ミ☆ The Writing Collection of Empress Arcana ☆ミ

People still find my works and leave comments... this makes me so happy. :( I'm sorry I haven't been around, whoever still reads this blog. But thank you for everything... It has been a very difficult journey to get back into writing, life becoming more and more difficult to live in. Here I am though and thank you to those who have stuck around this long.

Look forward to future writings. I'm not gone, just trying to find myself again. :)

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To prepare myself to write is such a nuisance… good thing though that once I get writing, I cannot stop—although here comes the kicker, I get distracted REALLY easily. Oh dear.

Either way, let’s use Circus of Illusions for this example, since I will try to get working on it tonight. It’s complex, it has been another year.

What I usually do, as a Tarot reader who uses cards to implement themes into her writing, is I do a card reading. According to the cards I get to weave together a new chapter. Sounds simple right? Not, really, but I have found it to be a fantastic writing exercise.



So yes, those who still look forward to Circus of Illusions, please do look forward to the best chapter to come yet! I know I’m not the fastest writer but I never forget. With everything that has occurred in my life lately, I’m surprised I still have the will to write… but really, writing stories such as Circus makes me feel alive. I am able to express my pain and sorrow—a myriad of emotions—all I have experienced until now, into writing. It is my only escape, the best way to express my self.

Thank you to everyone. I promise, I won’t let you down. ♥



P.S. I sometimes feel a little like the personalities I've given these characters, especially Onew. So much has happened in my life that I sometimes feel I'm losing my sanity... Then again, don't we all feel that way sometimes?

Sorry to disappoint everyone---this is not an update for anything fanfiction related.

This is something I just conjured up, thinking of my darling little Ryouji-kun. I know he is merely a fictional character but he is among my favorites. Tsuzuki Asato from Yami No Matsuei is another. Of course, I realize I like the happy-go-lucky characters that are suffering the most deep down. I find these characters to be full of so much depth. They are beautiful to me. :) So yeah thanks to Nyx Avatar for the first line of this poem!

The Arcana is the means by which all is revealed,
In which we work so hard to conceal,
Liars and sinners we are every day,
No matter the mask we try to convey.


Look deep within in the mirror of your heart,
Reflect the feelings you took apart,
Breathe in,

breathe out,
Sing the song of the soul,
Wonder if it already has been told,
Realize there’s more to the story than it seems,
The reflection in the mirror is merely who you want to be.

Puppet strings can’t hold you in place,
Master or not,
You choose what you want to erase.

Come what may,
The answer is clear,
The path you take isn’t set in stone,
Open your eyes and see what the future holds.

The Arcana is the means by which is all is revealed,
Show the world your worth and what is real.

— Lucy de Lara

More of my original works such as songs and poetry HERE And for crappy covers as songs such as Nightwish,Sally's Song, and even a very cracktastic version of Rasputin's "In the dark of night" HERE

Now, off I go again!

A/N; Can you believe it? It has been over a year, omgness! Do you guys still remember this story? I sure hope so because I'm back. :) It took me quite some time to the ball rolling due to mom being really ill the passed couple of months. Here's to hoping to fast recovery mommy! This chapter might not be as anticipated, but I sure hope my readers will enjoy it anyway. I already started the next chapter so that's why I didn't make this one any longer. XD A lot of drama abound! And stay tuned for some goodies at the end of the chapter!

Title; Circus of Illusions
Genre; Angst, Romance, AU, Fantasy
Rating; Rated M for Mature
Disclaimer; Lucy is a Fag Hag through and through, but thy characters portrayed in thee smut, thou shalt not hers. Sadly, but unfortunately true.
Pairings; JongKey crossdressing!Key, 2min, slight!OnKey, and OnSica <3
Summary; Jonghyun is a journalist working on an assignment for his class, deciding upon this urban legend going around school about a circus that grants ones desires... at a price. He decides to go personally to this circus and join their family, strictly for his article. He never bargained to go so deep that he might lose sense on reality, especially upon meeting a gypsy fortune teller that knows more than he leads on.
Notes; Throughout the story I might post certain images from the Tarot, to go along with the story. I find it helpful for me, especially when I'm trying to get really into a certain scene. I might also post pictures of what I imagine them wearing. BONUS GOODIES AT THE END OF THE CHAPTER

Previous Chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4

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For more Circus of Illusions goodies please visit my tumblr~ http://empressarcana.tumblr.com/ta…

I will probably edit this later. I have been rushed all day. I'll post this onto jongkey later as well~ For now I hope my friends will enjoy this chapter. <3 It has been a long journey and I'm surprised I'm sane... But I always have my own circus of illusions to fall to. I have improved on my photo manipulation skills. :) I love my Onew and Key one. <3 ENJOY READERS, I ALREADY STARTED NEW CHAPTER.

QUICK POST IS QUICK. I'm sorry beforehand my darlings, I haven't had much time for anything. BUT if you would like to keep in contact with me story wise, or just in general....

Twitter: Empressarcana Skype: Empressarcana MSN: keyboom@gmail.com Facebook: Empressarcana Formspring: Empressarcana Tumblr: Empressarcana... See a pattern? LOL OTL I'm usually empressarcana where ever I go. :)

HMMM speaking of FORMSPRING, GUESS WAT... Madame Gwiboon has his very own! http://www.formspring.me/madamegwi… Please ask anything your little heart desires! I'm actually forward to answering these questions. Pervy questions are more than welcome!

So please don't be shy, Madame Gwiboon will answer ALL YOUR QUESTIONS NO MATTER WHAT! ;D

A/N: Here's something different. (Sorry for those waiting on actual fanfiction. ;-; I do have goodies on the horizon though.) I was having one of those days, decided to use my energy productively and write some poetry.

Title: All Around Us

To want to dance,
Sing,
Make love with the beauty all around.

The breeze so comforting,
The music so soothing,
Trials and tribulations of the world aren’t for naught,
We seek for guidance,
We long for clarity,
We wish to make the best of our lives.

What inner peace do we seek,
What name do we call for at night,
What desire runs so deep within the skin,
To the very core of our being.

That breath of fresh air,
The chirping of the birds,
The look on your loved ones face upon realization of the reality,
The love all around.

Blessed be the colors,
The sounds,
the very vibrations of life itself.

Energy swirling in vibrant colors,
From pink to bright blues,
All of the color spectrum,
Love is all around us.

We yearn for something more,
Yet, we have all resources needed,
We don’t have to look anywhere else,
Mother Earth has provided us with all.

The touch of fingertips intertwined with another,
The taste of the essence we live day in and out,
The contagious sight of smiles,
The sound of laughter of those you care for so dear,
The feel of the love emanating from one’s body and soul.

We have it all.

It all depends if one is willing to see and acknowledge,
Through acceptance we open doors to our true self,

The answers we seek lie within us.

In the end,
We are the ones that can open the door,
To find our own truth,
Bravely smile and welcome what lies beyond.

— Lucy de Lara

More A/N; It’s just a bundle of thoughts. I’ve been going through some rough times with family and feeling kinda lost. Wanting to find my own truth to go on. Of course, the truth lies within if we look close enough.
Tumblr link; http://empressarcana.tumblr.com/ta…

A/N; Hey loves, long time no see, As always, there's been plenty of drama. I decided to just post what I have because 1) it was getting pretty long and this whole chapter is only in Onew's pov 2) it's been over a month and I wanted to share something with you guys 3) I don't know when the next post will be because I'm currently very busy trying to stay sane with family issues.

I wanted to dedicate a whole chapter to Onew's character, to get more of his background and his feelings. He plays a very important role in this story.

Title; Circus of Illusions
Genre; Angst, Romance, AU, Fantasy
Rating; Rated M for Mature
Disclaimer; Lucy is a Fag Hag through and through, but thy characters portrayed in thee smut, thou shalt not hers. Sadly, but unfortunately true.
Pairings; JongKey crossdressing!Key, 2min, slight!OnKey, and a surprise <3
Summary; Jonghyun is a journalist working on an assignment for his class, deciding upon this urban legend going around school about a circus that grants ones desires... at a price. He decides to go personally to this circus and join their family, strictly for his article. He never bargained to go so deep that he might lose sense on reality, especially upon meeting a gypsy fortune teller that knows more than he leads on.
Notes; Throughout the story I might post certain images from the Tarot, to go along with the story. I find it helpful for me, especially when I'm trying to get really into a certain scene. I might also post pictures of what I imagine them wearing. I really hope you guys like this one. <3 Also, sorry for all errors and stuff... I was just really excited to post this, and it's pretty late over here.
Previous Chapters; 1 - 2 - 3

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So there you have it, chapter four... I will post this in the communities or something tomorrow. I just wanted to get this chapter out there, seeing as I'm not really sure when my next update will be.

Shameless plugs:
empressreadings kpopastrology tumblr
Fool's Journey (Tarot) Poetry: The Fool, The Magician, The High Priestess, Empress, and Emperor Hierophant and the Lovers

I'll edit this later and stuff. I hope you enjoy the backgroundy goodness of this chapter!

A/N; This chapter is REALLLY long to make up for the delay. I mean almost 15 pages... it's long. I wrote in the hospital(first dad due to surgery then mom for so many other things), on my phone, at my dad's in Miami, in Orlando... I wrote wherever I was able to find time. My time was of the essence therefore the delay. My mom got discharged today so I'm really happy. :) Onto the story then... Hope you like the graphic btw. I was itching to make some sort of banner for my fic. lol


Title; Circus of Illusions
Genre; Angst, Romance, AU, Fantasy
Rating; Rated M for Mature
Disclaimer; Lucy is a Fag Hag through and through, but thy characters portrayed in thee smut, thou shalt not hers. Sadly, but unfortunately true.
Pairings; JongKey crossdressing!Key, 2min(much more screen time in this chapter)
Summary; Jonghyun is a journalist working on an assignment for his class, deciding upon this urban legend going around school about a circus that grants ones desires... at a price. He decides to go personally to this circus and join their family, strictly for his article. He never bargained to go so deep that he might lose sense on reality, especially upon meeting a gypsy fortune teller that knows more than he leads on.
Notes; Throughout the story I might post certain images from the Tarot, to go along with the story. I find it helpful for me, especially when I'm trying to get really into a certain scene. I might also post pictures of what I imagine them wearing. I really hope you guys like this one. <3 Also, sorry for all errors and stuff... I was just really excited to post this, and it's pretty late over here.
Previous Chapters; 1 - 2

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A/N; OMG I finally finished this. It took me way too long for my liking... I have so many notes to add to my a/n... but I will do so after seeing this baby posted. Sorry for any errors and such. I gave it another look, but I'm bound to have a million and one errors.

This is my gift to all the JongKey and 2min shippers. I hope you're all having a wonderful Valentine's Day. Graphic above was made by me for my fic. I'll edit this later....

Please enjoy!~ Remember feedback is love!

Random notes; (will continue to edit as I see fit) I totally see clown!Onew with his Rock of Ages hair. omg so much love right here. I'm completely in love with his hair in Rock of Ages. ;-;

Also, if you only knew the random shit I used for the graphic lol. In fact the "cut out" texture I used for Key's colorful looking outfit was the cloth from a gypsy's outfit. xD In factx2, it's the outfit that he will be wearing for the next chapter. I'll post pictures next chappy. :) sdkjfhdsjf Just kidding, felt like sharing now... Link here http://www.silverliningboutique.co… I try not to get outfits that would be overdoing it for cross-dressing. I want gypsy!Key to wear a gypsy outfit, but not something too revealing... he is still a guy ya know. That one above is gorgeous! I wish I had it! xD

For all your fangirlie Tarot needs ►►► empressreadings

READ FIRST PART OF LOG HERE~


Title; Jongkey rp logs (Confessions of a KPOP Diva Star? lol jkjkjk)
Genre; Angst, Romance, AUish, ABSOLUTE CRACK
Rating; Rated T for Teen ( for this one anyway )
Disclaimer; Lucy is a Fag Hag through and through, but thy characters portrayed in thee smut, thou shalt not hers. Sadly, but unfortunately true.
Pairings; JongKey, sneaky!2min, EunHae, HanChul, SiChul, and other sneaky pairings trying to get JongKey's screen time lol ;) SPARKLee and Super Suitors FTW! (haha, yes I went there)
Summary; Key is distraught and confused because of his feelings for Jonghyun. Something to that cliche extent. This log is basically Key struggling with those emotions, and it getting extremely awkward and complicated along the way.
Notes; This RP log is all about getting to the forsaken hospital to see Key, and all the shenanigans along the way. A LOT CRACKY, a lot pathetically distressing, some just wrong. But I can guarantee babes, you won't be disappointed. OMO Apparently the original post was SO LONG that I had to split the entries in 2! D:
Previous Logs; one, two, three
Intarwebz is srs buzines; These logs will contain images/animations(gifs) and other goodies, to make it more "fun" to read. Most of the images I find randomly, and unless noted otherwise were not edited or made by me. No copyright infringement intended. Thank you. ♥ Also, I'm leaving this as is, typos and all. It's gonna take long enough to actually copy all this on here. If you guys like this, I might share others. :)

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A/N: DEAR GODS, it's inevitable most of these men have a microphone surgically attached to their hands OMG. But for the sake of the story, let's use our imaginations and pretend it's not there. :| EITHER WAY, I'm running on VERY low sleep. I officially finished this log at 7am with no sleep in my system. I slept for three hours, and was awaken by my baby cousins. They came back from their father's house today, so yeah.

This log had SO MANY people, and dear Gods there's more coming... I'll add more notes if I can remember anything I want to say. ;-;
Next post will be Chapter 3 for the Circus of Illusions~ And a surprise for my readers. <3

I think I should totally make a post about the siblings and family tree and what not. :3 There's a lot of funky combinations.
So far, Heechul(SuJu DUH) and Taemin are bros.
JiYoon(4minute), Key are brother and sister, with Kevin(U-Kiss) as cousin(who will pop up next time >.>)
Jonghyun, Amber, and Donghae are the Dinosaur family and I made them all real siblings. :)
EunHyuk(SuJu) has a sister by the name of Jessica(SNSD) LOL, DON'T ASK ME WHY I JUST DID.
MORE CRACK FAMILY PAIRINGS TO COME~ MAN WHAT BEAUTIFUL FAMILIES UNF
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW CLOSE I WAS TO MAKING LADY GAGA, LADY HEE HEE'S (Heechul's alter-ego)GODMUM OR SOMETHING. LMAO

Oh yeah, and thank Shakira for some real sexy JongKey stuff next post~ ;)