The Ups & Downs Of My Life
Now On The MerryGoRound Of Stability
Journal created:
on 25 July 2004 (#3941500)
Updated:
on 8 September 2011
Name:
Lea
Website:
CONTRADICTORY
Do you see me as the unique person I am,
who is determined to help you turn that frown upside down?
The confident person,
who says 'together we can stand to unite to educate and ease stigma'
A mask plastered firm and strong?
Or do you see the vulnerable girl
Assertive to get things done,
that way you wont walk all over me, as others before you have.
Strong,
but how do you measure that strength?
Crying for happiness of accomplishments,
or crying from yet another paralysing flashback.
Physically scarred for life,
or scars of survival?
Content at barely leaving the house,
yet able to leave to help you out of the dark world you live within.
Fear of everything and anything,
yet fearless in a passion of wanting to change the world around me.
Starting to feel in love,
with a world of mystery and intrigue.
Firmly stood upon the ground,
yet flying high to the success of a small bit of self belief.
| Self-Injury: You are NOT the only one. | ||||
March 1 is SI Awareness Day.
| Marriage is love. | |||||
What do a few people who know me really think?
SELF INJURY CAN AS I SADLY KNOW FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCES BE A ROLLER COASTER RIDE, IN ORDER TO SURVIVE, IN A WORLD WHERE 'HEALTHY' WAYS TO COPE VANISHED LONG AGO. OVER 15 YEARS OF MY 26 YEARS OF LIFE WERE DOMINATED BY THE CLENCHING TEETH AND POWER IT HAD OVER ME, I WOULDN'T SAY IT HAS LET ME GO, JUST I HAVE FOUGHT IT HARD IN ORDER THAT THE FOLLOWING TICKERS SHOW MY PRIDE.
'This year'
'Overall I have been clean for'
When confidence is low, it helps to be motivated by those who you know you can rely on, so therefore quite sometime ago now I asked my 'Friends list' for some quotes or words of wisdom about myself and this is what they said ...
tabitha When I was having a hard time two years ago, that night I was talking to you and about to cry, you told me, "You want a laugh?" and I said, "Sure! Why not?" And you blurted out, "HUGS AND PIGS!" and we decided that hugs and pigs will rule the world!!! hehehejinxxed You rock my socks!!! Lame I knowbenkylemom You take care of others when you're the one in pain. You have courage and wisdom, and for all you've been through you carry a lot of love for the rest of the worldnecromancer7 You're one cool, crazy chickie!!!snjstar You are a great friend who I speak to nearly every day, although you live 200 miles away from me acceptance, adhd, alex parks, angel cake, angelina jolie, angels, ann summers parties, anxiety, arthritus, atavism, autism, awareness, bahons in social care, bailieys, being jewish, belle & sebastian, benzos, bipolar, bisexuality, blood, bon jovi, bouncing, boys with long hair, braids, broadband, but i'm a cheerleader, camp, candles, cheese, chocolate, complex ptsd, creative, crocs, dare to dream, digital camera, disability awareness, disney, ds, dying my hair, dyscalculia, dyslexia, dyspraxia, eating out, ebay, educating, empowerment, equality, extentions, fair trade, fairies, fibre optics, flute, freecycle, fridge magnets, frogs, gay rights, glitter, graham norton, hair dye, haribo, harry potter, hyperfocusing, in loving memory, jaffa cakes, judaism, kaiser chiefs, keira knightley, knowing my rights, kosher cooking, lamictal, leeds, leeds united, lemon cake, lip balm, little britain, live journal, love, lush, lushcosmetics, mac makeup, madona, manic street preachers, marmite, melatonin, mental health, music, neuro diversity, nick drake, nintendo ds, oasis, old photographs, online family, petitions, photobucket, piercings, pink, planning my wedding, poetry, postcards, pot, pride, ptsd, queer jews, rainbows, rapid cycling bi polar, razors, reading, robbie williams, rubber ducks, seamus heaney, self injury awareness, serequal, sex, sexuality, shakespeare, sleeping, social care, social phobia, swimming, t shirts with slogans, tears, teddy bears, temazepam, the verve, thumb rings, tigger, torey hayden, traveling, underactive thyroid, web designing, wedding, writing a book, x factor, yahoo chat, yankee candles, youth work, שלום, תיקון עולם