I was in love with a boy for four years before I finally won him. We were together for just over two years and one month... until today. I love this boy terribly. He has been my love since I was 14, and for a while I truly thought we would be together forever. My whole side of this is that he was never affectionate when someone else was around; even holding hands was a great effort on his part. I felt like I was a friend, not a girlfriend. He said that since we were past the "honeymoon" phase that he didn't think about being affectionate anymore and that I was strange for still wanting that sort of attention. I don't even know what to think or do right now. I still love him, I do. I just feel so alone right now.
Luckily I have a neighbor who is amazing and he's going to take me out for a little while.
Good god, I just don't want to feel like this at all.
I realize that you don't feel it for me anymore. I accept it. But...I still love you. I may always feel that way, I haven't a clue. Gods know I've tried to get you out of my heart and mind--but it just hasn't worked. And now, you've met your "soul mate." Remember when I was your soul mate? I do. And you're happier than you've been in years. As much as that hurts me, I'm happy for you. Happy that you can love. Hoping some day maybe I will move on.
" And as I moved on, thought I’d blow my mind But as it turned out, I was wrong I met my sorrow, saw her in the eyes She tried my courage She tried my courage, but left me stronger"
i am so tired of missing you. i wish i could get over you once & for all. been seeing a nice guy, but he is not you. i know that i shouldn't compare, but i just can't help it.
i am so tired of mrs. pert & perky thinking that i want to be her friend. maybe in another life, maybe under other circumstances. but i just am not that good of a person anymore. sorry that i didn't come to your b-day party. i just couldn't do it. i hope you had a wonderful day.
Hello again. I just want to say that, of all the groups I've joined, this one has stayed my favorite, because I've made friends here. I know I've been gone for a while, due to circumstances created in my head about someone in particular...and I need a good vent because right now I have no one else to talk to but the computer.
Ever since I first saw the movie "Reality Bites" I saw what kind of romance I wanted...other little girls wanted prince Charming...I wanted...well, someone who was extremely intelligent, and sarcastic.
A few years ago there was Jacob, he was my friend and almost every girl I knew, liked him. He was kind, and funny...and with my good friend Becca. He found out through everyone that I happened to like him, but once my friend dumped him, and I had him, I found I didn't want him anymore. He was too kind, too sweet. He told his next girlfriend that I was his first love. I knew he was mad at me...who wouldnt be, I had led him on. The next year we were friends again, this time Alexa(my best friend) Jacob and I were inseperable. He was different now though, he was a bit more sarcastic...well, to be as close to Alexa and I as he was, you had to be a bit like us. I found myself attracted to him again, and this time it lasted for what seemed like months, we had no label and I doubt anyone but Alexa knew. He was my first real kiss. Niether of us wanted anything more. Then he went out with Sarah, and,we stopped...then started...and he left me and got with one of my friends...then we were back...then I left him and he went out with another one of my friends...it went on like that for what seemed like forever...every time he'd ask me back I missed him so much I couldn't stand it. Last year he wanted to be with me but I didn't want it anymore, I just pushed him away. He is incapable of being with one person...and that is what I hate...and I hate how mean he is to me...we used to be really close but now its like he's trying to kill me with words. And he knows me so well that he's pretty much accomplishing that goal. All we do is fight and ignore each other and something tells me he doesnt care as much as I do...every time he takes a stab at me I want to cry, because I know everything I'm saying back isnt true. I went through this huge crappy period and lost nearly everyone...and all I wanted was for him to hug me and tell me everything was okay. For a while I could tell he missed me too...but I was too bent up on the things he said to tell him how I felt...he'd ask if I hated him and I'd say no...but we're so cruel to each other...you'd never know how I feel. With everything I've lost I realize more and more that I love him...he's all I want...and I'm just too bitchy to say it. It seems like he says the exact same things to me as he says to every other girl...and that's one thing that hurts the most because...I want to be special...but knowing him...I don't know And now he's been calling me...every time I see his name on my phone my heart speeds up so i can't breathe...sometimes he just won't say anything...sometimes I wont answer...and tonight he called me his baby girl...but I have no way of knowing if it means anything. I want to scream.
You've got your mother and your brother Every other undercover Tellin' you what to say You think I'm stupid But the truth is That it's cupid, baby Lovin' you has made me this way So before you point your finger Get your hands off of my trigger Oh yeah You need to know this situation's getting old And now the more you talk The less I can say, oh
I waited here for you Like a kid waiting after school So tell me how come you never showed? I gave you everything And never asked for anything And look at me I'm all alone So, before you start defendin' Baby, stop all your pretendin' I knowyou know I know So what's the point in being slow? Let's get the show on the road today Hey
I'm looking for attention Not another question Should you stay or should you go? Well, if you don't have the answer Why you still standin' here? Just walk away Just walk away Just walk away
I wanna love I want a fire To feel the burn of my desires I wanna man by my side Not a boy who runs and hides Are you gonna fight for me? Die for me? Live and breathe for me? Do you care for me? 'Cause if you don't then just leave.
alright... reader's digest version of him... He fucked me over. broke my heart and stomped on it. Why can't i just leave it alone?? AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!
distressed