epic escapist love

This is a mostly public journal. The only things that are f-locked are my whining and updates, and not even all of that gets locked. I only do it when I feel this journal is getting cluttered with my ramblings and feel motivated enough to do something about it.

I will be crossposting from Dreamwidth primarily, but feel free to comment anywhere!

Friending policy is this: Friend at will, no comment necessary. I will probably add you back, but this is more likely if you do leave a comment. Up to you.

I've decided a master post might be good. So here it is. Fic, episode reactions, the works. Most recent at the top, going in decreasing order in fandom.


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Hey, LJ. Long time, no update. ...or log-in. You know it's bad because I've been re-reading entire old fandoms and when I get to fics on livejournal, it's all WELCOME, LEARN ABOUT US, and buddy. We've met.

Anyway, I was poking through my own journal to find something and decided I wanted to lock down some stuff and realized...I couldn't remember my damn password. So this whole evening turned into a version of "If You Give A Mouse A Cookie..." but more "If You Give a Clev LJ access...she's going to want to tidy up everything in it."

Ugh, seriously, it's been so long that my happy lists I dated to be 2nd and 3rd entries on my journal have not only past that ~future date~ but that would have been a year ago. Dang.

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I dunno, shouting into the void here I guess, but sometimes it shouts back.

Hi internet! Long time, no whine.

Work's been a shitty shit fest of hell, so I'm not talking about it. School's been busy busy busy. But hockey started!

... no one talk to me about the Rangers. No one *needs* to talk about the rangers, tbh, they can just look at this gif and it explains it all:



#LOLRANGERS #thewrongway #imnotadoctor #etc

I am basically a bitter rangers fan 24/7 now, except for when I am drunk writing a medieval epic about them I guess.

Anyway, I get to watch the Leafs, Rangers, *and* Hawks play today, so. that could be fun, mediocre or a great mixture of fuck awful. WE'LL SEE.

In the meantime, LOOK NUZZLES:



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I've decided to keep the Harem primer and my hockey fics locked since apparently journalists poking their noses around has no intention of ever ending and I don't particularly like it, so I'm using the small amount of control I have over my own sphere to limit that on my end.

♣ The primer parts are all still there on both DW/LJ, they are just access list or friends list only. Drop a comment here or message me if you want to be added to access it, and I'll add you, easy as that!

♣ My hockey fics are all on AO3 and just locked to archive, this is the only one likely to be reversed as a security setting back to public, haven't quite made up my mind on that one.

I know some people are really into the ~open fandom idea, but that's really not for me, so please try to respect that.

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whheeeeee, and now that that is over, I can stop being my 18 different flavors of crazy and actually:
-cut my hair
-paint my nails however I want
-where not superstition tested jewelry
-update my journal
-and wash this jersey because I totally just spilled even more shit on it and AHAHAHA

anyway, HI, LONG TIME NOW TALK, WE SHOULD ALL CATCH UP SOON.

p.s. HAAAAWWWWKKKSSSS

p.p.s. yes, I HAVE been rewatching that Long Live hawks vid and making sappy faces at myself for hours now.

p.p.p.s two goals in 17 seconds, shut the fuck up

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I am still reserving the entire month of April to be a crazy person. Yes, because hockey and play off spots (and waiting for the Hawks to fuck up, I KNOW THAT IS LURKING IN THERE SOMEWHERE) (yes i have trust issues, hush), but ALSO because new term/new schedule/ looming new work life. Pair that with my usual tendency to go somewhat batshit on the anxiety scale in spring anyway and there's a REALLY GOOD CHANCE I'll become on of those mentos + diet coke videos and foam everywhere.

I really don't know why I forget that I go batshit emotionally every spring but I dooooo and I spend most of all day every day going "i did something horrible, didn't I? WHAT WAS IT? DID I FORGET A THING? IS SOMETHING ON FIRE? DID THE ENTIRE WORLD CHANGE THEIR CLOCKS EXCEPT FOR ME EVEN THOUGH DST ALREADY HAPPENED? DID I ACCIDENTALLY TIME TRAVEL????"

^ the above is actually basically a thought process I had today as I was leaving work, I shit you not. along with MAYBE THE TIME OF THIS SHIFT THAT I HAVE WORKED FOR 2 YEARS NOW HAS SUDDENLY CHANGED AND NO ONE TOLD ME BC WHAT IS LOGIC??? Basically I am going to bake myself some crazy cupcakes next weekend (cherry chip cake mix with cream cheese frosting, it's been decided)

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In news that is more fun/ exciting, FALL OUT BOOOY! \o/ I have been streaming the album all week and if nothing else, it has been getting me through my finance homework much more calmly than anything else. YAAAY music.

Also, ELEMENTARY! I thought I was really far behind, but turns out it was only one episode. So I caught up AND I even caught the latest as it was happening like on a tv and everything. (and now I wait. siiigh tv). but yes, I LOVE THIS SHOW. A LOT. AND I KNOW IT.

Obviously hockey is happening bc I already mentioned that. And I am planning work meetings around it because I am an AMAZING adult like that. So close to playoffs and crushing disappointment, in any combination or order depending on which teams I mean <3 (please kill me)

All my fannishness right now is basically reserved to actually like. watching hockey games (let's be real, I care way more about the sport than the fic and I want to set the FANDOM on fire more often than anything actually related to the sport. except for Mike Smith's hair, of course) and the super odd selection of random fic from basically any fandom. too much school reading makes me only want to read really good fic though, which loooool is hard to find some places.

I feel like I might try to write? Because I have to write a lot more school papers this term and writing/fail writing fic always seems to go hand in hand with that. Weeee shall see. if nothing else, I will write a lot of rants all over the internet over how everything sucks and I am a lunatic like I did just now. IT'S WORDS. THEY COUNT FOR SOMETHING

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Basically the last time I make a peep on here, all my teams had won in one night! And that happened again so, symmetry in the universe or something dictates that I talk. That, and boredom because it is spring break and I of course signed up to work it again. Which means I actually have a lot of free time and a completely out of whack emotional response to that which is: feeling incredibly guilty and anxious. FOR NO REASON. I get a week off of classes, I have my final grades, work isn't stressing (even though I KEEP GIVING MYSELF TASKS AND PROJECTS BC I AM BAD AT NOT HAVING THINGS TO DO), and basically I am just sitting here feeling like I secretly kicked a puppy (I didn't, I swear). But also I always get -- way more anxious and depressed come spring time because yay annual rhythms of making myself feel like I am losing my damn mind. SIGH, whatever, I mostly know how to deal with myself now. Anyway,

LET'S TALK HOCKEY!

Did YOU know the Rangers could get 5 goals in one game? Because I SURE DIDN'T and I would have bet they didn't either but OH LOOK THAT'S WHAT THEY DID. No seriously, that's only happened like twice this whole season and the last time was back in February, so all trolling aside, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.



Okay so the trolling did not stay aside for long but a) accurate b) dz is still the light of my life and c) look I learned to gif some since I talked to you last! (yes I made that. tho. giffing with ps elements is. not the most effective?)


The Leafs have still somehow been less pain than the Rangers and are still doing better and yeah, the universe does seem upside down but that's okay, I WILL TAKE IT. Lupul's been doing good ever since he come back from being broken. Provided he isn't suspended. OH lupul.

And the Hawks are the Hawks and the Pens apparently refuse to perma-take the President's trophy from them. >:|
I really hope we get Hossa and Sharpy back soon :(
It's really weird how mostly not stressed about like. anything about the Hawks I am. Especially since Corey Crawford is no longer the goaltending leader for any stats and that just feels MUCH more normal and comfortable to me and not like a lie. Ilu crow, but you are not yet a level of magic where I would accept that as anything other than some kind of trick. Yes, I make no sense.


I really can't believe that there's only 14-16 more games for all my teams though and fully anticipate spending the entire rest of this season being a basket case.

Oh, also, you know, doing school since that start's up next week with all new classes and coming down to the final planning stages of my sister's wedding. Which is still hell. Though heyyy I might get to be my almost-brother-in-law's best man for it because any of his other options could end up in jail again WHO KNOWS!

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In a ~shocking break from our current break from the norm, I'm posting a round-up of fics I've posted technically this year!

Duck Tales - Hockey RPF, ~2,700 words, Patrick Kane/ Jonathan Toews, Sharpy's POV

“I think he needs floaties.”

Patrick resists the strong urge he gets to slam his head against the wall. “Kaner. He’s a duck; I don’t think the make floaties for them. What kind of duck can’t swim?”

“The kind that are magically transformed hockey players?” Kaner suggests and damn it, he has a point.

a.k.a Duckling!Johnny. That only exists because it brings me and Sarah joy. and Johnny has a duckface. don't even try to argue.


Conflict Resolution: You Are Doing It Wrong - Inception, ~2,400 words, Arthur/Eames, crack

Wherein Cobb displays some questionable parenting abilities since he thinks it is somehow a wise decision to handcuff Arthur and Eames together. Arthur is now positive the man is insane.

The Inception one is technically ~2 years old and started out as a thing piecesof_reeses and I were attempting to cowrite. aaaand instead we reached a point where I rewrote it and sat on it, then finally washed my hands of it. Yay!



...If anyone has learned anything from this post, it is that I suck at titles and titles are the worst.


In good, not fic related news, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY TEAMS WON TONIGHT \o/ YAY RANGERS! Apparently we play better when Nash, DZ, and Mac aren't injured, WHO KNEW? Not me, but then again #imnotadoctor. Also the Leafs won (Leeeeeeeaaafsss) and Kadri got his first hattrick! It was super exciting. :DDD And then the Hawks won. And Johnny *almost* got a hattrick but no cigar. And *I* experienced super attention issues as I was watching all three of these games at the same time. It took talent, skill, dedication, and-- oh who am I kidding, it was hell and I'm amazed I caught anything that happened ever.

Also I am mostly not sick anymore and capable of eating real food sort of again! Stomach bugs can go diaf.


*Dear everyone who got that song stuck in my head-- I'm looking at you, tumblr-- >:|

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I feel like I haven't talked here in forever probably because uh, I haven't. Especially since it's been mostly ALL THE HOCKEY and way less twitter caps, so I just post them on tumblr instead of doing a round-up. Speaking of hockey a) HOLY SHIT HAWKS, I CAN'T EVEN b) LEEEEEAAAAAAFS c) Rangers, wtf are you doing what why what?


So in hilarious news, I was telling my coworker about this exchange I had with my mom last night that was basically me following her around giving her updates on everything hockey of the week:

Me: \o/ <-- (actually did this) "and so concludes, YOUR HOCKEY UPDATE OF THE WEEK! Until Hawks tomorrow."

Mom: "You should have a blog"

Me: "Mom, I have like, three. Actually four, if we've being technical"

only I left off that last line when I was telling coworker because AHAHA not telling them about my blogs ever, and coworker goes: "You really should, I would read it"

She really would to, because her favorite part of any work day is looking to see if I left any notes in the office log. Where I am a similar level of weird as I am on the internet and she thinks it is hilarious.


In other news, my mother ALSO got a long ramble from me this morning on HOW MUCH I LOVE ELEMENTARY, because I do. Minus last night's episode, I am all caught up and so freaking pleased with this show. Like, cannot even articulate it.

Other things in the world of clev:
1. We are getting down to the wire on winter term, I have one last midterm to go! Ugh, school
2. I am kind of figuring out how gifs work! (all the better to torment people with Kessel/Bozak :D)
3. We did finally pick bridesmaid dresses and people PROMISE I don't have to be involved in any more wedding events until like, the actual wedding shit. THANK YOU, UNIVERSE.

Anyway, what up, lj/dw? Long time no ramble.

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Can we just talk about how 2013 is apparently the year that wants to give me back everything I've ever been waiting for? Because we are 2 for 2 right now and that is AMAAAAZING.

And basically I am rolling around in nostalgia music and NEW MUSIC, and favorite old fics, and waiting super impatiently for piecesof_reeses to be around on the interwebz so I can scream at her some more.

IT'S LIKE BEING 15 AND BAD AT HTML ALL OVER AGAIN. \o/

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