Ever since me and you, I've been living in a Dreamland.

My boyfriend and I got into a really horrible fight, that got out of hand. For some reason he started screaming, and I just remember looking around on the train and seeing everyone just staring at me with disgust.

I dreamt you were with another girl.



And you've got the hickies to prove it.


x-posted: 2_lines

He called on Thursday...

Told me he loved me and missed me...

Saw him today, he drove Priscilla(mine and his friend)...

She talked to him and apparently he likes this girl...

Her name is Nikki... Mine is Nicole...

I found it strange... It hurt...

I can't eat or think straight...

I'm just hurting from the inside out...

I hope he gets hurt... Like he hurt me...

I wish I could hate him.

I'm so sick of making excuses for something we lost so long ago.
I mean you don't even take the time out to call me anymore.
I really need to face the facts.
I loved you at once time... I swear I really did.
But now I just don't you hurt me so many times.
And every single time I think of you or call.... I'm realizing it is only because I miss what we once had.
Once we were both in love, but that is not the case anymore.
You say you love me, but we aren't together and you only show your supposed "love" for me, when you feel like it.
That's not real. That's not a realationship.
I am not over the "us". But I am done with trying to love you. I just can't make anymore excuses, cause I'm all out. We both need to face the facts, because this isn't a game anymore. This isn't love. This isn't real, It's just the pain of not wanting to let go. And that's what we both have to do.
Is just let go....