Kanata by.illusionstudios

I'm not sure if anyone is still around but...

Please let me know if this is not allowed
I have a DID community at  multiple_zone  I've had it for years now but I really want to revitalize it. In order to do that I'll be posting more on topics relevant to MPD / DID. I'll also be posting the new season of the United States of Tara (although please join if you want to discuss the episodes, not if you only want to download the episodes). The membership is closed in order to avoid trolls. You need to comment here or pm me once you request to join in order to be added. This community is for those with DID/MPD or support members (family friends) of those with this disorder.It is a discussion and support community. Thank you for your time!

Support site

I have MPD/DID and i have made a support site you guys can use.  My little and another alter are the mods of the MPD section.  Pm me when you join so i can give you access to the section.  Each person can have up to 5 profiles, meaning that with the same password 5 alters can use the site.

http://selfhelp.yuku.com
poly - we are not

Intro

Hello I go by bits. Just for the sake of my identity. We have a large system diagnosed over a year ago now. Some parts we are coconcious with others we are not. Mostly it depends if they allow us or not. I am just reaching out to make friends. I married my wife in September, she has been a God send through all of this. Well about our system, they are mostly children I think the youngest part is about 6 months. The oldest part is actually an age slider she was 42 when I first met her now she is 7. I think there will be a time when she grows up again she is just dealing with her part of the trauma. ANyway. I am glad to be here.

NEW

I have been looking for a community on LJ for this that seems "normal" for "us", and this seems to be one.
I need help. I was told by my first therapist after seeing her for almost two years that she felt I was multiple, and this was in '93. I was hospitalized in Baltimore at Sheppard-Pratt after a breakdown on the multiple ward, but was very young, only 20, and too stubborn and no one inside me was willing to come out.
I tried to establish normalcy on the outside. Now I am 35 and I went through some reiki treatments and the psuedo-hypnotic state and the incident being released brought back out the only alter I believe I am co-conscious with. Now I feel "people clawing at me to get out". I have been losing things (and I never lose things, I am very controlled and OCD) and feel this alter and a little girl.
I have no memory for six years of my  childhood, and realize looking back that I lose short amounts of time. I have never found things that I don't remember buying or meeting people I don't remember, but I know that this is me. I want it not to be me. It makes me feel scared and out of control. I immediately found a therapist and got my nerve up to tell her what was going on. I have seen her for about four sessions. I like her a lot, and I feel the other parts of me do to.
I am terrified, and need to connect to others who have the same feelings and experiences as me, as of course I don't know any others, and I don't broadcast it.
Any advice on what to expect?
Thanks.
rainbowlips

help, please.

Hi everyone,

I'm 21, and my partner of 7 months who is 26 just told me that she has DID and has begun explaining her other identities...  I guess I am just having a hard time accepting and understanding it all.. I love her of course and want to be with her forever, it just comes as shock and pain to learn that after 7 months I have been with several other people as well as her.. It hurts her too much to share my pain with her so I am seeking someone, whether it be someone else with DID or someone who has a partner with DID to email with and try to understand more in order to make our relationship work... Reply to this or email me at spunkyc @ gmail.com if you will help.
eric bill sookie true blood

Thanks....and a few more questions :-)

Hiya

First of all, thanks to everyone who have given me some fantastic advice. You lot have put faith back into me writing this story, especially at multiplicity. However, I do have two questions. I could add them at the end of my last post but I feel the questions might not end up being answered.

Before I ask though, I must say that I have mild dyspraxia and whilst I have the question that I want in my head, I find it hard to word it so others can understand it? Some of you got confused with how I word sentences in post comments so what I’m trying to say is that: if any of my questions need re-wording or you need more clarification, please tell me. If you think what I ask is offensive or insensitive, please tell me and I’ll remove it. As you all know, I wouldn’t want to hurt/upset anyone, I swear :-)

Anyway, question time:

a) I have looked through some of the links that you lot gave me as well as your (many) comments and some of you state that whilst multiplicity can originate from abuse, in other cases, it doesn’t. In fact you can be born with it. I feel it’d be unconventional to have a multiple who didn’t come to be via abuse which may lead the multiple to be confused as they think multiplicity comes from abuse only and that they’ll become killers. Anyway my question is: are there nurture (ie in terms of environment, not birth which would be nature) factors (other than abuse or neglect) that can attribute to multiplicity?

b) From looking at the website links given to me, it seems to be the norm of multiples to have a name for their system. How did you choose your system names and was it chosen by one of your headmates or was it a group decision? (just for the record, I am intending on using anyone’s headmates or systems names for my story. I’ve got my own system name and headmates) Also, the system names have any significance? The one I’ve chosen has significance but I wanted to know if it’s the norm.

Also, one of you asked me if I was going to keep you guys informed of the progress of my story. Would more of you like me to do this? If yes, then I will happily do it. If not, then I’ll just inform the people who want to be informed :-)

Thanks for all your help. You guys have really opened my mind and eyes.

Helen
xxxxx

(an intrigued singlet- btw I love that term)
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eric bill sookie true blood

help please on a sotry idea on positive aspects of DID

Hiya

I have an idea for a story about a person with DID. However, I posted the entry on different communities and I got comments stating that my ideas seemed negative and stereotypical and my research was flawed, focusing on the negative (although some comments have been kept in my email as I feel they were worth keeping).

That was the last I wanted to do and well, to prevent upset and uproar, I deleted the post in question. I have decided to take a new approach.

Users who commented mentioned that I should take an empowered and make it a more positive approach.

Ideas please. Any sites I can go on? Any experiences? I don’t want to plagiarise. I just want to be inspired so maybe this idea I had won’t be a complete dud.

Thanks

Helen
xxxxx
Dangermouse

need insight on integration (again)

About two years ago, we integrated our two protective alters and seven other alters. Integrating our older protective alter did not work very well. About three weeks ago we split off our older protective alter as an awareness (he has no control of the body, is just there to give insight and help us calm down when we are scared). This is working well.

Has anybody done integration and then had to re-split because the integration wasn't balanced right? My therapist thinks I am backsliding by splitting, but I don't see it that way. I think I just didn't get it right the first time so it's time to try again.

Any insight would be appreciated.
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