it scares me when she says she feels reckless. and i wish i could make all that go away. because i know when shes been hurt or gets lost she goes out and does something crazy and stupid and that juss makes shit worse for her. because she later regrets it. i wish she would see life in a different prespective. i remember once reading something she wrote. it said "as long as i keep moving, as long i dont have to think about things, i feel okay. its when i slow down that shit gets too hard" theres so many things you dont tell me. but i've read them all in your notebook under your matress. how come you dont tell a soul what your locking up? your eyes tell everyone you're hiding...just admit it to me...tell me you need me tell me you need to tell me whats really going on these past 4 months
i fucking hate how people take for granted what they have right in front of them. i miss my mom like crazy. you all have no idea what thats like. she wasnt just my mom she was my fucking friend. one of the best ones i had. i miss her more than anything. love what you've got dont bitch and complain about whats not in your life. im sick and tired of hearing it from people. love your family and your friends and the fucking fact that you're alive. you have no idea the pain other people are going through. wake the hell up.
What i did was stupid. thats gotta be the dumbest thing i've done ever in my entire life. im turning into my father. ecspecially after evan died. and i regret that whole night. i regret drinking, i regret getting in the car, i regret driving home, i regret going 70, i regret not stopping, i regret not having my seatbelt on. I THANK THE FUCKING LORD IM ALIVE. i broke my nose, but only have one black eye...i have 36 stiches all together. they're on my forhead and along my jaw line, by my ear. i swear to god im so llucky.
the biggest dissapointment..really has to be letting you down. after everything you've done for me. that way you looked at me really hurt me. and even though you were mad at me as much as you hated me in that moment. ... thank you for being there for me. thank you for telling me it'll all be ok. and thank you for getting me help becuz i know i need it. and im goin to those meetins thank you mainly for your support. i love you. you're my best friend. fuck...you're the definition of best friend ...i love you so much <3
im home again. im staying here cuz things are fucked up back in mi and florida. im sorry i fucked shit up for you.....i really love you i hope everything works out ok..
Mitch...your honestly my best friend. im sorry i fucked shit up. at least talk to me kid.
so...theres this girl
and i kind of would do anything for her
and i want to be with her
she means the world to me
and nothing less
My mother passed away on September 1st. And one of my best friends passed away September 2nd. I miss them so much......my mom was like my best friend. i was freakishly close to her. she was all i had growing up. im back in mi and left cali because i feel like i need to see my best friends. im really lost right now...
Rest in peace mom i love you and miss you so much Evan ... you were like a brother to me..i miss you kid..
there was something in the way you turned and looked at me. i s t a r t e d p a n i c k i n g, i s t a r t e d p a n i c k i n g. until your hearbeat stopped.. until your body dropped that will always be my favorite memory of you and me
yeah i'm never on this anymore..i'll update every now and then and maybe comment in certain people's entries. but if you wanna talk to me or something my sn is nott phat matt im me if you can hold a conversation. i'm an open book and a random kid its not that hard. alright talk to you kids later
Where is your boy tonight? I hope, he is a gentleman.. And maybe he won't find out what I know: You were the last good thing about this part of town...
When I wake up- I'm willing to take my chances on The hope I forget that you hate him more than you notice I wrote this for you
You Need Him .. I could Be Him I could be an accident but I'm still tryin & thats more than I can say for him
Where Is your boy tonight? I hope, He is a gentleman.... And maybe he wont find out what I know: You were the last good thing about this part of town
Last night...uhh i never meant to take one night that far. but the more i think about it the better i feel. you are amazzingg. i leave michigan tomorrow afternoon and finally head home after a crazzzy week and a half. leaving behind a shit load of stuff i dotn wanna leave...but going home
Went to Mi last week for about 4 days? My mom bought me the plane tickets, it was awesome of her. So of course we partied like it was 1999 lol dee stupid ass i love you. yeah saw my best friends i missed my crew like crazzzy. Saw the Florida kids too, they happened to be up there for 2 weeks. Crazy partying for a good 4 days straight. lots of puking in tj's house. sorry broah. uh danielle left me in the middle of scottys room without a shirt on in the middle of the floor. it was what 7am and passed out cold on the floor and she just left. thanks "best friend" i forgive you though ;) scotty woke me up the next day and was like dude wtf. it was pretty great. i love it there. but now im home and partying on a balcony till 8am and on beaches. back to bonfires till 4am then getting yelled at to get off the beach when we're making too much noise. i love it here...i missed it. yeah
