That razor sharp silver lining
Everyone hates me.
I used to say that back in high school.
Now I'm a little more scientific about it. I've broken it down to 3 categories.
Upon first meeting me about...:
80% of people I meet take an immediate disdain for me. It may just be a lack of trust or being very unsure of who I am.
10% think nothing in particular of me
10% think i'm a pretty cool seeming guy right off the bat
My change in mindset is how I take these people on.
The high amount of disdain for my being seems to come from a combination of those people who just wont like you in life ever, and those who don't know how to place you into anywhere.
What I find is most of these people are very swayable. Usually if they are around me enough they find out that I am a very genuinely good guy, even if I'm a bit weird (I like to say "unique"). I think these are most of my mild friendships and aquaintences. Though I have made a few good friends from this group as well
Most of my best friends come from the group that really thought nothing of me. I believe thats mostly the mindset I give to most new people I meet. I don't hate them, and I don't really mind their being there or their company. Most people are honestly good enough for at least attending some event.
The most interesting category is that 10% that thought I was pretty cool right off the bat. I find these people to usually just become somehow dissapointed in me, like they were expecting something else. It's almost like they were looking for something unique, or weird if you will, but were still looking for something to fall into an easily applicable social category.
I came from a pretty dark and gloomy past. I decided if I was going to die then I was going to die trying to live. I guess in that I don't really care to hate people, its too much of a hassel for me. It's so much easier to just let them be and if they seem alright talk to them more.
I do need to do some work on these categories. I know I can be a really good leader when placed in the position of power. But if up to my peers with so many not knowing me, and judging me so harshly so quickly I cannot get elected to a postion by my peers.
In other news I have a friend seperating from her boyfriend and I really hope to hear from her because I know she is quite upset. My other friend may finally be making some changes that involve her own happiness soon, I really hope to be there for her when she does.
And in other news...straight dating sucks. Why can't you people stop playing so many games? I kind of miss the gay dating scene at this point, staight dating is just so...weird
Or as I like to say, unique
I used to say that back in high school.
Now I'm a little more scientific about it. I've broken it down to 3 categories.
Upon first meeting me about...:
80% of people I meet take an immediate disdain for me. It may just be a lack of trust or being very unsure of who I am.
10% think nothing in particular of me
10% think i'm a pretty cool seeming guy right off the bat
My change in mindset is how I take these people on.
The high amount of disdain for my being seems to come from a combination of those people who just wont like you in life ever, and those who don't know how to place you into anywhere.
What I find is most of these people are very swayable. Usually if they are around me enough they find out that I am a very genuinely good guy, even if I'm a bit weird (I like to say "unique"). I think these are most of my mild friendships and aquaintences. Though I have made a few good friends from this group as well
Most of my best friends come from the group that really thought nothing of me. I believe thats mostly the mindset I give to most new people I meet. I don't hate them, and I don't really mind their being there or their company. Most people are honestly good enough for at least attending some event.
The most interesting category is that 10% that thought I was pretty cool right off the bat. I find these people to usually just become somehow dissapointed in me, like they were expecting something else. It's almost like they were looking for something unique, or weird if you will, but were still looking for something to fall into an easily applicable social category.
I came from a pretty dark and gloomy past. I decided if I was going to die then I was going to die trying to live. I guess in that I don't really care to hate people, its too much of a hassel for me. It's so much easier to just let them be and if they seem alright talk to them more.
I do need to do some work on these categories. I know I can be a really good leader when placed in the position of power. But if up to my peers with so many not knowing me, and judging me so harshly so quickly I cannot get elected to a postion by my peers.
In other news I have a friend seperating from her boyfriend and I really hope to hear from her because I know she is quite upset. My other friend may finally be making some changes that involve her own happiness soon, I really hope to be there for her when she does.
And in other news...straight dating sucks. Why can't you people stop playing so many games? I kind of miss the gay dating scene at this point, staight dating is just so...weird
Or as I like to say, unique