Did you ever want to be with someone, so badly, that you know want to spend the rest of your life with them? And you already get to spend lots of time with that person, but can never make it happen, for whatever reason? You even know that the person feels something back but they just won't let it happen. There just seems to be that wall up, that prevents it from hitting the peak you know it can be. Did you ever feel that way?
So Jen's gone. She and her son, arrived on Wednesday and we spent the day in Hoboken, before heading to my lake house, where we'd spend the night for the duration of the week. Thursday through Saturday, consisted of tourism and shopping, in NYC. I got a little burned out on that, because, as much as I love living near NYC, I can only take it in small doses. The times we spent back home though, were what made the trip, for me. I haven't felt so content with someone, and life in general, as I did when we'd sit back on the couch and just watch a movie. So we had a talk about where this could be going. We both seem to want to be with each other. She gave me a time frame of when she may move here, which is by next spring. Most likely, we'd be moving in together. I'm excited for that. In the meantime, once the summer season ends, with me working down the shore, I'll be making a trip to see her in Ohio. Not sure for how long, but I'm hoping to stay for about 2 weeks. All I know for sure, right now, is that I love her and I want to be with her, wherever and however that may be.
I don't usually get to personal or graphic on this thing but one thing has me stumped, as of late. Why is it, that 99% of the time, women pay no attention to me, but for a brief 1% of the time, they're all interested in me? Here are the examples..... I have one ex-girlfriend, who I THINK has expressed interest in hooking up. At least that's the signs I'm getting. I have another ex-girlfriend tell me, a few days ago, that if I met up with her in Atlantic City, on Friday night, she would want to sleep with me. Didn't bother though. Long story involving a bad relationship. Then, on Sunday night, I hooked up with a someone, who will remain nameless, that shares some mutual friends with me. Now I have Jen, who I've mentioned previously, coming to stay for 5 days, and I KNOW what's happening during that. So I don't know what I'm doing right, all of a sudden, but I wish I could keep it up. It's not pheromones because half of the attraction has been expressed over the internet or telephone. It's not the first time this has happened though. Back in 1998, right before my last serious relationship began, I went through a similar situation. This time, it's especially not fair, because I'll moving, for the summer, to Seaside, where nobody comes to visit me anyway. So if anyone figures out what it is I'm doing right, please point it out, because I'd like it to contiue, or better yet, lead to something long term again. Not into doing the one night stand thing for too long.
In just under 24 hours, I will be 31. Trying to get a small group of friends together, to spend a day at my lake house. Probably won't happen but it's worth a shot. Better than sitting home on my birthday.
Looks like we'll be opening the haunted manor, closer to Memorial Day. It needs to open soon. I'm broke and down to relying on stuff I sell on E-Bay, to cover my cash flow. It will be nice to get regular checks again, if only for 3 months.
So, one week from today, I'll be picking Jen up to start our 5 days together. Very excited to see where this winds up. Still can't get over it. That stupid ape movie we were in, actually led to something cool. She'll be four days late but I can't think of a better birthday gift. Let's look at her some more, shall we?
So Jen (aka Shelby) is coming out from Kentucky, to visit me for 5 days. A week or so ago, I didn't even know I'd see her ever again. Now she's coming here and I'm ecstatic. We met while I was still working on movie sets, in 2001. She was an actress in one of the films and I was a production assistant. We hit it off and then went back to our "normal" lives and only kept in touch through sporadic e-mails. Now, 4 years later and after finding some stuff out from her, concerning her feelings for me, it's looking like this could turn into an actual relationship, She's talking about moving out here, and I couldn't be happier about that. So I'm going to see how things go, and hopefully it will lead to something cool. It's about time for me to get back into dating again and I can't think of a better woman to start with.
Isn't she gorgeous?
Oh yeah, I turn 31 on May 14th. Ugh! I was finally getting used to being 30 and now I've got another year thrown on top of it. Well, I guess getting older is much better than the alternative of being dead. haha
Once again, it's been forever, since I've written anything. Nothing, that exciting, has been happening though.
The haunted house is still coming along. We're not ready to open and the pier isn't ready either. Even if we were to finish right now, the roller coaster, that will be next to us, hasn't even begun to be set up yet. All of the parts are scattered in front of us. At this rate, I don't think there will be a pre-season for us this year. Looks like we'll be open for the summer only. That's what really matters anyway.
Went into the city, alone, last night, to see my friend Tricia's band play. Years ago, I used to go see, and help, her band Metro Stylee. After the split, she formed a band called The Blackites, which has recently morphed into Sans Souci. Had a lot of fun and Tricia still has an amazing voice. Check out their site, and mp3's, at www.sanssoucimusic.com.
I also met Patricia's sister, Deirdre, who happens to live down the road from Seaside, in Pt. Pleasant Beach. She's also acted in some Troma movies, which is similar to the films I worked in. She showed a great deal of interest in coming to work in the house. I can certainly use people with acting experience. This year could really turn out to be the year. We'll be VERY visible from different areas of the actual boardwalk, for once. We have a new guy who's very talented when it comes to make props. If Deirdre works out, I'll have someone with acting experience.
Lastly, I also bumped into Coolie Ranx, who has decided to start performing again. I didn't recognize him until he came up and said hi. It was good to see him again. Haven't seen him since the short Pilfers reunion, that happened at the tribute show, for our mutual friend, Dave Karcich, in 2002. He'll be at at the Ska Festival at Rare, in NYC, on May 6th. Check out www.lofientertainment.com/music/index.shtml, for more info.
As far as music, I recently got the Mindles Self Indulgence CD, which is great, but way too short, at only 27 minutes. I think K-Rock is playing them now too. So that should ruined my enjoyment of them. Like they didn't have enough immature little kid fans. Also have the new Reel Big Fish, which I've only heard a little of, so far. Just doesn't have the feel of the old albums. They really did peak with "Why Do They Rock So Hard?".
So some of you know I live in Teterboro. Others forget or don't know. So before I get the inevitable questions, here are some answers.
Yes, there was a crash, when a plane left the runway, crossed Route 46, and crashed into a building. Nobody was killed. My family and I were home, but none of us were hurt. We actually live on the other side of the airport. As of 9:30pm, the plane is still sticking out of the building and the highway is still closed.
So that's what happened.
P.S. Steve, got your phone call checking in on everything, after making this entry. As you can tell from above, all is cool. Didn't get back to you because I was on a job with Stan. Thanks for calling though!
