I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity

She is all that I want. She is all that I have ever wanted and no I don't know what to do anymore to get her back into my arms. I don't know what to do to prove to her how much I truly do love her. I have never loved anyone the way that I love this girl and it's the worst feeling in the world to feel that you could be losing that special feeling of love.

I hate my life right now. I just can’t take all this fucking pain that I feel anymore. I just don’t understand how you could love someone and not want to be with them. Though you may have problems but there is love there that is like no other kind of love. Like I understand that she is hurting too but I am just dying inside and I really don’t know how much long that I can handle this before I just give up on everything. Life just sucks so much that I don’t even want to be in school anymore and that is weird for me because I love school and I am all about getting my degree but right now I could really just careless. I just want to sit in my room and never leave. That way I wont have to face the world and all the upsets that comes with it. I know this all sounds so dramatic but know one wants to listen to me when I have to vent to get things off of my mind so I guess I am just going to do it here.

I had to pull over and take a picture of this sign in Canada cause I thought it was funny. There is an other one but I'll post it later.

So I decide to have a livejournal again after about, lets see, 3 or 4 years. I wanna see how many times I will actually write in this thing cause when I had my hold when I can't remember how often I actually wrote in it. Well I am bored as hell cause I am at work. There is an alarm going off and it has been since about 4:15pm and it is now 5:28pm. I am going to like kill myself if it doesn't stop cause I am at this post till 8pm. My b-day on Wednesday and I can't wait to go out to eat with everyone :) Well I'm a go and read now and try to block out this noise.