I don't know if anyone still has this LJ on their stupid friends list but if you do, keep up with this one. I can't freaking remember my stupid password for give_me_average so I'm stuck typing on this one at school. Good God! This pisses me off. Hell, I'm too pissed to even write an entry now, so I'm going to go bug people at lunch. Later bitches!!
SCRATCH THE LAST ENTRY!! FORGET THAT! BUT I DO HAVE A NEW LJ! THAT ONE'S GOING TO BE OPEN TO MYSPACE. THIS ONE IS OPEN TO PEOPLE IRL. AND MY SIN LJ IS OPEN TO GREED AND WRATH ONLY! I HAVE 3 LJS NOW! BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!
I AM DELETING THIS LIVEJOURNAL AND CREATING A NEW ONE! I AM KEEPING MY SIN LIVEJOURNAL FOR EXTREMELY PERSONAL THINGS LIKE IMs AND CONVERSATIONS I HAVE WITH PEOPLE OFF OF MYSPACE BECAUSE I AM PUTTING THE LINK TO MY NEW LIVEJOURNAL ON MY MYSPACE! SO IT WILL BE AN OPEN THING! SO DELETE THIS ACCOUNT OFF OF YOUR FRIENDS' LIST RIGHT NOW AND ADD ME ON YOUR NEW ONE! YOU MUST ADD ME FIRST OR I WILL NOT BOTHER! SERIOUSLY! THIS MEANS EVERYONE!!!
New livejournal...
www.livejournal.com/users/give_me_average
DELETED BROKENPSYCHO OFF OF YOUR FRIENDS LIST NOW!!!
Chelsea, can I use the phone? Please. Chelsea, let me use the phone. Okay, I'll be quick. I just got on. Chelsea, you can give me a few more minutes. Chelsea, can I try to call her again? It didn't work. Come on. Please. I'm not ready to go, Mom. I didn't know we were leaving as soon as you got home. Mom, I have to meet someone. I need to tell Jackie I can't go. Mom, please. Okay. I'll shut up. Shut up, you two. You're in a Camaro and I'm right next to you. Stop. You're pushing me. Calm down. Mom, get them. Oh, I'm sorry. No, I'm good. Don't look at me that way. Who pushed me? Asshole. Ow. That was too tight. That hurt. No, I'm not waiting for her. Oh, hey, Jake. Didn't know you pushed me. Yeah. Ashley? I remember her. Oh, Michael and I...oh. You know? Oh. Well, he chea...how'd you know that? Oh. When? Okay. Chelsea, I need the phone. I need to...okay, Mom. Well, after...Chelsea you know I need to call...okay. Oh, I can't go. Sorry. Do I have a choice? I've never cocked that before. No. I didn't do that. Oops. I'm sorry. Oh well, I guess. I'll go...okay. Chelsea, I need the...please. Chels...just nevermind. No, I won't get offline. No. No. What...but. I need to. Nevermind. What about Friday night? No...well...okay. No. You had it all day. And this isn't rude? No. It'll take forever with you. No. It's my turn. You were on all day.
*mimics sardonically* We're not trying to be mean, Cassie. We're not trying to be mean, Cassie.We're not trying to be mean, Cassie!We're not trying to be mean, Cassie!WE'RE NOT TRYING TO BE FUCKING MEAN, CASSIE!!!!!!!
Hello, Operator, does number have a number? Mommy went to Heave but I need her here today. My tummy hurts and I fell down, I need her right away. Operator, can you tell me how to find her in this book. Is Heaven in the yellow part, I don't know where to look. I think my daddy needs her, too. At night I hear him cry. I hear him call her name sometimes but I really don't know why. Maybe if I call her, she will hurry home to me. Is Heaven very far away, is it across the sea? She's been gone a long, long time. She needs to come home now! I really need to reach her but I simply don't know how. Help me find the number please. Is it listed under "Heaven"? I can't read these big, big words, I am only seven. I'm sorry, Operator, I didn't mean to make you cry. Is your tummy hurting, too, or is there something in your eye? If I call my church maybe they will know. Mommy said when we need help that's where we should go. I found the number to my church tacked up on the wall. Thank you, Operator, I'll give them a call.
--Repost this if you love your mother, too, and could do nothing without her.--
I got my Georgia Drivers Manual! Awesomely. I didn't think my parents were actually going to let me get my learner's permit. *dancedance* But they are! This rocks. I am beyond ecstatic now that Criss moved out. Ha ha. I don't have to deal with her anymore and my parents are acting so much cooler. They actually took my siblings and two of their friends to the beach Sunday. Amazing, isn't it? :-)
I know it might not last much longer but at least I can enjoy it while it lasts, ne? It's going to suck when things do go back to normal. :'-( I don't want them to...but there's not stopping it. *sighs* Yeah... *shakes head* Anyways! I need to stop thinking about the future for once and try to be happy right now.
Oh, but I called Mat yesterday and he said he doesn't know yet. He said he hasn't had time to think about it. *rolls eyes* Oh, well. I have patience, I guess. It's not like I really have a choice. Well it's not like I'm not going to talk to him about all the things that made me dump him last time. We are definetely going to talk about that. Things have to be different if he wants them to work out this time.
One, he has to stop the insulting jokes. Two, he has to mature a little. I'm younger than him and I'm more mature than him! How sad is that? Anyways...three, he's going to have to try to make an effort with my friends. Even though the reason they didn't like him was because of the jokes, I think. I don't really understand. *shrugs* But if he's the only one who makes an effort and my friends still blow him off...then I guess I can just forget my friends. Because shows how much they care if they're not willing to make a little effort on my part.
I'm not freaking joking this time either. I'm serious. People are actually going to have to make an effort! Screw all of you. I'm tired of being the only one who does to make all of you happy. Make an effort for me for once!! That's all I freaking ask.
*sighs* Well, anyways. Maybe I won't feel so miserable after I set things straight with Mat. Who knows...he might still say no. *shrugs* Oh well then.
Now...since Michael only wants to be friends...that mean he doesn't care, right? So that means that he won't read this, right? *taps chin* Hm. MICHAEL IS A MOTHER FUCKER CUM GUZZLING DONKEY MOLESTING COCK SUCKER!! LMAO!! Just joking. lmao. Yeah...I had to do that. Hee hee. He doesn't care, he won't read, right right? Right? :-) It's not the end of the world that Michael doesn't care. Cause if he ever starts to miss me, he can remember that HE let ME go. :-)
My email... Hey, Mr. Holt. It's Cassie Stivers. Well, I got you for third period during the first semester and I was wondering what the class is. I've never heard of "Current Issues". And then I heard that Amanda Boerger has you the same exact class period but for Yearbook. What's going on?
His email... Hey. That's actually yearbook. I've tried to have you removed since you didn't want to do it again. Submit a schedule change and they'll take you out. Current Issues is a new course name for yearbook/newspaper. ~H
I hear you talk about your family life I wish I knew just what that means I guess my mother never loved my dad And now I wear it on my sleeve
My sister called me just the other day It felt so good to hear her voice My problem is I don't have much to say I guess she doesn't have a choice And I'm sorry
Chorus Look at me I'm so pathetic I can't believe I'm just an addict I've never needed anyone to help me I'm begging you To please come save me from myself Save me from my...
My mothers always tried to change herself She never learned to let things be She doesn't know how bad she messed me up 'Cause now she seems so fake to me But I love her
Chorus (altered 1) Look at me I'm so pathetic I can't believe I'm just an addict I've never needed anyone to help me I'm begging you To please come save me from myself Save me from myself
If you push me then I won't fall I've been programmed to take it all And shove it way down inside Like my father, Like my father
Chorus (altered 2) I'm so pathetic I can't believe I'm just an addict I try to be (I've never needed anyone to help me) I'm failing at it (I'm begging you) Life to me (To please come save me from myself) Is just a habit (Save me from my...)
I hear you talk about your family life I wish I knew just what that means
LOOK AT ME! I'M SO PATHETIC! I NEVER NEEDED ANYONE TO HELP ME!
--Goth-- Do you wear black eyeliner?: yes Do you own any black clothing?: yes Do you think about death often?: yes Do you want to die? yes Are you a social outcast?: yes Are you pale?: no Do you like Hot Topic?: FUCK YES!! Total YES: 6
--Skater Punk-- Can you skateboard?: no How often do you wear Vans?:never have but i'd like to Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: hella yeah Do you ever get in trouble?: -_- doh... Do you listen to rock?: yes Do you have any piercings?: no Total YES: 2
--Prep-- do you say the word "like" alot?: no Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no Are the A&F models hot?: no Rock music is bad, right?: fuck no Do you want to be in a sorority/fraternity?: no thanks Into jocks/popular guys/girls?: *gag* fuck no!! Are/were you a cheerleader?: you make me giggle Total YES: 0
--Hippie-- Is your hair long?: nope Are you a vegetarian?: hell no. i like eating helpless animals. they taste yummiful! :-) Do you own a tye dye shirt?: fuck no. Do you want peace?: don't care Do you want to save the animals: yeah...i don't want my friends to die. lmao. What do you think about war?: *shrugs* Total YES: 0
--Gangsta-- Are you from the ghetto?: totally...can't you tell by my ghetto ass? lmao! fuck no, dude. Do you own "bling bling"?: no What do you think about do-rags?: the back flap is extra toilet paper lmao How about hip-hop? nice to dance to sometimes Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: *blinkblink* you act like i know who you're talking about. What do you think about afros?: i think...kyle. lmao. afroman! lmao. but nah...they ain't all that great. Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: fuck no Total YES: 1
--Emo-- How often do you cry?: i don't let that happen anymore Do you have an acoustic guitar?: used to but not anymore Are you emotional?: sure Do you like soft music: eh sometimes Do people understand you?: no Do u write ur own songs?: yes Is your hair dyed dark?: yes Do you cut?: sometimes i slip up Total YES: 3.5
--Jock-- Do you play any sports?: no How important are they to you?: sports are so boring *yawn* you pick on the geeky kids?: sometimes lmao What do you think about football?: i like the super bowl commercials and that's about it lol were you considered a bully by anyone?: i don't think so... Total YES: 1
--Geek-- Do you wear glasses?: nope...not since i got contacts Do you get good grades?: i suppose Are you smart?: i get by Do you use an inhaler?: lmao no Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pocket: *giggle* you're funny Does your mom buy your clothes?: no How often are you on the computer?: whenever i'm able to be :-) Do you ever get picked on?: hm...being picked on would mean i let it happen and don't do anything about it...so no Total YES: 3
pissed off
accomplished
apathetic