Where were you
When I needed you most
When my eyes were red
And my heart shattered?

Where were you,
When I cried
Afraid to be seen
Afraid to be held?

Where were you
When my world crashed down
And I needed someone
But you were't there?

Where were you
When I tried to find you
But you hid yourself
So very well?

Where were you
When I cried out your name
Wishing you back
Wishing you well?

Where were you,
When I reached out
Into empty space
Wishing you were there?

Where were you
When I clenched my fist
Drawing blood
Wishing away the tears?

Where were you,
When I wanted,
Nay I needed you,
Most of all?

i am giddy, i am tired. i feel sick. hahha. and i dread. dread every second in this mad house with the madman.