I'm the only one sitting waiting watching waiting never been to frightens yet to scared to make a difference I wanna see through your eyes but I know there different I thought I was the man and I tryed them all so good I was the best at what they do i can never forget no matter how I try I'm nevver getting younger old man in the back will you remember when you see me sitting there or will you be like me so caught up I've lost the way gonna make a voice that can't be tamed I never was taught how was I to know I'm only just a new one runnin outa road I have to keep a smile on they count on me for power every single one a motherfucking coward I can't be them there eyes should never see that all ther ever was is no more and is forrgoten and rotten and cold and the reason for my eyes that see in ways I thought impossible only a few years ago do we all become empty in the end is nothing a way of life is this all a part of nature have we messed with our own fates I can't. I won't. I did
Someone died the other day don't know if I miss them don't realy remember who they were to me at the time I knew them somtimes I look back to see if I forgot someone along the way but I don't regret the path I've traveled or the mistakes I've made hopefully someday I'll feel remorse I have a hard time feeling sorry for people afraid of work and afraid of becomeing a picture of what they pretend to be against only to find in the end that it never realy mattered to anyone.
It's a great big world that changes every day but still nothings changing nut the money . I want to see what they want me to see it's fuckin hard with eyes so used only the end justifies the means and you don't sleep where you shit . I once thought we were in the process of an evolution but instead I find that all of the gears are actually going in reverse history seems to be lost on souls so aged that they don't want to come close to the reality of the way things actually are souls who have taken a snapshot in time and put it on a repeating loop . Who am I to judge those who I once knew those who are the same even though they've changed those who still believe in a dream that has somehow been distorted. I salute you you are all very important to a world lacking freedom and creativity.
Another promotion comes my way so what the fuck in Alaska I stay another year hopefully well see a good summer this year.I'm ready to start tattooing again. My itchy rash went away a miricle I guess hopefully it's not a sign of somthing worse . My deadbeat dad tried to get ahold of me I think he is having a midlife crisis anyway he can duck off. Can't wait till vacation hopefully everyone else is alive and I love my netflix goddam motherfuxker bitch shit.
So anyways anyhow now I'm up for promotion again they got me runnin this thing called the cultural council my freind is coming from Washington I'm tattooing again everyone around me Is from a strange indie flick I no longer smoke I drink daily I'm taking up skate boarding again my sons b day is next week be ate some pieces of a styrofoam cup hits his head constantly I eat more than ever I'm over two hundred pounds a pouch of American spirit rolling tabbaco is 12.85$ I got netflix it's the best thing ever a lot of people around me are imposters and slot of people don't even know that the people around them can't stand them there is a difference between being a jerk and being firm I know I've been both places no regret though every situation is different. I'm thinking of going back to school for a degree in buisness maybe I'll open a shop I bet it would be smart to have a back up though economy and all rumors fuel all fires and speculation a pasttime activity. I made a Japanese map it wasn't hard but I let everyone believe it was because creativity doesn't come easy for most... End of part one
cant wait for summer it is commin gonna do alot of projects...got a new bass guitar and my fingers hurt,also more zombiewalks commin hope their as good as the last one!
fuck those who oppose we runnin those hoes.....to a world that never appriciated shit you can suck my dick and fuckin like it.....here i come there i go the man right here...and the worms ate into his brains!
im here just waitin on my baby to be born...madaline may alexander should be quite the little handfull i hope.i think everythings gonna be o.k. youknow oil is more expensive then weed now.
anyway the whole alaska thing is gay and i still hate just about everyone i see and want to tell them. im gettin paid 16.50$ and that aint bad im gonna love bein a dad but i feel real sorry for the world shes gonna inherit hope that we kick butt in the middle east and take their oil.anyways my legs are almost full sleeved now with tatts hope i finish before the snow melts ...be good!
