(Delirium Trigger)

Hi,
I dont like writing in this too much anymore. Uh. I finally got a job in Philly now that I am living here all summer long. I work at Condom Kingdom on South Street. It may sound a little skeezy but it is a very upscale sex shop. haha. The people there are very nice and they help me out a lot considering I am new. While working the other night April Margera ventured in with some of her friends. Duncan came in the store with his eyes real big and was like HOLY SHIT! We both got our pictures with her using our disposable camera that is supposed to be used for shoplifters. haha It is a very interesting job to say the least.

Amanda and I are still together and going strong. We have been together over a year now and are still very much in love. She is interning for the DA of Philadelphia and also working at Rita's so we are both busy a lot but we still see each other when we can. She is very beautiful and I am sure that another year with her will pass before we know it.

Today Kyle and his friend Dan came in to Temple then we went to South Street and walked around. They are coming back in a bit and we are all going to hang out. Temos is trying to rush back early from home so we can all hang out. Soon we are going to induct Dan into the NPS. I am not sure the eact date on that but we will see soon enough. He will join the ranks alongside TKW, The Rev, and 2PQ. It shall be glorious.


I guess thats all for now. I am sure I have a lot more to say but whatever.
Have a nice day.

Hi, I havent updated in forever and I dont know what to say at all.. Ive very much lost interest in writing in this journal because I feel that I could better spend my time doing something else but I waste time anyway. Dont expect regular updates because I dont think that will be happening.

So, It's spring break and it has been 11 months that Amanda and I got together. That is quite the length of time. We are doing great and very happy. We spend alot of time together and have a great time doing all kinds of things. I hope she is as happy as I am and I hope I am everything she hopes for and give her everything she needs.

I have made living arrangements for next year at the Edge which is the new place on Broad Street in Philly across from Temple's Campus. Josh and I will be living together again and Amanda will be in the building as well. It should be a good time. I actually have my own room with my own bathroom which will be cool. Josh and I will be sharing a kitchen which will be cool. I am sure it will be a very nice building and each room is going to have flat panel TVs. I hope it is done in time. Note to self: pick up a signed copy of the lease so they dont dick me over.

I am not really doing anything over spring break because I am broke and I havent been able to get a job yet. Possible trip to Canada in the summer. I will have my apartment all summer so if someone would like to come visit and get away from their parents let me know. haha. School is gay and I am doing alright I guess but I want to do better. I have really been trying to make myself the best person I can be and I really want to continue that. I want to go to the gym more and eat better and make myself look better. Yeah I like to look good, so the fuck what? I also want to really grasp everything I can in college because I feel I am bright but I would like to get something out of the classes I take even if I feel like they are a waste. Everything I do should have an impact on my life I would say.

I am playing alot of guitar resently and I think I am getting better. I have made a few beats that I would like to develop into something if possible. I would love to have a band which is like my all time dream so I hope I continue on getting better.

I have been hanging out with Josh and Adam over break but I will be going back to school soon and doing work and getting back into the swing of things. Uh... I think that might be it.. maybe I will update again soon... maybe not.. who knows?

So I am now officially 20 years old. I havent updated in forever cause I suck. I am going back to school real soon. I have 3 really awesome close friends. I have an amazing girlfriend. I have alot of old video games. and I met some real cool guys that work at the video game stores around here. People I could be real good friends with (jose and justin pretty much).

For my birthday I didnt expect too much. And I didnt really get much except from my baby who got me a cappacino machine and the first season of just shoot me and all kinds of cool coffee things. She makes me very very very happy. I am going to see her tomorrow and it will be good. She also took me out to RR for my birthday. I love her.

Nothing much else has been going on. Working alot. I am going to warped tour on sunday with da G's (jLove and Emos (john and josh)). We are gonna have a good time. We are meeting up with Johns friends there. Erin I already met at johns show where he played real good. I met his 2 other guy friends there who were really really cool. We went to Nazo diner and had a good time. They were real cool kids. Its funny cause I didnt think they were at all at first. Cool kids though. Real funny.

So things are going good. School is coming up. I will miss John o and Kline. Thats pretty much it. I will miss my family and house and gamecrazy too i Guess. I will see them alot though. <3333333

DMEM is in the recording studio too.



<3AMO<3

So I have been mucho mucho busy but I need to write this entry cause I doooo.

So yeah last weekend (friday) my cousins and family were down for Kaitlin's graduation party. It was very cool to see them and friday after work I went down with my Aunt and cousin to my uncles. We sat in his pole barn and we took some jello shots and then my 2 cousins wanted to play flip cup with my dad and uncles and aunt. We had so much fun and so much beer. We played like 40 games. My aunt was so drunk and could not flip the cup. It was fun drinking with my cousins. I called Kyle I think and my cousin Sarah talked to him on the phone and then I called my boy and he talked to my Aunt Pam. haha It was very funny.

(saturday) after work I went to my cousins grad party for alittle and then I drove to Amanda's. It was a pretty easy drive and only took like an hour and 15 minutes. She jumped on me when I showed up and we kissed and such and it was awesome. She was wearing a short short skirt that should not be allowed in public because I could see her ass but it was a fucking sexy ass. We hung out and kissed and were very cute. She molested me in her room and I talked to her parents awhile. It was nice. I brought her 3 bags of gummy things I bought her and a cute card for her graduation. Her graduation present was a chair from urban outfitters she really wanted. It is very very big and very cool and we are going to have a good time on that sucker. It was kinda expensive but anything for mah baby. haha So.. then we ate some buffalo wings which were really good and I love eating good food with my baby. The rest of Saturday consisted of private things (and private parts) and watching some of Toy Story. That movie is very funny. ("Howdy maam!.... ::girl flips out::) So Amanda and I cuddled and fell asleep together downstairs... noone seemed to mind.. awesome. haha I built Amanda a snowman fall asleep with. She really liked this snowman. ;)

So we woke up and built another snowman. He was an awesome snowman let me tell you. Then we hung out most of the day and then eventually people came for Amanda's party. It was nice meeting all her family. I wasnt sure they liked me too much. Her one Aunt seemed to like me. She reminded me of someone. The rest I wasnt too sure of. We ate good food and cake and such and hung out. Then I was introduced to her uncle Eddie (I think thats his name). He was the uncle Im-Going-To-Embarass-The-New-Guy type. I dont embarass to easy though and I think I handled him well. I gave him some things right back that he said but didnt want to go too far cause Im still the new guy. Soon everyone was leaving and it was time for me to leave. I said a sad goodbye and left and I missed my baby.

Monday I had off work and I woke up to a text message that said, "I went to the hospital from graduation" Immediately I called Amanda to find out what was going on and then got ready and jumped in the car and drove back to Philly. I got there and her Mom-mom was still there and though I was not sure if she liked me too much at the party... seeing me come all the way back for her granddaughter put a smile on her face and she said, "She is all yours" That made me feel good. Even Amanda's dad (who I already think likes me) "Aww"ed. Everyone was happy I was back and especially Amanda. She cuddle with me and I made her feel better after passing out at graduation and being taken to the hospital. I rubbed her tummy and her head and she looked so cute. Everyone thought it was cool of me to drive all the way to see her and show how much I care about her. I care about her so much. She even said, "Mmm... those look good. (refering to boneless buffalo wings from KFC on TV)" and I told her to put her shoes on and I took her out to get some. They were very good. I loved them and loved getting them for her and making her happy. Then I left again and made my way home in the extreme rain that was going on. It was absolutely ridiculous.

So this week was pretty cool. It consisted of going over to Scary's one day with my boy and Kline and we swam and Mrs. S made us food then we went to some thrift shops. It was awesome. I got an awesome red suit coat that I love and I got an old school Hanson shirt for like 6 bucks for both. Temos tried on some leather pants and some woman was like hitting on him. Pretty funny. There was one place we went that was closed and we need to go back. They had a sign that said that things were like 5 cents. haha AWESOME! We cruised around and listened to the AMERICA, FUCK YEAH! song from Team America. It was awesome. Then we went to LV mall. Good times definitely. Then that night we all stayed at Josh's and decided to play Halo and get alittle drunk. It was really fun playing Halo with those guys. Good times. I had alot of work this week too. Oh well. Fat paycheck tomorrow. YAY!

So on Thursday night Amanda came to visit ME cause she got her license and she is so cool. haha We hung out and had an amazing time. We cuddled and watched TV and built snowmen. haha Friday we woke up and hung out some more and decided to go to Wal-Mart and just kinda walked around. Then we went to lunch at RR. MAH FAV!! I love that place. Amanda liked it too. YAY! It was awesome to go to eat at my favorite place with her. Good stuff. Then we went back to my house and watched Team America... well most of it till we fell asleep. We got up from our nap and she met my brother and sister. She liked them. I showed her the rest of my house and stuff too. More good times. Then we went and got 100 wings from wingzone (2 of my favorite places in 1 day and my dad ordered me to get the 10 wings.. i didnt argue). haha Amanda and I got more snow while we were out too.. for making snowmen. haha Amanda liked the wings and they were real good I thought too. Then we tried to swim but it was real cold outside.. the water was pretty nice though. It was nice holding Amanda in the water. Then we got out and got dressed and cuddled in bed and such. More good times and kisses. I love them and her. We slept together both nights. My dad told me after she left, "she slept on the couch if anyone asks." I was like alright. haha She lef the next morning cause I had work.

So I have been working all weekend and crap. Last night though after work I hung out with Scary and Josh. We made an awesome song. Its death metal and real weird. Check it out here... www.myspace.com/deathmetalelevatormusic
for real check it out. We are Death Metal Elevator Music... our first single is called "Shitbreak Shakedown" awesome huh? We had so much fun. Tomorrow night I think they are sleeping over and Tuesday we are gonna go to Rices flea market and then record more and take promo pics.

Tonight I worked and it was gay. All the girls at Kmart want to hang out. Amanda (from K-Mart... Jill's sister) wants to hang out and we prlly will. She is cool. I hope she doesnt think its anything else. I dont think she does. Jill is real cool too. She is alittle older and more mature though.. she has a husband and a kid. haha Oh well.

Well... Wednesday I think Amanda is coming here again. I cant wait.

Oh and I am going to see Say Anything/CIRCA SURVIVE/ Emanuel/ARMS OF ORION July 9th with Amanda. I cant wait. I want to see EVERY one of those bands. I love them all...

So things have been going on. Josh and I have been hitting the thrift shops and looking for cool things. We bought a drum machine for 3 dollars the other day and it was awesome. Last night Kline stayed over but we didnt do much. Video games and stuff. We beat Champions on the hardest difficulty finally the other night. We need to beat a bunch of other games too. haha

Today we went to the mall which missed us. We need to start going more. We are serious mall rats. Ive been hanging out with my friends alot and working even more. I have been spending alot of time online talking to my favorite lady too. She is so cute. Speaking of Amanda I get to see her TOMORROW. Josh and I are going to see the Blood Brothers at the Troc tomorrow night and on the way we are picking up a beautiful girl named Amanda. She is so pretty and so amazing. She sends me cute pictures which are incredibly hot but its not enough and I need to see her like NOW. We are gonna have a really good time.

Tonight I need to find something to do. Flynn said something about hanging out but I dont know. We will see.

Eh I am having a very nice conversation with Amanda now and I forget what else I was gonna write so I am going to end this. Peacce

This is to remind me to update tomorrow after work because I feel a nice long entry coming on.

Blood Brothers Thursday and I get to see Amanda which is definately much more important. I cant wait.. more too come in tomorrows entry... well actually later today... have to go so I can wake up for work 8-5 today though. blah

I love you Amanda. <33333


I love this song too. Its very cool.

This journal entry was forced upon me my Amanda Ortlip who is a sexy jerk.

Yeah so I am home from school now and I have been doing alot of nothing. I got my job back at the big K. Its pretty cool cause my boys Mike and Tighe are still there. I was hanging out with Tighe all last night and we had a good time with my favorite manager Joanna. The other managers arent that cool and there is a bunch of new people at the store I dont know. There is a new stock kid Randy who is cool and we were talking about cool bands and such. He is a good kid. Everyone else is pretty gay except some of the people I knew from before. There is a new girl Lauren who started last night who is pretty cool too.

Yeah so besides working I have been haning out with my friends going to RR and playing poker and watching porn and such. Scary, Temos and I were out to a few malls the other day. Scarangello goes, "Lets hit all the malls on the east coast in one day!" and I was like uhh,... okay... we got 2 of them. lol Oh well. We will try to get them all in during this summer. That would be cool.

Leidich was over playing poker with all of us the other night and he drank 64oz of Wild Stallion energy drink in like 15 minutes because Sabatino didnt think he could. A terrible bet. lol He had the shits and might not be alive anymore after that battle with the Stallion.

Turns out porn and poker are a good combination.

Mike and I are gonna be installing a mod chip in my xbox and I am excited. Oh i got new speakers for my laptop which are real cool too.

Also I am going to be going to see the Blood Brothers next week and I cant wait. I dont even want to go to the show I am just so excited I get to see Amanda. She means everything to me right now and I havent felt this great about anyone. Its pretty amazing and so is she. Then I think I will be going to her graduation party the 4th of June till the 5th and she will prlly come visit me sometime pretty soon too. I cant wait to have her in my room alone. haha I want her to meet the friends she hasnt met already too. I love her so much ahh!!! She is sexy and gorgeous and amazing and adorable and perfect too. haha Yepppp.


Soooo... Uh thats about it for now I think. I will update later Im sure.

I love this song..

Oh and I really like the snake the cross the crown recently too. Fall out boys new cd kicks ass completely too. I need to get seinfeld season 4 soon too. Random goodies attheendarealwaysfun.amandaishotnaked.what?

yeah im a melodramatic douchebag...
and i suck...










i love this band..

~The Receiving End of Sirens - Broadcast Quality~

How�d you know to find me here tipped off you
Tiptoed to the tune of tapped wires and insider
Information this manifested destiny you think you can
bestow on me, and epidemic with allure that brings
intrigue to the dullest minds.
Fix your broken eyes on me she said as she draped
Her arms around my neck her wriest felt like rope
As they grazed neck and her fingers like spiders
spun a web my body couldn�t shed.
And on the eve of battle I�ll lay these arms to rest
Have my subordinate coordinates turned
themselves in transmitted and encoded but my
encryptions have eroded now my whereabouts are
living in the air waves thanks to me.
Her fingers, like spiders, spun a web my body couldn�t shed.
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i have some issues as many of you know... either accept them as me or just dont associate with me.

yeah i dont update alot but I have a hott girlfriend and last night me and her + temos, and amanda's friends katie and lisa went to see the chariot, underOATH, these arms are snakes, and fear before the march of flames. It was an awesome show. the lead singer of copeland came out and sang "some will seek forgiveness, others escape".. it was awesome and I got it on video which is equally as awesome. the chariot put on an awesome show..

check out this sweet pic of spencer from underOATH...



So last night was alot of fun. After we got back amanda and josh slept over and katie came down and us + C watched harold and kumar cause last time we tryed to watch it we were drunk and the TLG was here and it was impossible. lol

its amazing waking up next to someone like amanda.

next year is gonna be awesome. I will be rooming with temos and becky and possibly someone she knows named shannon will be living in our suite. it should be rockin.

only like a week and a half of classes left and then im going home. im not sure i am gonna be working at kmart... im not sure if i want to but its still a possiblity. i cant wait to see the house done. yeahh...

its gonna be rough this summer without amanda but im sure we will see each other. im pretty sure i will be in philly to see alk3/rufio and then possibly to see say anything/circa survive. I was gonna go to see finch/vendetta red but i dont know if anyone will go with me...

yeah circa survive is our pride and joy. their cd release was awesome. ive been listening to the cd a long time before it was released though so it was cool to sing along at the show. it was amazing. even better though was seeing one of my new favorite bands. its amazing how they rose to like the top of my list and i just heard/saw them for the first time. i cant wait to see them at warped tour

im not sure which venue i am going to yet cause there is talks of going to Ontario which would be awesome. I want to get the guys together and go for liek 3 days and camp. It would be amazing.. drinking, concert, and camping.... i think katie wants to go and all kinds of cool kids.

if that doesnt work i would still like to go to canada for awhile over break... yeah.. that would be cool.

oh and I also dyed my hair... it was supposed to be red but its like a reddish orange but I think its hella cool and i love it... uh.. i guess ill post a picture of that too.. and my new favorite picture of me.. haha...







MY FAV!


we are gonna do klines blue over the summer. its gon be sweettt.


oh yeah and i am gauging my ears too... im not that far along because I need my next size and i havent got them yet but i will prlly go to like a 4ish size... i never wanted real big... yeah i rock..


yeah so overall im doing great.. minus the not knowing about a job. haha
oh and the fact i need to do awesome on my finals and i hate studying.. come on gods have some mercy on me..

going to amandas in a bit.. maybe i will start to update more.....

....maybe..

Yeah so... Im not gonna talk about my life or wat has been going on cause there is too much but I am happy... what really disturbs me though(and the reason for writing this entry) is this......

On my friends list... in less then like 5 hours... I have read nothing but depressing shit.. all about Temple.. its kinda freaking me out alittle bit... but... I just want to know why is this fucking happening....

-One friend watched his 3 friends get beat up by Temple police. I dont know the story but that is bad enough
-Another person who I have heard of through other friends was mugged, money taken, and other shitty things...
-Then I look on Temple's LJ and see that there may have been a man carrying a gun down Liacouras walk.

This is fucking great. I just want to be able to go outside at night and not be suspicious of everyone.



****The other night (im not sure if anyone else heard this) but a pregnant woman was found murdered under a bed in her apartment on the corner of 15th and Diamond.. What the fuck.. THat is RIGHT down the road. According to the news thats like the 3rd murder from cecil b moore to diamond streets in like the past 3 months or so. Also another man was killed the same day in South Philly. So far in Phila. this year there has been like 94 murders (up from 85 or so last year at this time). That is not including the unborn baby in the body count. This is just getting out of hand...******

http://www.philly.com/mld/inquirer…

Eh... let the hilarious comments begin. lol