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Monty Python Live (Mostly) - my memoir

When I was 10, I had a devastating crush on Mike Palin. Wore his picture in a locket around my neck.

When I was 11 I was the only one in my junior high school that knew what Public Television was - and had to explain it when I showed up for Halloween wearing a handkerchief, a Hitler-like mustache, and a Monty Python T-shirt. I was so very alone, but I’m sure Graham would have been very proud…

When I was 12 I sat first row at New York’s City Center (while my Mom was in a balcony seat) and watched the boys perform live. At intermission I left for Michael a silver ID bracelet that was engraved “I LOVE YOU” and a note. A month or so later, I received his postcard from Sheffield, England, signed, “Your friend, Michael Palin.” I still have it.

When I was 15 I wrote a letter to the editor of my local newspaper criticizing the Catholic Church for trying to ban people from seeing Life of Brian. It was published! We were Catholic, but my parents were pretty proud of me.

At 18, the walls of my bedroom were lined with pictures from the Holy Grail book and newspaper clippings of my heroes.

When I was 20 I wrote to Michael and sent him a gold star pin the week he was hosting Saturday Night Live. He wrote me back that he had worn my pin throughout rehearsals, so I should blame myself if it was a bad show. He also pitched Ripping Yarns, the bastard.

I had all the vinyl albums (still have the 3-sided one!), all the books. Both, passing mediums…

Life happened, and technology, but the groundwork for a life-saving and sobering sense of humor as an organic, analog being in a digital world had been well established.

I would not miss their farewell performance. I am so grateful for the simulcast! We had a better view of them than a seat at the O2. At first I was disappointed that only 60K were watching in North America, but then I realized that was equivalent to filling the O2 three times over. And I also realized this world-wide event was really a very private party. They could not have made a dime, but hell - this was their gift to us. They did it for us. They really wanted to help give us closure, I think. A real class act with a huge heart - and so very, very wise.

They sang to us and helped us sing along. I wanted Uncle Eric to serenade me with his guitar forever. Gilliam’s animations - drawn with his own markers and photographed one frame at a time… Seeing those works again on a very big screen was sobering. ”Done the old-fashioned way,” I said.

I proudly yelled, “Albatross!” during the intermission. There were 100 in the theatre with me - I was the only one who yelled it. Several times. Angrily! A la Cleese:  ”Al-ba-TROSS!”

At the end, I heard grown men sobbing behind me. My tears had already started.

Today, the day after seeing Monty Python Live (Mostly) - I am really having a hard time pulling myself together. I am in tears at this moment. I feel like I am losing a best friend - not Mike Palin, that dear heart, but what all six created with their shared energy and brilliant talent: Monty Python and all it stands for as its own entity.

That there has never been a dissension, that they can still make room for one another with grace and do business together speaks volumes. I’m sure it happens, no one’s perfect and everyone has an ego to overcome, but for the sake of the entity Monty Python, they put it aside. And in another act of grace and mercy, they put it down. Peacefully, lovingly, unselfishly.

I am mourning and will continue to mourn. Today at work I had to tell myself that somewhere, someone is doing Michael Palin’s taxes. It made me feel better.

I have been given this great, great legacy and have been allowed to partake in history. What’s left is to remember the lessons and to live it! And look forward… to reunions in the sky and endless serenades - making God laugh and very, very proud.
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2013 Update !

Since my last post... my father died of heart failure. He was 87, a WWII veteran, and had a golden soul.

And there was a huge transition at work - a consolidation of 4 offices into one. And I had a lumpectomy on my right breast for a suspected pre-cancer that wound up being nothing, but it was still an ordeal - among other challenges. So 2013 has been especially difficult and I haven't brought myself to post to my journal until today, Thanksgiving.

We had a spectacular meal - Daddy's favorite and in his honor... (and because it's late and I'm still digesting and rather sleepy, this post will be a work in progress for a little while). But it's good to be back.

UPDATE! January 29, 2014

Well, 2014 seems to be getting off on a sure foot. My work day has blossomed into an absolute gas! Go figure I could be having so much fun at an accounting firm! I NEVER wanted to be so intimate with taxes... or tax partners! and I still don't - but the lovely thing is I don't have to be. The company found a lovely, perfect niche for me as a technical administrative assistant, so no running to fetch the partner lunch for me! I've never felt so proud of my work - or my employer. I'm downright delighted and look forward to getting back to the office every morning (well most of them anyway!)... I got a raise and a bonus - with another raise coming in August. Four weeks vacation a year and a healthy 401(k) retirement savings program. It doesn't suck! And I'm damn proud of myself for listening to my gut and sticking it out to give the merger a chance. I did really well for myself. *thanks her lucky stars and angels... Can't help but think I'm working for the same industry as Geoffrey's biological father. *chuckles

And I just got a check up of the ta-ta's with a super 3D camera and I'm in the clear - no check-up again for me for a whole year. *shimmy shimmy shake!

50th birthday celebrations - I've had some fabulous dinners and another special one to come next month with a dear old friend who is also turning 50. We're going into Manhattan to a sweet 5-star French restaurant. What he doesn't know is that I bought stick-on French mustache's for us to wear and I'm going to have the waiter take our picture. *smiles I'm already looking forward to the lemon souffle!
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Angel's New Companion - Spook!

This is the cat we found at the shelter who is similar in age and temperament to our white cat (aka Pee Wee, aka Angel).

He likes to spook and is spooked easily!  It's hard to tell from these pics, but he has a kooky look to his eyes that goes so well with his name.
He has been with us for 4 weeks now and is still a little skittish - he reacts to noise and is not comfortable when you reach for his head to scratch him, so I am being patient and offering my hand every time and scratching under his chin or his chest first. He could have been abused in his last home. :(

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He still has a lot of weight to lose - his big fat pack looks like a cow's udder from the back! But when he is at his ideal weight he will be a very sleek boy.

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He loves to play and even with his nervousness, he is intensely curious.

I miss the affection my Dweedie so freely gave me, but I am happy to love this beautiful animal.

We kept him in the guest bedroom for a few days to adjust to the new house - when Angel discovered there was a new cat in the house he completely relaxed and started purring! It was amazing to see. They are getting along very well - no hissing! Lots of kissing and licking. And playing.

I can tell Angel still misses big boy, but is glad to have a friend. I'm glad we did this, even though it doesn't make losing Lover any easier. x
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My Sweet Baby's Portrait

This is the portrait I had commissioned for Lover (the big dweedie!): The original that was printed on canvas doesn't have the banner -




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I adore it - it's a super celebration of his wonderful spirit. I am missing him very much lately with the spring weather finally rolling in...

When I surprised everyone with this at Easter everyone said, "Awwwww!!"  And Ken had a good cry.
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Remiss

I have been quite remiss in posting an update to my journal.  I just haven't had the energy -
Work has ramped up and so has school. New adjustments at home - the new cat, the unveiling of the Lover's portrait at Easter.
I have so much to report. With pictures!
I will, I promise, soon,
God willing.

Peace & every good. x
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Small Steps

Ken and I visited the shelter yesterday - the one where we were adopted by Lover 10 years ago.
We dropped off a donation of food and recovery collars, a book on bereavement...
I had a cry - and then allowed myself to look around.

A couple of sweethearts, but no one that stole my heart.

We went to another shelter, not as nicely run... I found what MUST be Lover's grandchild... she has his nose, eyes, jaw, coloring... rubs like he did. From the same part of town where he was picked up. But she is too young and a stray... we need an older cat who is happy at home. Someone with personality, likes his people, and gets along well with cats.

There was this one fellow - looks to be about 5-7 years old - jet black, green or yellow eyes, I forget - a loud purr and a very oriental shaped face - suggests Siamese, but he's all black. My white guy is part Siamese for sure... he barks and had crazy fits. That could work.

He was surrendered to the shelter as a stray - but he was already neutered and declawed! And fat! He's not feral, that's for sure.
Friendly boy, good energy - a bit skittish of one of the handlers there... and afraid when they take out the wand to scan for microchips... it's painless and doesn't touch them, so I'm not sure what all that's about.

Also he had some hair loss on his back legs - supposedly due to fleas which he had when surrendered to the shelter 1.5 months ago. We were told his hair is growing back. Not sure of the real story there.

He strikes me as a boy that could be fun, gregarious, which I like in a cat. Could be a clown, which might be exactly what I need.
But I'm nervous. I'm just not sure he's the one. I may go visit him again. Or I may not.
My first feeling is an urgency to find my white Angel a housemate - and let love come later.
This is a big committment that I don't want to regret.

Lover adopted me. He was all for me. This next cat needs to be for my other cat as well as me... and i'm still mourning what I had with my big boy.
I know I won't have that again, probably ever.
He will always live in my heart.

Perhaps it is time to send in the clowns... (I hate that song! Sorry Stephen...)
To see my white boy having fun would do my heart good. I'm always going to miss my baby, no matter who is around!

Yesterday I commissioned a portrait of him from a wonderful artist from Texas. I know she will do a good job capturing the love and energy he bought to us.
www.artpaw.com
And his picture will be part of a fundraiser this April for the shelter that brought him to us.
http://monmouthcountyspca.org/

PS - Yesterday I received a sympathy card from Cheshire-Pirate!  Of all things - that Jo should remember me like that.  It was sweeter than sweet.

PPS - And I forgot to mention that I inquired about volunteering at the shelter (the nice one). The not-so-nice one where I may end up adopting a cat needs a lot of management and I can't handle that emotionally at the moment. The other shelter is more structured and managed well - a better place to me to learn and grow - and later take on more responsibility if my relationship and work with the shelters ever flows that way. Right now I see myself as more an administrative, practical help - perhaps counselor one day or spokesperson - I can do presentations. We shall see, but I want to start the process by volunteering. I need that connection to the people who share my values, interests and vision. And I don't want to forget about those that really need help. They need education... Perhaps being a spokesperson is really where I belong!  Say a prayer for me. Us. x

I talk to Lover everyday about it!
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They find a comfortable spot in your heart to live in for ever and ever.




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It's time for a change. I need to be around people who share my interests and values. I need to find a way to do more work for the people who care for animals.
There are a million blogs and pet stores out there, but I would love to have one that exists to make a difference, not just to market wares.
Or maybe an adoption counselor. Or maybe write a book. Small steps...
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You Can't Make This Shit Up

Yes, we buried the cat today. It's getting cloudy now, but it was a beautiful a day as yesterday was appropriately dreary.

While the sun was still shining - I took a walk.  I usually find change...
Today, this was waiting for me - the only item on the site where folks from an apartment house leave their trash... and it was perfectly clean...

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Not only did my boy choose his time to go - he chose his own memorial !  We are amazed and humbled. x
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And He Did

And God asked the feline spirit
Are you ready to come home?
Oh, yes, quite so, replied the precious soul
and, as a cat, you know I am most able
to decide anything for myself.

... Are you coming then? asked God.
Soon, replied the whiskered angel
But I must come slowly
for my human friends are troubled
for you see, they need me, quite certainly.

But don't they understand? asked God
That you'll never leave them?
That your souls are intertwined. For all eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is....forever and ever and ever.

Eventually they will understand,
Replied the glorious cat
for I will whisper into their hearts
that I am always with them
I just am....forever and ever and ever.

~Author Unknown~