Well, I'm suspended today, and I'm spending the whole day I have at my dad's job at the National Guard in Springfield. WOo!
THe reason I got susupended: I was late to class 36 times from when school started back on January 3, to yesterday. Oh yeah. Go me. In all I think I've gotten around 42 lates this year. We call them "tardies".
36!!!! In like 3 weeks!!! I was supposed to get 1/2 hour, an hour, a Saturday, and a 1 day out of school suspension, but they decided to cut me some slack. Oh yes, my school loves me. Plus they also know the only reason I'm late to class is because my boyfriend constantly fights with me before and after class and I don't have time to get from one side of the school to the other with an argument in between.
My dad doesn't know I'm on right now. Teehee. He's on the otherside of the building. I've been working too. First I had to copy stuff, then I had to rearrange papers, take papers out, and now I have to shred papers. But I don't know how the shredder works. Plus someone's in there right now.
It sucks... but I get to go out to eat now! WOO! God this dude has been shredding for like ever. Well I best be going.
Life is out to get me. I swear to the Holy Lord and Savior. Tom and I get into this HUGE fight because I was at a friend's house when he got off work and he didn't know where I was. So he started cussing at me and so I walked off to go cool off and then he sped away in his car saying that he was going to go and tear my friend's heads off. So, I walk down there and Tom sped by me and rolled down his window and started to apologize and stupid me didn't listen. So Tom basically gives up on me and throws away the neckalace I gave him. I spent the next 5 1/2 hours crying for him to take me back, and finally he did. That was on Saturday. I spent the WHOLE day with him.
Sunday, we get into this whole mess about some more shit that I did on Saturday when I was with Tom the whole time.
Okay, this is going to bother the shnoz outa me. There's this little poem thing that my mom told me once and I heard the tune today and it's been bothering me ever since. I can only remember the last 2 lines, so if you know the rest, I will love you forever and offer you my comfort ribbon. It's magenta a really, really fun to play with. Especially of you have a cat.
The last two lines are:
French fried parraceet Little birds with bloody feet.
My boyfriend and I are officially kinda sorta over. He put a hole in my wall because I couldn't decide whether or not I wanted him in my life or not. And he shoved me across the room and blah, blah, blah. Then we broke up for like a half an hour and I did the stupid thing and called him back and said I wanted him to come back home. Blah, any advice is appreciated. I need help. =/
It's New Years Eve, and I'm doing nothing. I'm supposed to go to a movie but the circumstances aren't going as we expected, so the chances of me sitting at home for the rest of evening is 50/50. Damn those odds. And now just to my knowledge, I can go, so disregard that part. I bet the rest of you are out partying. Shame on you. Shame, shame, shame. You didn't invite me. =P 2006 is right around the corner and I'm not the least bit preparred. Another year of surprises that I'm not expecting, more holidays than I want. New fights, new friends, blah. I hope your 2006 is better than what mine might turn out to be. Have a happy New Year. I wish you all the best. <3
I'm having a pretty good damn day today. I'll be getting a new picture on here sometime tonight. Not to sure when. That thing is like 1 1/2 old. I'm just hanging out at a friends after Tom left to go to his sister's till Sat. so I guess I should try to make the best of it. I do love him, so very very much. And I miss him. But I guess that this is what we need... a little space, you know? Well... yeah.. chow.
Yep. I guess stuff could be just a tad bit better than they are. On the way home from New Berlin Tom told me that I had to choose between him and my friends. How unfair right? RIGHT! I can't take this bull shit much longer. Megan, I need some advice, really. I don't know what to do. I really, really don't. Ooo I got cramps. Last night he woke me up and was giving me this huge guilt trip about how he hopes he's more important to me than my friends are. I should be able to have both. I guess he's just to effing blind to see that. You know what else? I love karma. I do, I do, I do! He told me all that bull in the car and I got sooo pissed right, and then is strut broke. Now is mom thinks I'm an effing witch. Nifty right? Well, I have to go help someone with something on the computer next to me. Love all of you.
God damnit. Everything is an effing problem I swear to God. Tom is such a fucking gay wod. He got mad because I woudn't let him mess with my damned wallet. He said he can't "play around" with me, and that I treat him like shit! BULL. He tried to pull my engagement ring off my damn finger and told me to get the fuck away from him. He blames all of our problems on me or one of my friends. Like I'm "treating" him differently know that I have people to hang out with or that I act differently when Megan is around. God damn. Nothing is his fault is it? I'm going back on my meds because he says I'm tearing us apart. Oh! And get this! He almost broke up with me yesterday because I went and spent the night at a friends house. It's not up to him to decide what I can and cannot do. He wants me to stop hanging out with them because they don't like him. Well you know what? Tough shit! I'm going to and he can kiss my effing ass. I LOVE having friends! I haven't gone out for almost 8 effing months and I finally do and this is what I get. God. I am so pissed. It's not even funny. RAWR. God. Wow. Venting. Gotta love the bull shit, huh? Well, class is almost over. Oh, and something else. He said that he was gonna dump me until he read a book. So basically, a book saved our relationship. Fucking bull shit. I can't even keep us together but a damned dragon book can. Pathetic. grrrrrrrrrrrr!
Megan, I have a favor to ask of you. Can you tell me how to change my LiveJournal's appearance? It's been the same for over an effing year... ;-; And I never learned how because I disappeared. WOo. I just sneezed. Pleeeeaaassseee. <33333 Love you dearest..
Ouch. My pride. I just got beat so hard core in Age of the Empires II. He just came out of no where... with his little horses. ;-; I don't think I'll ever recover from such a ass whoopin.
bored
infuriated
crushed
confused
drained
pissed off
silly
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