Bdk

I love how I actually forgot I had this lj account. I only got reminded by freak luck. lol oops. ah well

I dont really use this site anymore. mostly just log in and read the friends. post a comment or 2 and off to other sites. but the occasional update isnt a bad thing. lets people know that yes I do check this badboy.

This is right.. earlier today I got a ride from my friend *tony* out to st.charles and went to the secretary of state there instead of saginaw *country town so it's not as crowded*

anyways I went in ...filled out some paperwork and BAM licence is renew'd. friggin awesome.

now sometime in the next 2-4 months i'll snag up a car and my goal will have been complete. I will be mobile and take road trips to and fro ...

it's awesome cuz it's a goal and I can feel it getting closer and closer to being done

I don't care what anybody says bout the movie...one of my favs...I downloaded Rotld off a site a few nights ago and i'm watching it again.


Awesome music and a cheesey plot makes good movie goodness. and these zombies can't be killed with a shot to the head and the bastards run.....add in they talk and plot .....not zombies i'd wanna deal with.


if you haven't seen the movie it's worth at least a once watch. get a group of friends over and grab some drink and snacks and goto town on it.


in fact I just talked to my dad and he's gonna order me the collectors edition and im gonna give him the money next time I see him.

gonna be awesome. that movie rocks

Risk's were created in Life to be taken, Not Wasted like Life's broken Dreams

So last night totally reeked of awesome...

Dennis Tony and I hit up Deja Vu for tony's birthday.

The waitresses were in cute pantied bums *the brought from home kind not the strippers style'd undies* which was awesome cuz of my odd obsession with girls in undies. Sadly tho the waitress's of our table barely made an appeareance. I think tipping her/them next time is in order to keep the flow of service coming in.. yes good plan indeed.

as for the strippers ....well not many caught my attention. most were of the "hey want a dance" and then walking away after a no type. If you want my money you should have a vocab of more then a few words. talk to me and my friends for a few mins. pretend you care if you have to but make us feel important for a min or 3 and you'll more then likely to get my money ....nitpicking for me yes but it's a small requirement i have. as do my other friends that went/go ... simple tho

As for the night and what it entitled.....

Well I was accosted by 2 strippers a few times that we have a little business arrangement. they tell me what I want to hear and in return they get money. They make me feel important and attractive and I in turn let them get dances. bonus on them being very fun to talk to and not boring. least I know if they work i'll have fun during the dances....Yes I did get a dance from them and it was fun. tho having the one smush her butt cheek on my face and expect me to kiss was amusing. oh those silly girls and their fun.

little later the one actually said I was a sweetheart and I would be worth hanging out with outside the club. till this happens tho I take it as her being nice and thats it..

Yes I didnt name drop. I dont know if thats not cool by their standards so I just keep hush


Tony on the other hand was maul'd a few times... I sent my two little stripper friends over to him and they molested him quite well. haha good show tony. HE also was taken up on stage and given the birthday treatment . woot. Even got a pic of it.. memories...THEN my stripper friends got a dance from him also... dennis and I each gave him a 10spot so he could. HAPPPY FREAKIN BIRTHDAY TONY!

Dennis got a dance from some girl. a little shorter and really cute. he had a bit o the fun also. I leave out details on that but he had a blast.


on top of it we went to denny's after and got us great breakfast meals. IT WAS GOOD. I was full as hell and went home and promptly snoozed.

didnt even talk to aussie ashley for more then a min .
Turn'd on the 80's radio station thru winamp *net radio* and crashed.


A good night totally reaking of awesomeness

My life is on a very interesting path... a VERY interesting path right now.

In fact I think this path has really shown me what i'm worth to myself... tho it's coming at an odd cost. I wont post details as I rather not get everyone jumping on the pity party and it's really my business. So i end that now.


Lately i've been trying to change things in my life. I feel things I should/could change are begining to boil over and it's time to deal with them now. health/finances/love/travel/misc things. so yes I am trying ...very poorly to change things.


I want to lose weight. I want to travel. I want to eat better and stop wasting time on shit foods/drinks. I wanna bike I wanna Drive I wanna read I wanna write. I want to find parts of me left behind in the past and wake them up and go It's time friend/...time to come home and be part of me again.


I WILL do this one way or another and my shitty habits of lazy and being lathargic must be broken.

Wish me the best of luck people. for I am a typical lazy and lathargic american and I dont want to be anymore.

so ive come to the conclusion that a couple of my ex's from over the years are image gf's. wha?!

basically the relationship died/didntwork/wont work because they were more concerned with what their friends/parents thought about the relationship/approveal then themselves.

now im sure to some thats not a problem but if you are legal at this point and time and your STILL z0mg my friends wont like you we cant date/redate then you need to grow up.

but aaron my friends are important to me! real friends would be supportive of the choice and try to give him a chance regardless. not just bitch and try to break it up.

example is my one friend. his gf and I arent on the best of terms. we clash due to differences in lifestyle. some my fault some hers for the clashing. I admit I can be to blame. NOW! he's happy with her even tho I am not the biggest fan of her. and I support his choice to be with her cuz he deserves to be happy.
*GASP* 0hn0ez his friend doesnt exactly approve but like a good friend I support them in their happiness cuz thats what matters

so to those ex's or once potentals of mine. shame on you for being more concerned with what others think then what you yourself think. happiness is important and if you let friends/family dictate who you date then you could miss out on something grand.


and a pity that can be

I really want a female to hold. to see naked and to sleep next to at night *sigh* ....and since I am cursed in social aspects I cant . no matter how hard I try or dont try I just cant get a girl that wants to be in a semi dating boat with me. in fact... any time I try to meet a local female my messages or emails get ignored.

am I REALLY that bad of a person that girls just instantly dont want me around at all? I thought i had a good personality but this makes me wonder now.. especially since I can be all hey i'm aaron and it seems girl flee :\


idk i'm just fairly lonely AND on top of it fairly broke.. idk I am really trying to stave off the depression but I feel it coming full force at me :\


also

my best friend's gf basically spit in my face.. I had a chance to move into my friends house for about 160$ a month. meaning i'd have cash for once instead of having 50$ for the month. now.. my best friends gf said she didnt want me moving in cuz im a jerk to her. more like you tell her that her sweater sucks and shes' in tears. very emotinoal. I try to not be a jerk but im not good at walking on egg shells with her around.....
anyways she told my friend no not him. suddenly he's all hesitent for me to move in. now he told me he talked to our friend who said im not welcome. so I feel betrayed by her cuz she knows how badly I need this apartment and she still doesnt want me around....so that killed the friendship with her. and her bf...my best friend might have lied to me bout not being welcome there ...if not then my other friend isnt a friend :\


bah imma go game and pretend shit is ok

to be excited when gaming again.

I want to be drawn in to games and not find them boring

everything has been seen or done to me.. '


damn i want the z0mg woo feeling of gaming I had 10+ years ago

:\ is it bad that I feel bored with gaming on many levels. like even when playing games i enjoy I keep thinking how I could do this better or that better or i'd add this or take out that...

I want my brain to stop that. I want to just enjoy a damn game for what it is.....someone make it stop overthinking so much