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deerfeed2020-04-05 09:02 am
dramaquinn) wrote in deerfeed2020-04-05 09:02 am
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[ This is something that's come up in conversations recently, something that's been at the back of her mind for the last few weeks. She's deeply curious— she can't be the only one— but naturally, she doesn't want anyone to know it's her. So here we are. ]
Does anyone else feel like they don't want to go back to their world?
We've met so many people here, people we never would've met otherwise. We've formed bonds. We've made memories. Despite the shit this place throws at us, and sometimes because of it.
I don't want to lose that. I don't want to get reset and live my old life again. I've gained so much here.
I don't know that we can do anything about it, though. I guess I just want to know if it's not just me.
[ ooc: If your character is tech savvy, feel free to somehow figure out this is Alice. If Alice talked to your character about this earlier, also feel free. ]
Does anyone else feel like they don't want to go back to their world?
We've met so many people here, people we never would've met otherwise. We've formed bonds. We've made memories. Despite the shit this place throws at us, and sometimes because of it.
I don't want to lose that. I don't want to get reset and live my old life again. I've gained so much here.
I don't know that we can do anything about it, though. I guess I just want to know if it's not just me.
[ ooc: If your character is tech savvy, feel free to somehow figure out this is Alice. If Alice talked to your character about this earlier, also feel free. ]
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deerington sucks and I want to go home but the longer I stay, the less i wanna leave people behind.
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But in my experience, memory resets are weird.
You think it's all gone - and it seems to be, pretty much - but I think something about the experiences still stay with people, even if they don't remember it.
Bonds, particularly.
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But those bonds— remembering them but never being able to talk to those people again? That's what really hurts to think about.
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There isn't anything for me back in my world. No family. No friends. People that I trusted and loved died, all lied to me before their deaths.
Maybe nothing had been trying to kill me but I'll take that over being alone.
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I hope you get a choice, whether to stay or go back, or maybe go somewhere else. I guess that's what I want— a choice.
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but i want to stay here otherwise
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But I don't know if I've been here long enough to make that decision. I could think of worse places to stay.
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I know you don't have an answer. I'm just thinking out loud. Looking to see if anyone else feels this way. It's looking like other people do.
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—@b.dearborn
I miss the family that I have back home, every day that I'm here. But I also grew up with him, he raised me and we had years to know each other. All of the things I have here, I didn't have there, and I know he would want me to keep these relationships for as long as I can. We're both very familiar with losing people too suddenly.
I can't say that I'm happier to be here in Deerington itself, but everyone I've had the chance to meet even briefly has given me something I value. If I were given a choice to return today, I'm not sure if I would take it. ( it's...pretty much a 'no' on going back, at current, it's just difficult conceptualizing actually saying it still. )
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[ She just, you know, wasn't paying attention to anything outside her little world while in Rapture. Rude tbh. Ben is your friend, Alice, why are you like this. ]
I don't know about my family back home, but your last point, I agree with. Right now... I know I have to go back and finish something I started, but the people I've met here are important to me, and I don't want to give them up. I don't want to have to choose to give one up.
I want the best of both worlds, which might be the problem. You know what they say about having your cake and eating it.
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Jesus. When did I become such a sap?
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anon; i'm so sorry about her rofl
But either way, in my old life, I didn't have the same relationships back home that I do here. I don't think anyone really cares about us enough to spend magic or energy or power making sure we keep what we want when it's time to go back, though. Who even knows how long they can keep up this dream? Who's to say we won't just blink back to our old lives if they get tired?
There's nothing we can do about it, and it makes me angry. And sad. But right now, mostly angry.
not a problem!
that tag hurt me and made me laugh, A+ i love it
i'm glad for the laughter part!
they gotta meet even tho she'd never come clean lmao
yesss he understands people have secrets and i love her already ;;
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That doesn't mean I don't treasure the people I've met here and I feel like there are things that need to be done here before I go back.
So I can't relate all the way, but I think I know what you mean.
I'm sure you're definitely not the only one that feels that way. At least I've talked to a few people who I'm sure do.
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I think you might relate better than you imagine.
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i don't want to go back, even though my best friends are here with me.
cause it's different here.
i don't have to pretend, here.
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Neither do I. In a lot of ways, it's better here.
There's no easy answer to what to do if and when the time comes. I guess we can take comfort in the fact that we're not alone.
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I have nothing to go back to, so I imagine my motivation is very different to yours.
[ it's kind of depressing when you put it down in writing. ]
What can you gain here that you can't gain when you wake up?
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[ That might mean she has to plan a few thefts from the Library. ]
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I miss my sister. She's the only reason I would.
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[ She'd bring Charlie here if he wanted to come. Though, if Charlie were alive to begin with, none of this mess would've started. So, okay, moot point. ]
I'd go back if I knew I could leave again, or keep what I've gained here.
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think I feel much like you.
I don't want to go back.
I feel like it's a bad thing to think, after every thing that has happenned to me here
but I think it all the same.
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That's not to say the people I've met and come to know mean so little to me that I'm just going to cast them off. I do care about these people. Maybe I have something to learn from this, from the people I meet here.
In ways, it feels harder the longer I stay. Leaving these people behind.
But I haven't changed my mind.
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[Namely: revenge, death, and revenge.]
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[ Almost. This whole thing is like a complex spell whose metamath she has to crack. ]
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had you asked this a month ago, I would have thought nothing back home was as bad as the nightmare scenario that is this place
but now i'm inclined to agree with you
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