8 am... yay? Anniversary is on Tuesday, though my dad doesn't think it's an anniversary until you're married.
Family's gonna be split for Thanksgiving...
I'm obsessed with WoW. It's true. Sean and I have moved on from talking about game all the time, to talking about WoW all the time.. lol
Anyways.. dunno what to say. People should call me, or IM me, or something.
I guess I should update this... so Sean and I's first anniversary is going to be Nov. 25.. woo..
Applications are in for UF, FAU, and UCF, hopefully I'll get my first choice. Next semester should be interesting, Discrete Mathematics, Differential Equations, Technical Writing and Aerobic Wellness. Also have a job tutoring in the library for $9/hr, might get a job at Amici's too... still owe Mima $800. >_<
This weekend was hard... I never realized how light ash of a human body really was. I never realized how hard it was to watch my mother cry as she gave the eulogy without crying yourself.
Now I'm at home, still sans car, since Grandpa didn't want to sell his... Alone.. Sean's out having fun at Sawgrass, and I'm alone... I wake up at 4, to no missed calls, no text messages. Is it because I live too far away, or do people just not care?
Is anybody out there Does anybody see That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care Cause they're always around me But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself Who will be the one who's there And not ashamed to see me crawl Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over And it's empty everywhere It's hard to face going back alone So I walk around the city Anything, anything to clear my head I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one to save me from myself Who will be the one who's there And not ashamed to see me crawl Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything But everything means nothing When the ride that you've been on That you're coming off Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there Does anyobdy see That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me
Who will be the one to save me from myself? Who will be the one who's there And not ashamed to see me crawl? Who's gonna catch me when I fall? Who's gonna catch me when I fall? Who's gonna catch me when I fall And not ashamed to see me crawl? Who's gonna catch me when I fall?
