I'm at the last section of Mass Effect 3. Said goodbye to my team, done all the scanning of planets, done every side mission that's come up, finally ready to finish the game.
But.
I know my Shepard is going to die. With this Shepard, the one I've imported from ME1, I wouldn't have it any other way. I picked Sole Survivor and Earthborn as his background, so he's had enough. My War Assets are sitting at 2800 so I know the galaxy will be safe at least. It's a kind of mix of feelings, that I've imported this Shepard, Daniel, from the first game and now he's going to die. There's few games that I've got so attached like this, that I'm sitting here, I know I'm going to cry through it probably (and get laughed at by my boyfriend for it, the sod) but there's a sense of pride strangely. I'm proud of him, despite he's not my canon!Shep, my femShep, Leah is, intending on starting her tomorrow from ME1 and importing her through the games.
I'm determined I'm going to finish it tonight, no matter how long it takes as I want to see Danny's story to the end.
And I'm probably going to be a blubbering mess by the time the track "I'm Proud of You" comes on, all the way through to "An End Once and For All".
Even if it is only to say that sensory overload fucking sucks.
My iPod is being a dick and not syncing music from the PC after I loaded most of my music collection onto iTunes on the laptop. I'm now wanting to use the PC as my main source again for music, except it's decided no it doesn't want to and has fallen out with me. I really need headphones and to block out everything for a while, at least then that should stop me from being so ratty. That and I want to try and start shading a drawing I started of Jess from Until Dawn.
I do have emails to get caught up on as well which I've been meaning to do. That is in part, my own fault as I bought Fallout 4 on release day and have pretty much been glued to it since. Also went to Liverpool and Newcastle recently. Liverpool was for Fiance's 30th so we went round the football stadium, Anfield. Didn't have time to go round the museums though, the Steven Gerrard and the Liverpool Story as we had to get back to the bus but it was nice to see and it's something he's wanted to do for years. So I'm glad I made it happen.
Newcastle I haven't been to for a year or so, but both my parents gave me money for it so I managed to get most of my Xmas shopping done and some things for myself, so was quite happy with that. Only thing I didn't get was some PS4 games for myself as my dad has got me a PS4 for my birthday/Xmas whichever he decides on.
Need to make an appointment at the clinic as well for more Amitriptyline as I've only a few days left. Last time I didn't take them, I had nightmares all night and started hearing things, so I do not want to go through that again.
Fiance is back at college as of next week, though he thinks I should go back next year too. That would be my fourth time at college which I didn't really want to do. But, given how much it helped me get through depression, it's probably a good idea. Going between either Games Development or Photography, parents think I should do photography, Fiance thinks games development. Me, I'm not sure. I wouldn't mind a creative writing course to try and make me less self-conscious about it but that sort of thing doesn't seem to exist up here beyond one course in Glasgow.
So going to attempt this drawing, get her lips right for a start and try not to freak out and get nitpicky if something isn't right first go. Debatable if I'll manage it but here's hoping.
Title: The Quiet Elf Fandom: Dragon Age Characters: M!Surana, M!Mahariel Summary: The quiet elven mage turns up without warning and sweeps into Theron's life like a force of nature.
Considering getting a second dog, so I am curious. Has anyone had any experience in introducing a second dog to the one that's already there? Boyfriend reckons Anubis will be fine since she lived with five others before, but I want to do it right.
In another attempt to convince myself I can draw, decided to attempt Cersei in charcoal since I'm on such a Game of Thrones kick. The camera on my phone appears to have eaten a lot the shading and I'm really trying hard not to hate it after spending two hours on it.
NaNoWriMo is over with and I won it. Somehow. Do not ask me how I managed to get 50k done in eighteen days (I counted it on my stats page) as I don't know.
I've promised myself the DLC for Skyrim once Dragonborn comes out on the 4th December (15 days before my birthday, ugh) so Thalin can wander around killing vampires and go back home while Sleeps-With-The-Fishes can have his own estate. And kill Dark Elves that come his way.
For tonight though, I have bought myself some mint Aero hot chocolate, marshmallows, Lily O'Brien chocolates and a few days ago, got myself Leviathan in the Black Friday sale. So that is me for tonight.
And I posted another part to "Dalish and the Halla" if anyone on my F!List has been following it. So nice to be writing something other than my NaNo and I do really want to finish this story. Got the outline all written up and ready, I just need to follow it.
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