A New Chapter

Add vac_slut. It's my new LJ.

So, life's settled down.

I'm back at my parents house. I just got back from the Xbox360 release party..they had 30 premiums and 7 cores. We were lucky number one!
FOR THE CORES. ICK.

31...I hate that number. Fuck it.

Other than that...lots of crazy shit has happened.

I'm going back to school..probably GED option which still gives you a diploma with 2 hours of school a day. I'll adore it. Simply adore it. w00t.

I saw Caleb Waterman and he said hey and we talked for a few. Other than that nothing overly eventful.

Why am I sometimes in such a bad mood, when an hour later I can't understand what put me there. How that mood was in any way logical.

I felt like such a fuckup last night. For no real reason. Mike was a sweetheart though, and it was really comforting.

My fingers are all cut up. I've no idea wtf happened, Mate.

The LoC Productions show rocked, even though Mike couldn't come. Bennett kept me company.

And the rumor's died.

Sarah Johnson felt the need to write that she "fucking loves" my boyfriend on Jeff's car.

I'm gonna kill the bitch.

Let me break it down for you:
Total of 14 friends.
Guessed the author of 10 entries.
I got 10 correct.
I'm a good friend like woah.

Doubt, despair, paranoia, helplessness, passion, love, hate, regret, nostalgia, sorrow, pity, forgiveness, rage, hurt, longing, care, concern, mania, unwillingness, weakness, fear, guilt, stupidity, restlessness, uncontrollable, crying, inability, sub-par,

.now.

A kiss I can't have. A hand I can't grab. One I've always wanted. A knife to be stabbed (in the back). My heart to be dead. Something I never wanted.

Another day of Indy hitting on me.
And Mike not being there to stop him.
Grr.

So, I sat at Jill's for an hour and played fable while Jared and Indy played Zelda, and went home.
I'm out of cigs, and completely out of money. Actually I'm in debt, about 13 bucks. Fuck.


And why must he always point out the flaws...

Me and Mike walked over to Jenn's and got extremely fucked up before I showed up for school at 11 for 4 Rivers.
He chose sitting there with her over walking me to school.
Do I see another Eden situation bubbling?
Yes.
And I don't like it.
Maybe Brazer was right.

polyamory is love
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Stole the islovegenerator idea. So true. So f'n true.

Regrets are building up again, putting myself off as something in my mind i'm not but in other's minds I am. But all of this is subjective, they should understand that my mind is different and I need different things for happiness.

I need to be held and not always wanted. I need to be used knowing it. It feels damn good.

Movement to a new residence. Jenny's, now with an ex due to a grown backbone as of late.

Great times last night at the graveyard with Aaron. Wow...big. Hush hush when it comes to the ex.

Free fries and shakes at Dan's workplace. Gotta love it.

That's my life recently and I love it more than I thought life could be loved.

Tomorrow I'm going to the counsilor about the straight pride shirts.