Eating Disordered and over 160

Is anyone here??

I have a question.
I cook veggie soup (vegetable s in veggie broth), but sometimes I don't have the time to stop and make the soup (or the money to run to the store and stock up on more vegetables)... so sometimes I just have hot veggie broth as my meal.

Am I still getting good nutrition from the broth?
(I know "not as greatly as if you ate the vegetables") but it's better than replacing my veggie soup with junkfood.

So, in your opinion is drinking the veggie broth as a replacement ok?

Hey , my name is Anna and here are my stats

age-22
height-5'8
CW-170
GW 1-130
GW 2-120

I have pics posted of both before and after.. striving to go back to before.

<lj-cut text="500 calories feel like 500 reasons to cry...">
I brought me & Sean to WalMart to return a baby swing I had bought for my niece + we ate at SubWay:
I got a 6inch Veggie Delight. I made sure to leave a bite of it, so I ate about 5 inches. According to CalorieLab.com that is about 230 calories, but let's say 250- just to be safe. That's about 42 calories per inch x 5 inches = about 210 calories.
Then we went to the Strawberry fest. Since Aunt Barbra ruined my plan yesterday, I couldn't help but give into Crawfish. That was about another 100 calories. The additional 100 calories I ate in the form of 2 chocolate covered strawberries can be blamed on nothing or nobody but myself & my fat.
Sooo.... My grand total for the day is about 410 calories, but I am gonna round up to make up for the lemonade and tea I drank. So... close to 500 calories.

 

On the way home me & Sean stopped at McDonald's. I led him to believe that it was so he could gt a milkshake. Actually though, it was so I could purge. I can never make myself throwup enough... but I know I had to have gotten at least 1/2 of it out of me.

 

*sigh* 500 calories is something most girls would be proud of.....

So then someone tell me.... why do I feel like crying?

I am SO sick of this damn baby weight. My son is 9mos. old and I am still 168.8! I haven't been restricting at all. I went through recovery in 2007 (gaining weight) and then got pregnant in Sept. 2007. I feel like just as I was getting "better" I got pregnant and then didn't have a choice what I did anymore because I didn't want to risk hurting my son. And then after he was born, everyone just expected that I was all better and my support team was gone. I ate like a pig. I didn't know how to restrict anymore or how to eat nutritiously. So rather than deal with it, I just started binging. What the hell was going through my head!?!
I don't care anymore. That's all in the past. I have my first appt. with a personal trainer scheduled for tomorrow morning and restricting started again 2 weeks ago. Here I go again. I felt like a good person when I was thin. I felt confident and happy. So whatever it takes, I'll do it. Noone needs to know but me (and you all of course) and I'm going to get this done. I hate that I have no self confidence anymore. I don't like the person that this god awful fat has made me into. So... I'm here to change it. Again.

I'm 5'5 and 168.8lbs. (I'm disgusted to even type that)

My plan is to restrict to 1000-1200 now and then when I plateau, move it down 200. Hopefully taking these gradual steps will prevent me from plateauing for long periods of time like I used to. I intend to engage in a full cardio workout and weight lifting 3-4 times each week (any more than that and my husband will get suspicious) and the most important part of my plan is to stay inconpicuous. If my husband starts to see my old "habits" again, he will be on me faster than fat on a woman's hips. I can't let it be obvious in ANY way.

Wish me luck girls, I need it. And I promise to be in here more often updating and supporting each of you. Please help me through this. I don't have anyone else...

Name: Dee
Height: 5'5
HW: 190
LW: 110(highschool) 118(adult)
CW: 168.8
STG: 160.0
LTG: 125
ED that you have: EDNOS. I started recovery and then got pregnant. I'm back with a vengence, unfortunately.

I'm really glad to have found this community. It's hard to find ED support if you aren't emaciated.

Name: hannah
Height: 5'4
HW: 175
LW: 150
CW: 168
STG: 150
LTG: 140
ED that you have: ednos.

i reached 154 from fasting and xenadrine efx turbo seems to be working very very well. keep going, you can all get there. see you in edover150 xx

Name: Kit
Height: 5 feet 7
HW: 210lb
LW: 140lb
CW: 161lb
STG: 154lb
LTG:105lb
ED that you have: ednos

hey, i had a slip into the world of weight gain and came away from this for almost a year. and managed to gain 21 lb through comfort eating and being convinced i was 'comfortable' with my body. currently 161 lb. back on track again though. on the xenadrine, which always gives me a helping hand, drinking lots of water. 290 cals today. aiming to keep drinking water all evening and keeping it under 200 tomorrow. so, hi again. lets hope i can drop those first few pounds and go from this community to the next soon. x

ok so after drink and drink and eating and eating over new year my diet kicked in today.

so i hardly slept at all last night and i was at work at 9 so i was hung over and really tired not a good combo when you start a new diet.

i drink a bottle of water and then i really felt really hungery so i had a cuppa soup which was only 47 cals so thats was not that bad really. thought tha would keep me going whilst i had my tea tonight.

then on my way home i got a fruity drink with was 140cals!!!!!!
which i did not no when i was drinking it i thoughts it was 40 somthing but that was only for a tiny bit of it so yes by 2.30ish i had already clocked up 184 cals that is so bad.

i wanted to start 2468 today but that clearly was not going to be happening.

when i got home i had 2" of cucumber which i don't no how many cals are in that will have to find out..i did not even need to eat it i did not even wont to eat it i just ate it!!


then i though right i wont eat anything else now till tea time when i will have a small plain jacket potato...but then as i come on my computer my mum left a bag of my favorite mixed nuts next to the comp grrrrrr i knew i was going to eat some but i really did not want to....but yes i did it i eat not some but loads grrrr i would say around 220 cals worth.

WHY did i have to eat them grrr. so now it is 3.30and i have clocked up 404 clas approx.

NOW WONDER I AM FAT!!!

oh by the way im april in 16 and by big fat body weights 169.4 pd