cellkiller_hell

I'm having a blast here in Michigan. I forgot how beautiful it is. I love it so. I can't get over I have to leave tomorrow, but...I'm so happy right now. Make it last just a little longer.

I've come to realize that although I act like a kid, I really can't stand these little teenagers that parents just drop off to the avenue. As much as I love brevard, it's really a let-down whenever I'm stuck babysitting these little fucks. Are their parents really desperate for sex that they just toss them into my turf? Do they not know I'm in the middle of a bloody social session. I'm contemplating moving to Delaware with my friend, Josh. We got business to take care of seeing as how it's usually the case with most of these strange lairs I seem to dig myself in. It's fairly cloudy outside, and I frankly think it's quite lovely. The cuts I get on my arms make me look slightly emo....still, nothing beats a cigarette updating an entry outside of Joe Muggs cafe. My hair is getting long too....Oh well. Incubus is my choice of ear infection for today.

Scott Pilgrim vs. The World soundtrack is pure amazing. That movie single-handedly brought Indies back.



Beck is undoubtedly a musical genius in this CD I can't even explain how awesome it is. It made me jizz in my pants. Today's FRIDAY! That means we're going to be scouring the avenue after dark. Here's to the B-a-M and Planet Smoothie crew!! YEAH!

So how do I deal with this? I have no honest clue....I mean...shit...

Do I have a right to be angry at my girlfriend for cheating on me? HELL NO!

I'm the epitome of scumbag in the group that I hang out with. I meet other girls by getting drunk and fingering them before introducing my name. I am in essence a man-whore. Do I care? What's wrong with me?


ABSO-FUCKIN'LUTELY NOTHIN!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA, Call me extremely self-absorbed, but I don't give two shits what girls think of me. For some odd reason, my devil-may-care bad-boy aura that nobody seemed to notice in high school attracts a lot of women to me. But I don't really care about that. My question is: "why"? Why should I get all the women, the glory and everything else. I know friends who would kill to have my reputation like Juban. I'm known to people I don't even know OF. It disturbs me that so many of my guy friends are jealous of me except for Ed, Farlow, Cullen, Zakk, and my friends I've grown to love and share my joy and life with. I love being a Blood. I prop the B's up and C's down, but it's just been so much fun. The money IS the motive. As I speak, Ed's sleeping on the porch. haha, anyway...


I'm pretty sure the karma of being so amorous is going to kill me, but that's not what's important to me. I like establishing friendships based on romantic activities. I live for being an FwB but I love going to school. School is a must, and I do love to learn. Am I an asshole? Yes. But you all love me for it...admit it.

well it's been quite a while since I've last updated this beast. Hello friends. I'm not dead. But I am out of cigarettes...damn. TO COMBAT ARMS!!

Vanishing woman who haunts my dreams:

Stay with me...it's a dream. I'm in love with you madoromi dakishimete.

wowee, been a long time since I've last updated.


Long story short:


-Like cigarettes again
-Hang out at World of Beer in the Avenue
-Used to hang out in front of Books-a-Million in the pavilion area.
-I have red-highlights
-my hair reaches my shoulders and I have a weak pony-tail
-I need to re-straighten my hair
-next colours in my hair are going to be fuschia and blonde


I like things. Kind of....

I'm upset that I haven't found myself yet. Dreams are just silly alternate realities that refuse to embrace you unless you're either dead or delirious. So where is it that dreams go to die?

If I'm void of emotion, what is it I've got left?
I will rob your security and manipulate those unfortunate to be in my way and laugh mercilessly at those weaker than I. Even though I feel nothing on the inside, facades are often best to fool those who are insignificant little worms trying to vye for my attention. I'm both vain and selfless at the same time. And I love it.


You aren't worth my time, but neither am I.