Did you know i have never really read the scriptures, It has never occurred to me that the knowledge to live life properly comes from these words, I so much want to to believe that my actions are sole consequence of my my decisions, I never really questioned that too hard.
For the lions share of my life, i have listened to words; Listening and understanding are two separate beasts. My family and their tradition drive me and like love i make leaps of blind faith, At my heart i can be quite the scepticist, i do question most things afront me.
I live in a rich and vibrant world, one vain enough to poke fun at the archaic routines of bygone years, One so lost in consumer ideals that it morally and financially bankrupt.
Still the views of my peers and of society matter little, what i am often concerned with is my relationship with what i deem God.
There a two things i consider worthy of time and consideration, the woman i love and god.
When i am tried, My mind fills with electric anticipation, A flash of realization, Or an overture of deep thought, I think it is best to invoke this altered state, For it makes me feel so alive.
I think perhaps i can produce the greatness, My soul has long lusted, Is it just a fallacy, That i have some greater purpose? I need to believe, Have faith, courage, It is so hard feeling alone.
Oh, sweet sultana Your beauty is inestimable Your patience admirable When i think upon thee I want to be superior
The verity is i know not who i am Half man half patrician I am the lunacy of the ages I think you as a reverie Or part of heavens tapestry
I am penitant for what i said That tears would flow from your cherub head Know that i am but a tortured soul Who has forgotten how to love and play You still helped me through my rainy days
If i had the chance to love you I would no longer question My rocky principles A sign clearer than water That god exists and is merciful
In the town of the hurdled ford, In the Lord's house, I knelt down, As I watched a matriarch of mine, Put to rest.
This woman so tough and unyielding, So courteous and congenial, I sat ashamed in the pews, Incomposed, inebraited, Full of guilt.
No one really knows what time is, An oscillation of the hyperfine? All i can perceive is contrition, The long planck length to my heart, As i struggle with my grief.
These intellectualized words a guise, For the moments that i missed, In family, friends and God, We exist forever. I love you granny. Time to dry up. See you again.
A dream that haunts as if laced with purpose, like a thousand failed friendships; Lingering on your consciousness like bitter-sweet temptation. The randomness of it all, discordant and unfunctional; means little for the mind who finds absolution in logic. Those tiny shards of understanding, waiting to be reformed into a mirror to the heavens or gateway t3o the soul. Is it possible that everything you went through was meaningless, no matter how vivid; that the fullfillment seeked is unquantifiable and is bestowed and not found?
Living on this watery mass in awe of the beauty all around, i choose to sit with drowning men in hopes they would be found. When i try to leave them in hopes of saving myself i find myself rooted to the bitterness i've felt. This strange preoccupation to help others, to try and throw a lifeline to those that would hang themselves upon a broken moral.
Desert life is sparse and out of this sparsity comes great intensity.
In the vast arid landscapes of Saudi Arabia, a metamorphosis is occurring. A country less than 100 years old is having a diverse effect on life around the world. The history of country is full of struggle and turmoil, two years before the country was officially founded an American geologist found oil reserves within the territory.
It was not until after the War had ended, that drilling would commence. The financial benefits to the country would prove a catalyst in building industry and infrastructure through the 1960's and 70's.
Saudi Arabia, is what is described as an absolute monarchy. Meaning they are ruled by royal line. Only in 1992, what is declared that the Monarchs' would be sully to Islamic Law. In 1973 Saudi Arabia was producing such a vast amount of oil, they were able to put severe political pressure on America. During the Yom Kippur war, America made the decision to resupply Israel with arms. This led to an oil embargo by OAPEC, (organisation of arab petroleum exporting countries + Egypt, Syria and Tunisia) the embargo lasted about 5 months but was severe enough to change the world.
The resultant effect was OPEC members independently decided to use this leverage to boost their own incomes by adjusting the price of world oil. Today OPEC members produce about 42% of crude oil and trade about 58% of it. Saudi Arabia possesses about 25% of world petroleum reserves and 20% of oil.
Recent events such as the 9/11 incident, (where supposedly 15 of 19 hijackers where Saudi) increased American support for Israel, the war on terror and the declaration that America will look to produce more resources at home have put a great strain on relations between the two countries.
Perhaps more importantly the emergence of India and China through this global recession. China is expected to take over as the worlds largest consumer of oil soon, unlike America they have a stand offish approach in acquiring it too. China are unlikely to provoke the Muslim world and if anything will become increasing trade partners (like wise India). Chinese influence in the area is highlighted dare i say it by the amount of new chinese restaurants opening in major cities. Indian influence is highlighted by the worlds' biggest oil refinery being build with Saudi money just on the Pakistan border.
Increased trade with China will be at the detriment of the US, who rely increasingly heavily on Chinese imports. If they can buy the quality refined stuff cheaper from India or Saudi Arabia cheaper, they will.
The recent Libyan crisis has had a big affect on oil. Libya produce some of the best grade oil in the world called extra light at 0.07 carbon emissions, this stuff is gold dust. The Saudi state owned company Aramco is now knocking out replacements at 0.5 still classified extra light.
Perhaps a bigger concern for Saudi Arabia is the on going division between Sh-ia and Sunni muslims. After deploying troops in Bahrain they have invoked the wrath of the Iranian government. An uprising within Saudi Arabia could halt oil production and send the whole world into turmoil.
Water is one thing, Saffron quite another but oil is black and dirty.
"Observe what happens when sunbeams are admitted into a building and shed light on its shadowy places. You will see a multitude of tiny particles mingling in a multitude of ways... their dancing is an actual indication of underlying movements of matter that are hidden from our sight... It originates with the atoms which move of themselves [i.e., spontaneously]. Then those small compound bodies that are least removed from the impetus of the atoms are set in motion by the impact of their invisible blows and in turn cannon against slightly larger bodies. So the movement mounts up from the atoms and gradually emerges to the level of our senses, so that those bodies are in motion that we see in sunbeams, moved by blows that remain invisible."
take a look at the world; the ten biggest earthquakes ever recorded have been in the last ten years. Is this a testament to better surveliance and recording technology? or is the world actually crumbling at our feet?
Wars are rife in the world and egyptian uprising is counterbalanced by liberian sanctions. The world at war. Will we ever learn to work together and overcomb our differences? Can my God be bigger than your god?
Does anyone even want that?
You vs Me until its Me vs Me then ME vs ....
Can humanity save itself? i dont know, i kind of think we cant. Its not an individual battle its a widespead socialogical battlefield. Most people simply do not have the lifestyle to think of others so readily; so how then to convince them that their own personal gain should be sacrificed for an overall gain for society(humanity)? Highlighted always the offspring, their perceived better life, however when its a choice of you or your unborn children; for most there is no choice.
Should we aspire to be better creatures? Is it possible to make people care more for others?
We have so many easier choices shoved down our throats.
Belle and Sebastian release their new album write about love next month, ive been lucky enough to get a copy; and i really like it.
A move into more easy listening poppier songs which perhaps reflect their advancing years, the satrical wit from earlier releases is dead and this is a much more straight forward record. Melancholic and touching on more (straightforward adult themes eg. money, family) Why norah jones is on the record i do not know, there are a few sketchy moments, however i think this is one of their best efforts. 8/10
check out : I didnt see it coming + I can see your future.
And Squarepusher has also has new record out next month, once again moving toward a more accessible sound. Long gone are the days of harcore gabba, we are left with meanderings into funky bass and vocoded singing. The whole thing reeks of 80's music electrofied, its still sounds fresh and its still relavent. Check out a few tracks below.
