The loss of time and potential...
The most special person I have ever encountered in my life announced she was leaving yesterday...
Amber Lee Kunkel
Perhaps it is not forever, but for the forciable future...this is it I suppose.
After knowing Ben for 3 months, she has decided to forgo schooling, forgo her dreams of being a physcologist PHD at Upitt....and chase after love...or what she deams as love.
For me I hold a bias on her boyfriend, I did not like him from meeting him for 2 seconds when she met him for the first time
I hold a bias that I barley saw Amber this summer because of him
I hold a bias that he is the reason Amber and I are perhaps not friends any longer.
I cant belive how true some of my socialogical predictions come true, I knew I would lose Amber to a boyfriend who hated me, I knew that she was far to fickle to stay with me. Yet the memories will always be great.
It pains me to think of what Amber could be as a human being, and how that might be wasted because she is leaving to shippensburg. It pains me that in the end of it all she could not stand up, and tell Ben to move down here instead.
He's spoiled her, they have a relationship based on drugs, fear, money, and alchohal...and perhaps love...but how am I supposed to know with the other things clouding everything.
I cant know
I wont know
That might hurt more than anything
I wish Amber luck...I hope if things go awray she has the courage to ask for help from me...I kinda know she won't
I can't say I can ever think of my past year of living, without Amber, and I dont care if she can think of her's without me...we were there for eachother...
I hate when things turn black and white
I live in a world where people consitently cause others pain, and sadness. Save a few exceptions that a person connects to in their life.
Ill alwys accept Amber, but if she rejects me, I am afraid there is nothing I can do.
I despise fear.
Amber Lee Kunkel
Perhaps it is not forever, but for the forciable future...this is it I suppose.
After knowing Ben for 3 months, she has decided to forgo schooling, forgo her dreams of being a physcologist PHD at Upitt....and chase after love...or what she deams as love.
For me I hold a bias on her boyfriend, I did not like him from meeting him for 2 seconds when she met him for the first time
I hold a bias that I barley saw Amber this summer because of him
I hold a bias that he is the reason Amber and I are perhaps not friends any longer.
I cant belive how true some of my socialogical predictions come true, I knew I would lose Amber to a boyfriend who hated me, I knew that she was far to fickle to stay with me. Yet the memories will always be great.
It pains me to think of what Amber could be as a human being, and how that might be wasted because she is leaving to shippensburg. It pains me that in the end of it all she could not stand up, and tell Ben to move down here instead.
He's spoiled her, they have a relationship based on drugs, fear, money, and alchohal...and perhaps love...but how am I supposed to know with the other things clouding everything.
I cant know
I wont know
That might hurt more than anything
I wish Amber luck...I hope if things go awray she has the courage to ask for help from me...I kinda know she won't
I can't say I can ever think of my past year of living, without Amber, and I dont care if she can think of her's without me...we were there for eachother...
I hate when things turn black and white
I live in a world where people consitently cause others pain, and sadness. Save a few exceptions that a person connects to in their life.
Ill alwys accept Amber, but if she rejects me, I am afraid there is nothing I can do.
I despise fear.