Dymanite.

SERIOUSLY considering starting to use this again. I need a place to put fucking everything, badly.

Is anyone still around? Herro? UGH. I've been so neglectful of this. I mean...totally pass neglect. I sorry. Or something.

-Fuck yo' grandma!

-Don't be a motherfucker and bleed on someones best clown shoes.

-brush your teeth.

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On a completely unrelated note, I miss the hell out of Kali lately. I was her best friend, attached to her hip, the most important person in the world to her for so long. I don't know where I fit into her life anymore, and I have no idea how to talk to her or how to tell her I still love her more than any other friend ever could. It makes me so sad that I've completely missed now near two years of Bella's life. I was supposed to be Aunt Jennafee. She says I am, but how can that be possible when I wouldn't be able to recognize that little girl in a crowd if I had to?

Ugh.

I wonder to hell, everyday, when I lost such control my emotions, and my understanding of who I am now and what I'm going to be one day. It feels like forever since I've know what the hell I am doing. I feel like I'm drifting about in outer space. In not but a dingy boat. No joke. I'm utterly lost. .


xo.
<3

Jenniferish, Robanese, Asshole, and of course, English. But its definitely more of a second language.

waking up monday morning?! *headdesk*

never dig.
you will always be my heart.
so never exist as something dirty.
stand as more than just bones.
hold on to all of your imperfections.

if ever you must recoil, move with grace.

i hope the sky is unfolding before you where ever you are.
i hope you count the stars and never feel alone.

please muster your strangest heartbeat and send it to me,
because I'm feeling inside out and unpretty.

jennifer@2009

asshole.
bookwormy.
constant.
dominant.
eldritch-y.
fleshy.
grateful.
heliophobic.
impulsive.
jesuitical.
knitter.
lumpy.
malicious.
nesh.
obnoxious.
predatory.
questioning.
rad.
steady.
tough.
underwater.
venerous?
welter.
xenolith. haha. i hate utah.
ywar.
zendik.

Nothing is sacred anymore, I swear.

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-jennacide

leave what love is.