this is my life

i'm fucking weak. and i can't deal with eric dying.
i saw him two weeks ago. i'm seriously weak.
i'm falling away from all of my friends.
thank god i'm going to algonquin in two days.
"we've had some times i wouldn't trade for the world"
it's true. but not they are over.
this summer is suckinggggg.



i cannot come to terms with what has happened this week.
i just can't.

RIP Eric. I love you and miss you more than you know.
watch over me dude, because you were the only one who could make me smile when i didn't want to. (which is hardly ever). telling erin you're gone is going to be impossible, pictures of you are the only thing that's keeping me going. the funeral today was brutal. everyone misses you. you have no idea how many people loved you. i love you.

oh man. lj? how are you.

what do you think of with these phrases

1. I need a cigarette: mike
2. Sex: hips
3. Relationships: cute
4. Your Last Ex: sensitive subject
5. Power: rangers
6. Marijuana: woo
7. Crack: face
8. Food: full
9. This President: nixon
10. War: iraq
11. Cars: fast
12. Gas Prices: high.
13. Halloween: candy
14. Bon Jovi: rakel
15. Religion: stupid
16. MySpace: shut up
17. Worst Fear: deep
18. Marriage: white
19. Fashion: alyssa
20. Brunettes: suck
21. Redheads: fire pubes
22: Work: no thanks
23: Pass the time: with him.
24: Football: bills
25: One night Stands: me gusta
26: Pet Peeve: steve
27: Pixie Stix: snort
28. Vanilla Ice: sorbet
29: Porta Potties: blue
30: High school: is it over yet
31: Pajamas: toronto
32. Wood: firewood
33. Surfers: blonde
34. Pictures: perfect
35. First Love: asshole

it'd be nice to forget i'm jealous. it'd be nice to actually be in that place, that plcae i wish i were in. i'd be nice if for once things went my way.

i know how to be happy, and i know how to smile lke i mean it. i just forget how sometimes.

hi guyss, i just got home from snowboarding, i want to go to sleep but i ate a taco and if you go to sleep right after you eat you get nightmares. we have showcase on friday, which means this week is going to be hectic. rehersal tomorrow from 10-1:30. ahh. i'm so cold and i have a headache.

but i miss alottt. i miss molly, and sar, and northway, and will&grace, and summer.

alright.
bye.

there is nothing better, than a warm summer night, at 2am, spent looking at the stars.
i am feeling so corny, it is ridiculous.
but it's true.
i really miss summer.
alrighttt, goodnight.

listen to
so long sweet summer - dashboard confessional
or
swing life away - rise against

SUCH summer songs, ahh.

OMGGGG,i miss livejournal.
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when did lj go all high-tech?


i don't know. but i just looked back at my entry [http://www.livejournal.com/users/d… from this day last year.

how embarassing? yeah. i miss vinny, so that sucks but that's my fault. but seriously, what a retarded entry. it's just weird to look back at this same exact time last year and think how different you are now. it's kind of retarded to a) be writing this in a livejournal entry, or b) to be writing it at all. but it's true, so i thought i'd throw it out there. being the person i am now, i look back at that and laugh at how fucking stupid that was.

all of it.

this is two entries in one month, crazy!
i was just looking at my livejournal.
HA.
oh how the times have changed.
wrd.

remember when livejournal was cool?