Exiled

Im 22 today. Ive been trying to write but even when I have inspiration its harder then it should be. Summers over. :c Thats about it.

This song is wholly relevant to a lot of things right now. Also, enjoy my revamped lj c:

Title: Faithfully
Pairing: Ezio/Leo obvi.
Summary: Leonardo finds out that Ezio has not been faithful. He works to remedy that.
Warnings: Boy/Boy. Groping, molesting and other various yummy things.

For: xiaoellen


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Title: Paint it Black
Pairing: Ezio/Leo post Cesare/Leo
Warning: This is sad and it hints to rape. If you don't want to read that then don't.

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Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty

I dont want to feel guilty. So I wont. Have this instead.



Day 29 - A song from your childhood


My dad would listen to this song all the fucking time. Ha this video.



Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year



This song also describes how im feeling about a lot of things rn. Just the feel and flow of it.

[4:45:30 PM] Lorenzo de'Medici: ... Dildos.
[4:45:43 PM] Leonardo da Vinci: /blinks
[4:45:50 PM] Leonardo da Vinci: are you serious?
[4:45:55 PM] Lorenzo de'Medici: yes
[4:46:14 PM] Leonardo da Vinci: I--really?
[4:46:34 PM] Lorenzo de'Medici: giovanni's away for weeks, sometime MONTHS. i have needs. /gesticulates
[4:46:51 PM] Leonardo da Vinci: Oh I understand I just...
[4:46:58 PM] Leonardo da Vinci: really? dilidos?
[4:47:07 PM] Lorenzo de'Medici: you mean you don't own any?
[4:47:32 PM] Leonardo da Vinci: No...am I supposed to?

I love this.

I really wish I would stop feeling so terrible. I both know and don't know what is doing it. I have always harbored feelings of inadequacy but recently when they hit me they are overwhelming and I just cry. Im not looking for an ego boost or someone to tell me how awesome I am, I just need to put these feelings out there. I dont like being a burden to my friends so I keep a lot of these feelings inside most of the time but I think that's just a bad idea. I have been going at school non stop since January and I just want it to stop. My grandmother passed away a couple of weeks ago and I was the only one in the family that didn't get to see her to say goodbye. My boyfriend is going to Iraq in 3 weeks and im so fucking scared inside for him. Im confused by my own feelings and hate that I cant just come to terms with them and set them aside. Im graduating college in a month and a half and even though I should be happy about it, that scares me too because I am going to be paying on loans and need to find a job.

The only light in my life right now is that fact that I have amazing friends and the fact that im going to Otakon in a month. If that falls through...I dont know what I am going to do. Sorry about the rambling I just needed to get it all out of my system.

There...thats it. /deep breath.

Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play


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Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding

This is my mom and dads wedding song. It will be mine.

Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral


Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh

Spoiler: It also makes me want to puke.

Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument

This is why I got a 5 string bass. This is why I love the instrument.


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Title: Twenty One
Pairing: Altair/Malik
Summary: Modern Au verse that I love so much. Altair and Malik have some business to discuss.
Warning: GTFO if you dont like boys kissing.

For: sushiandpie



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