Here reside explorations of the heart...

First post! Awkward post!

One important detail: I'm horribly shy in real life when it comes to people I don;t know well... And it sucks...

I haven't really been known to be a huge crush slut but that's actually because I'm too shy to admit it to other people but I most of the time crush on a guy in my class at the beginning of each school year. Sad, isn't it?

So anyway, my lifetime of crushing-ness! Also, sorry if this is a bit annoying! I'll often just be saying the years I was in when I had a crush but since I am at a French school... Whatever... Also, it gets a bit complicated when I get to high school because I'm repeating most of my years.Ouch, major blow to the ego there...

First crush I can remember was in maternelle (equivalent of kindergarten, I guess...) and there was this boy named Alexis. He was, if I remember well, really nice and sweet and me and a girl were fighting over him! Well, not physically, I think... I hope... And, well, I can't remember, but I think he moved away... (crappy memory... sorry...)

Second one was in primary. I was in Cm1 and was 8. His name was Jérémie and he was really sweet and funny. He moved to Africa...
I swear there was some sort of curse during that period of my life that made people move away!...

Third one was in collège (=middle school, apparently.) and was called Arnaud. In the first two years, 6ème and 5ème, I had a crush on a guy who was in my class during those two years. I sat next to him in French lessons in 6ème because our teacher made us sit in alphabetical order. The reason why I had a crush on him? Girls in my class were bugging me and saying that we would look nice together so, in the end, I was thinking that too. What a stupid reason!

Fourth was in collège too and he was also called Arnaud! This one was from 5ème to 4ème. He was a year older than me but, luckily, we shared the same PE periods and he also went to the same trip in England in 5ème and one day, on the beach, we were all having piggy-back races and he chose to give me a piggy-back ride for the race since he decreed I was the lightest after carrying my friends and I to compare. I guess you can imagine how happy i was that day!

Fifth was also in collège but this time, wasn't called Arnaud! His name is Pierre-Henri but he preferred that we just call him PH. He was something like the class clown and a bad boy. He often boasted to have more than one girlfriend at a time... But I still loved him because he made me laugh and he was cute! Once, on Valentine's Day, he kissed me on the cheek and wished me a happy Valentine Day! ... In front of the rest of our class, while we were more or less patiently waiting for our teacher to arrive.  Actually, I think I still love him and he's the one I'll always love the most among my crushes. Kinda painful just to think about him...

Sixth was in lycée(=high school), on my second year of 2nde. There was a concert at the end of that year and I immediately had a crush on the singer of one of the n=bands, Kévin.

Seventh was still in lycée, on my first year of 1ère on a guy of my class called Nicolas. Seriously, that guy was soooo cute! Though a bit.... Weird... And according to rumors rather weirdly perverted...

Eight an Ninth are this year, in my second year of 1ère. One is named Ludovic and is in my class. But I think that I'm only mini-crushing on him because he reminds me of PH... Life sucks... The other one is the emo-style guy at school and I actually don't know his name... Nice...

Sadder yet, I never have the guts to tell my crushes. Which is getting annoying so this year, maybe!

And now, I should maybe go to sleep...

Well I hear that my old crush, Shaun, doesn't like me. That's what his best friend says, and I believe it so we're just friends...oh plus I got a new crush. It's so easy for me to move from one crush to another. I still like Shaun, but I have a new focus. So how I met him was that another friend of mine was talking to him and I went over and asked who he was because he was cute. He introduced himself and about 20 minutes later my friends were all somewhere else and he and I were alone at the table talking. He kept accusing me of messing up his pool game because he's apparently the best pool player in the whole universe except when I'm around. I thought that was pretty funny. Now on to his weird behavior...

I saw him again this week and he had to think hard to think of my name, but he had been drinking when I met him and he did get it right so I wasn't that offended. I went over and sat next to him and said hi and that I had to get back to my friend but he could come sit with us if he was bored. He said he'd be over later. About 20 minutes later I see him standing in the doorway to the karaoke side (where I was) then he turned and left. He walked back in later, then walked right back out very quickly. Like he looked like he was coming over and then stopped a few feet into the room, turned and left. He came back in later and shook my hand, shook my friend's hand. Sat with us, asked to barrow a cigarette after about 2 sentences. We said we don't smoke. He barrowed one from the people behind us. He asked my friend if she remembered his name, she said yes, it was Kevin. He said he'd lost a $20 bet and then he left to go play pool. He came back in the room about 5-10 minutes later and barrowed another cigarette. I'd like to point out now that I go to that bar every Saturday and though I do think I've seen him before, I do not think he comes in the other side that much, he didn't go over there at all last week. So then he came back with his cigarette, stood in there a while smoking it, but not really talking to anyone, and he wasn't very close to us so I didn't try and get his attention. Then he came back and shook our hands again, tried to make conversation and then left again when we had nothing interesting to say. At the end of the night I went over and said bye to him, he hugged me and then shook my friend's hand and we left.

I didn't realize until now how many times he actually came in and out of the karaoke area. It was pretty weird. My theory is he was either really bored and looking for something to do, or he was trying to get our attention and hang out with us, but since we didn't say much he got tired of it quickly. It's also possible he was in the middle of a pool game the two times he did come over because he went straight to a pool table and continued playing when he left and he said that's what he was going to do.That might explain the short conversations. Now my friend think he's weird. I still think he's adorable, but weird also.

~Robbie

heyy, i'm new to the community, and i will admit that i'm definitely a crushslut.
i've been known to like six or seven guys at the same time. whoops.

currently, however, my mind is stuck on one guy, i've liked kevin on and off since freshman year (i'll be a junior in the fall), and it's definitely very on now.

me and kev work together at a local day camp. so far, he's made fun of me in front of the kids countless times, bribed the kids to drench me with supersoakers, messed up my hair a few times, offered to fight me (we have this stupid rivalry thing) then missed the time we'd agreed on, faux-texted me on a bus, told my kids not to listen to me, and overall driven me crazy over the last five weeks.

and i've fallen madly in love with him. whoops.

he has a girlfriend, though. she'll be in college with a few weeks, and they'll probably break up.
 
well, that's what i keep telling myself.

i've admitted to him that i like him, he's admitted he liked me too. but he picked his girlfriend over me, and after they break up we've agreed to reevaluate things.

as in, this is going to be an interesting schoolyear.,..

So I actually have a real crush for once. Normally I crush on someone who doesn't know me or who I had a random one night stand with, but occasionally I have a crush who I really like who I actually know and who actually knows me. His name is Shaun. I met him by meeting his best friend at a friend's party. Then his best friend brought him along to my party.After my party we went out to breakfast and it's one of those place where they have a bunch of tables for two put together so he and I ended up in our own little world at our table. Now we all go to karaoke most Saturdays. Of course I'm stretching it. After my birthday I hung out with them once at a bar they go to and then I think they came to our place 3 times. The time before this though we (the whole group) stood in the parking lot for an hour then got food and stood in that parking lot for an hour. He knows I like him too. His friend keeps saying stuff like "why don't you two have sex already" and I don't know it's just come up that I like him and I was like "yep". So last night I had my feet in his lap and he was rubbing my feet and it just made me really happy because I don't think he'd rub my feet just for fun. It's usually a flirty type of thing right? and last week I don't know how it got started but he had his arms around my friend and I and we had ours around him and then she let go so it was just me and him and I grabbed his ass just for fun and the let go and then he took my hand and put it back on his ass. He could have been being silly like I was but still, I think he would have been creeped out knowing I like him and him not liking me if I did that and he wasn't bothered at all.

Okay now I'm just getting into boring details, but the point is I like him, he's cute, and funny, and shy supposedly but he totally talks to me all the time and then gets shy with like singing. It feels nice to have a crush that has potential and it also feels nice to really get to know a guy. He probably won't be a karaoke next week and he works in another city all week, but at least on most weekends I get to see him and talk to him and get to know him and not just go out on a date with him right away like I normally do. Friends first is always the best idea. The only problem is, how do I go beyond friends? It seems like we are going somewhere though very slowly, but since he's supposedly shy I don't know if he'll ever totally make a move and I feel really awkward making the first move especially with people around. How do I get him alone when he's only home for the weekends? should I just give him my number one day? I kind of lost my chance at giving it to him just so we could all hang out again because he was already ahead of us one night and I gave my number to his best friend because they wanted to hang out the next night. Now I feel like if I gave him my number it'd obviously be to hang out with him alone since his friend already has my number. What if I put it in his phone while he was singing or in the bathroom? would that be a cut flirty way to do it or would it seem like a was snooping in his phone?

~Robin

Hi everyone,
I have a really big crush on this redhead who goes to my school and rides the bus i use every morning.
He's really funny and is a bit of a class clown. Well, not a bit, a lot! LoL. I've had a crush on him since
last year but tried to act on it because i had given  up on love. I was tired of no one liking me back and prefered to stay alone and be patient for love to find me. Well, a couple month's ago this girl i had recently met were talking about crushes (cause thats what crush sluts do =p) and she was like " Do you like anyone?" and at that exact moment my crush was walking outside with his friends outside the bus. It turned that she sees him everyday and volunteered to be a sort of cupid for me. Everything is really at an early stage (as you can see from my blog! haha, i'm so in love) and yeah, i can't stop thinking about him. I'm doing i can to not tell anyone i know. I like to keep these sort of things on  a low profile. Hehe.

It's tragic that we've let our beloved community decay to the point that it has. No posts in over a month? Why not? Not that I'm free of guilt; I can't remember the last time I posted anything in here. In any case, here goes:

I think I might be in love. I started dating this girl last fall, but then we stopped hanging out due to awkwardness. However, over that nebulous Xmas/New Year's holiday we, we got together, and we've been increasingly inseparable ever since.

And I like it. That's something I haven't experienced in a while.

And she's easy to get along with, which may be a first in my friendship career.

It's a good start.

My current very mini crush is on the guy who played Aladdin in the show I did tech for. I never really had a huge crush on him, but he's cute, and he's adorable with the kids. I didn't let it get too far because I found out he has a girlfriend, but since I have loud-mouth friends they told everyone that I liked him before I even really liked him (when he was just cute to me).So there's this group of little girls who are like 6 and 7 who we call "the Aj fan club" (Aj being his real name) and they seem to consider me a member since they're were always gossiping with me about him. Ie. "OMG AJ's girlfriend is here!" They have taken like 3 pictures of them kissing his cheeks (or toward him since he only has 2 cheeks) and I was invited to join in the last one they took today. I would love to show you guys the picture, but my friend hasn't uploaded it yet. I'll try very hard to remember to post it when I can.

~River

Well, I guess I have been slacking in my crushing duties. But my current two are:

MADS MIKKELSEN

He was in Casino Royale, but I've seen him in a couple of other movies. He's a great actor and Danish, too!

GASPARD ULLIEL

He was in Hannibal Rising, which was amazingly cheesy. However, he was in Le Dernier Jour and was increeeeedible. I think he's not ready to act in English just yet. He should stick to French for now.

So all of you have been quiet little mice lately!!!!

No crushing? Not even a little mini crush?

Are you sure?

...I have a reputation for being a little boy crazy...always with someone who has a bit of a scandalous element to them.
For instance: I'm currently involved with a business man who is twenty-five years older than I am.
Yeah. Wow.
If you want to know all the sordid details, you'll have to get added as a friend since I'm really paranoid about certain people discovering who I am.
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