The Rose Garden

OK - I am tired, sad, angry and ready to beat the hell out of some people.

UGH
t

OK, it has been far too long, but I plan to be on here regularly now.
I miss my journal.

see you all soon,
t

It seems to me that once I set my path and choose that which I want, everything conspires to remove it from me, as if I am never worthy to have what I truly wish...

Humans are so fickle and feelings seem to flee from the broad light of day when dreams are so close to being realized.

I am tired of this Damn it, and I am unwilling to accept this anymore.

I usually back down and let it go feeling as if I must be wrong in some way.

Not anymore, I will not give up, I will not surrender, I am no longer bending till I break.

This world can kiss my ass... It is time I take what I want.

No more sorrow for wasted time,

Tara

I love life but I hate people.

MY life has been off since last October and I am tired of it.

Time to take out the trash and clean house.

BTW... MySpace makes me crazy.

t

Hey, guess what... I am happy and no one is gonna ruin it for me so Ni!!!

Thinkin of Dancing a jig in the PPG fountain!

Love and Music,
t

So, through much aggravation and disappointment and cancelled plans, the most amazing things happened this weekend!

There are moments in life meant to wake you up and teach you something and I just had a weekend full of them...

Thanks to my CHOSEN FAMILY (aka my friends) I have had some of the best birthday moments ever.

My friends called all day Friday and sang happy birthday to me... I even got sang happy birthday in IM ..:namespace prefix = v ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:vml" />..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />(though it was a little off key.)

Though the day was full of things that went wrong my friends were awesome and made things right.

From lunch at 4:30 pm on Friday and a Kerosene lamp, dinner at Tony's with a wacky French waiter and good friends, to a night at Dakota's with foosball, great music and some of the best company I could ever have... my purple shirt will never be the same. And I did not get mean with the Smurf.

And that late night turned into a very early morning... Saturday now and work till noon (very productive, thanks Ames for all the help) mailbox, food, home shower and change... Great Movie with Tom (Fool's Gold) and I get diving lessons one day )

Then....!!!! OK... you guys amazed me (My Kids including Phil, El & Kids, JR & Kids and Ames)... Logan's in my living room (sweet tea and all) with a great guy and great food... peanuts and all. Candlelight and dinner and fireplace... the menu was too cool! THANKS TO TIPS AND TIPSY! How awesome... and Ames & Tom the cleanup ~ THANK YOU... You are the best.

Then Sunday, Jen gave me a cool tea mug and gift card to Starbucks... Church was awesome, Lunch was great (Thanks Tom) and then a movie with my bestest friend... I could so live on that island... and who does not appreciate MM??? back to church for a meeting and then a ride with my motorcycle guy... THAT WAS SOOOOO COOL, I had the best time... and then I get a tea & taco and great conversation... too much fun.

Through all this I learned that no matter how bad things seem and how aggravating life may get, I know some of the best people on the planet and have the gift of calling them friends. I know now how much my children love me and that they do appreciate me even when it does not seem like it... and they are all so very talented and creative (Yes, you too Phil!) I also learned that I am loved and accepted by many more people than I ever thought. I have such a wonderful, chosen, family.

I love you guys and I thank God for you all!*hugs*

Love and the blessings that blindside you and wake you up!

Sweet t

 Why is it so difficult for some people to accept the answer "NO."...why?

The best New Years ever!

BOOM!!! 
FIRE!!!
YUM!!!

& Finding old friends! God I miss live bands!\

all I got to say about that!

t

 ok ... SO the first guy to ever stalk me (When I was 14 at church camp)  just sent me a friends request on Myspace....

How about NO!!!!!

and he lives in Jasper TX... WAY TOO CLOSE...

How come this guy still scares me?

t

I wish I were not so responsible, cause I could sure spend a few days under my electric blanket dreaming of better things...

oh well, no rest for the weary, now I get to go bake cookies and biscuts after going to sleep at 3 am and before 9 am service...

Off to work I go.

Have a blessed and warm day!

Love and hot chocolate!
t