Falling further down...

^_^; Your other Admin and I have been talking.. and we've decided.

catchmeforever is now going to be on hiatus.

Now... don't get too upset. We will be back. But for now, we're going to take a break till we can get a lot of characters. At the moment, there are about two or three, tops four, posting.

You can't have a good rpg without the characters. So... we're taking a break. We're going to fix things up. We're going to make a story line. Personally, if I get bored, I'm going to make lj layouts for each character so it's a tad nify on the visual side.

We're also going to recruit people, and probaably do some test runs with new people, to see if they're any good. This rpg has been.. pretty bad. I'm not afraid to admit it. But when we come back (and we will) it will be better.

Seeing you in the near future, better than ever-
Admin 2-
Kaitie

PS: If you want to see the rpg come back sooner.. RECRUIT PEOPLE! ^_^; We're not as bad as we seem. In fact.. we really do want to have fun. n_n;

Practiced my guitar a bit today. Seems most of everything is back to normal, as I just hang around here behind the backdrop of Shuichi's life. I've just decided to remain quiet about the whole thing. *shrugs* If he wants someone to talk to, I'll be there.
Hmm.......my hair has tons of split ends.......eh. I would hate to part with this lovely thing anyway. I like the way it moves and feels when I'm on stage...like it has a life of it's own.
Ech....I've been stuck in this place for days.....I think I'm going to take a walk or bike ride in the park.

When I was away from Yuki, I was sure my life was going to fall apart. But even though I kind of expected to feel like that, it made me a little scared.

I wondered if it was really okay to feel so horrible because of that. That maybe Maiko was right when she said I was abnormal. Even if she meant it in a different way, it's still strange to not be able to live without another person, right?

But the more I thought about it, the more I doubted such a theory. I need Yuki because I love him. I need him like I need air. Like I need food. Like I need water and warmth in the Winter and computers and keyboards. And it's perfectly okay to do so. It's like a law of nature.

If you really love someone, you should do it with everything you have.
And once you do that... once you've given everything to them, they become indispensible. You can't live without them because everything you need to survive is wrapped up in them.

( And that's how it should be.Collapse )

He's back.

We had a small arguement when he came back... but he's back.

I had to get Tohma to drive me to the doctor's office today to get my medicines... I took a turn for the worse while he was gone, but now that he's back.. things should be looking up.

*hears loud crash from kitchen*

... Or maybe they'll just go back to normal. /*)_-

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heh, heh, heh!

I've found him again! This is definitely destiny. He didn't seem to recognise who I was but he recognised Kumagorou, which I still have, and not going to give back until he at least remembers my name! >_<''

I didn't get to tie him up and take him home though :( there were waaaay too many cops patroling around that kiddies park. Like c'mon, would any crimes be committed at kiddies parks? ^_^

I had a dream... I had a dream that he came back...

But it was just a dream. I woke up today.. and he wasn't here...

But it seemed so real...

I don't know what to say anymore.

I don't know what to do. All I can do is try to do my work as best as I can, although I really don't even want to do that anymore. I can't skip out, though. I shouldn't let anymore people down, I guess.

We're doing another single, but nothing's coming out right. Everyone blames me, even though not everyone will say so. But you know... they're right. So what's the point in going to work if I'm just going to screw it all up anyway?
But they'll just say 'well, don't screw it up, then.' ...so I have to go no matter what.

I called Yuki once. I wanted to see how he was. If he was happier without me. It's not that hard to find me. I don't even WANT to be lost!!

But there wasn't any answer... I called again, then gave up.

Maiko says I should just go back. She's been pushing me for a week, but she never finds any reason that I should. Well, she has, I guess... but I don't think they're very good.

Tomorrow, maybe... I'll just go see if Yuki is okay... Unless he's changed the lock already... maybe I can just peek in and make sure he's not dead. That'll be okay, right? He doesn't even have to notice me...



I really want him to, though...

I... I don't know where he is.

I didn't even bother looking. He obviously got sick of me...

I should have known that this would happen.

The phone won't stop ringing... but I know it's not him. I unplugged it.

So all I've been doing is drinking my sorrows away.

Is Shu-chan dead? >_> <_< I heard he was back, and I've tried calling 'his' place like every couple hours or so, and I don't get an answer. *sigh* I should probably just go over there to see if he's ok. In other news, I had to get a new guitar. My old one became neglected, and the rain-moisture got to it and effed it up. -_-* So much for my carelessness. And it was a good one too! T_T I'll miss that geetahr....*munches on strawberry pocky*

I've stayed away as long as I could, and it doesn't seem to matter at all. After a day I would have found Yuki and brought him back with me, no matter what! >.<

But even though he promised not to leave me, I guess he just hoped I would leave instead. And then I did... so he got what he wanted, and I just feel like an idiot.

I never actually imagined that I could ever be so completely indispensible to Yuki, you know? I never thought that there would be some point where he wouldn't be able to live without me... but I wanted to try. Maybe this was a stupid thing to do at this point. Maybe I should never have left...

I know that this is all my fault.. but what can I do? I want to go back.. and I want to say that I'm sorry and hope he'll let me stay.. But if he wanted me back he would have come get me. If I go back, all he'll do is kick me out again... so what will be the point?

I wonder if this is the end, then?