To go or not to go? I don't know...could be dram...could be fun...the ex wants to be friendly. Not a bad thing. Joey wants me to come to Gay Disney and hang out with him....hmmmmmm. Dunno if I wanna go. Don't know if I even have the time. I've been so busy lately. I have my real estate courses on the sixth. I'd have to be back by sunday night. I don't want to be a train wreck b4 the class either. Ugh. But Florida definitely sounds right up my alley....I even have a tan b4 I go....I've been painting and landscaping for Riverbend this year. I was hired to spruce the place up a lil b4 all the big concerts. It's been fun so far...the other day i came in to work and there were 3 HOT ASS shirtless boys in Abercrombie trunks using a firehouse to spray off the pavement. OMFG!! I about fell out....i think i was walking away mumbling "OMFG" to myself over and over....and looking for a reason to keep strolling by the pavillion....lol....oh well...funtimes
Last night I went to the Ryan Cabrerra concert....lol...like i even like him....i only know 2 songs.....but dustin had tix and he and the boi he was going to take broke up. I think he said he paid $80 for the tix...yikes..so i went....it was more fun b/c we showed up nice and tipsy....ya the car ride was fun w/a BP coffee mug filled w/Bacardi and Diet Coke...lol. HEY..WE WERE IN A HURRY. Hahahahaha. I still had paint all over me at 7pm and i was supposed to be walking out my front door at 7:15....so needless to say it was a "say something hat" night...lol. NOT...just my famous orange hat! ;-)(we just watched Too Wong Foo recently) The evening ended with my favorite late night movie, Girls will be Girls. If you haven't seen it yet, you ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY MUST!!! It's to die for....also Sordid Lives is interesting.....such a white trash comedy....but hilarious....try em and let me know...i won't let you down. ;-)
oh my..as far as the date goes.......first let me tell you....he's like already picking out wedding rings.....eeeek. So i don't want to see him again....ha ha ha...he's nice...but he's already like "we" this, "we that"...OMG....like "we're going to have so much fun this summer"......"we have to go visit my parents soon".....Blah blah blah....so yeah....that was all after 1 date and 1 date only. Weird huh? I must be a good catch.....lol. Riiiiiiiiiiiiiight. I went to chicago this weekend. It was a blast. I got to meet Chris' family. They are so nice. Stayed with his grandma. She is a trip. We went to Michigan Ave....shopped at H&M.....cute cute cute udnerwear...couldn't resist....you always need cute undies....or FUNderwear....heheheheehehe...had a blast tho.....went to the aquarium and ate at some awesome places. I had a blast.....went to Sidetrack on Sat...it was cool....we went to meet 2 of his friends....they were nice.
Hello Hello Hello.....ahhhhh the sun is finally shining today...yesterday it was snowing....that was my excuse for sleeping in...ha ha ha...it was sooo pretty tho...watching the snow fall on the rooftops....ahhhh.....but still......I f'g hate snow..ha ha ha....I can't wait to take a vacay somewhere warm!!!! Joe and I talked about Miami.....so we'll see what airfare looks like. I have a date tonight...a guy who is 28....nice huh? he's cute...an HR professional...but.....but.....BUT....lol. Seems like there is always a but right? Everyone knows how i'm not a fan of recycled goods....i.e ex's dating each other.....mine always seem to...i've heard "that'll happen in a small town..." lol....cincy doesn't have to be that small...people make it that small. But recently i was grossed out that my 2 ex's were dating....i mean i really didn't care all THAT much..but i was like eww.....and i did kinda laugh...because each one had 2 yrs w/me...poor things....together they had 4...ha ha...surely they had LOTS to talk about..MWHAHAHAHAHAHA...(forgive me...I'm slap happy) Anyhoooo.....I generally don't recycle any of my friends or ex's past bf's. AND....let me preface this with I DID NOT KNOW. Ok...back to the story....lol. So I signed up for OUTINAMERICA.COM right? If you don't know what it is...it's like GAY.COM....but a lot more user friendly...and it automatically puts you OUT in your city...so when i log on, I'm OUTINCINCINNATI...I'd have to say I don't see a whole lot of people using it much yet..but oh well..so the next thing i know, i'm checking email and logging onto AIM and i get like 20 IMs from all these randoms....i was like wtf?? One of the guys is like 'you must be getting a shitload of IM's hottie since you're the featured guy on the front page of the website...' i was like omfg....all my f'g info is on the front page! i laughed really hard...so ya...but out of all that mess, i met what i thought SOUNDED like a decent guy...i went to check his profile for a pic....YOU WOULD TOO..so don't go there. AAAAAND....no pic. Ok so he's butt ass ugly right? lol....ROBO-TROLL right? OMG i was wrong....i asked him to send me a pic and he was like sure...cute....cute. I was like wow...and he's 28....has a house....with a hot tub mind you...a good job...blah blah blah...and we chatted for like 2 hours....weeeeeeell...we're like talking about relationships and past mistakes and blah blah blah...and it's going great..then at the end...he's like if you want to see more pics of me, here's a web link. After he and i got done chatting....i went to the link....i saw his last name...OMFG...it's the guy my good Ex dated right b4 me. This guy like shattered brett's world....brett was soooooooo in love with this guy and the guy just wasn't into him. Brett has like 100 journal entries about this guy....even when brett and i were together....this guy loomed in brett's mind...brett compared everything to this guy. I really don't know what to think. I'm not thinking he is the same guy now nor would someone ever act the same way in a diff circumstance. I guess i just wouldn't know what to say to brett...but should i even care? Brett only dated this guy (fell in major love/lust) for like several months. So what? right? get over it? Brett (who i had 2 yrs with) decided to date Dan (who i had 2 yrs w/as well). So fair is fair right? We'll see....i'm meeting up w/this guy tonight....Details to follow
Hey guys.....hope everyone is doing well....I'm doing pretty good...I took a new job recovering student loans....so look out....lol ;-) To put a cherry on the top of a great year, anthony is in town....grrrrr. He needs to stay away from my family. My mom told me he called. He has no need to see or talk to my mom. He fucked me over really bad, why would my family want nething to do with him. Even Joseph (anthony's EX best friend who he fucked over) doesn't want anything to do with him EVER. He is so done with him. That boy has caused everyone so much trouble...I can't wait for him to get back to Florida!! (SORRY JOE) but neway......I'm doing really well with the house.....unbelievable!!! I have a laundry room and i did my first load of laundry!! YAY!! I also have a gourmet stainless steel gas stove...(Hooked up and ready to go!) Stainless steel fridge (icemaker line hooked up...ready to go)....my kitchen cabinets are up!!! I installed the stainless steel under the cabinet microwave...YAY!! I installed all my under the cabinet and on top of the cabinet lighting.....I must say, the kitchen looks F#%@ing HOT! I'm sooo happy. The house is really coming together quickly....I even have a roommie lined up. SO....we'll see....
Ugh....it's been a while...where to start....hmmmmm....well...I'm definitely coming out of my shell...which has been a resoloution (not a new year's..but a life choice)...Let me think...well I was a lil more casual than normal with a HOT HOT boi I met in dayton thru another friend. I've actually gone on a couple dates...all pointless of course...cute guys..but FLAKES...funtimes funtimes...I now weigh 152 which is good b/c i have lost a good deal of body fat and I now have some nice definition. My stomach prolly looks the best it's EVER looked. I have nice "sex lines" as someone recently put. Things are coming together body wise for me nicely. I do still have a lot of work to do in order to be satisfied....but knowing me...I will never be satisfied..lol..Oh..I now have blonde hair......which was more than I actually wanted, but I cut it short so it looks good. I did it for this circuit party I'm going to on the 28th. It's a Friday, Sat, Sun event in Philly. I am soooo excited. It's called the BlueBall...(BTW I will be putting Blue in my hair to cover some blonde for the BLUEBALL..get it?? Blueball...LOL..I feel dorky today...but in a good giddy way) Chris won the tix and airfare etc and we just bring ourselves. I have traveled so much lately it's not funny. I've been to Indianapolis, which hold your tongue is awesome thank you very much, Chicago, which we all know is HOT...and now I'm heading to Philly. We are planning another trip to Chicago and then Atlanta for the spring. YAY!! I may be getting a roommate this next month...we'll see how that goes...didn't want to room with a gay guy...but hey...we'll see. I was hoping to go the opposite way and get a str8t girl...but I'm thinking it will be ok. What else?....I've met so many interesting people lately...it's been nuts..Chicago was off the chart...I can't even tell you what happened...it would take days to map it all out...what happened in four days all seems like one big day to me...we slept a total of 3.5 hours the whole time we were there...that's all I have to say. Let immaginationas run wild.
OMG.....I can't believe I did what i did.....or at least let happen what I just let happen...I am sooooo not a "casual" kind of guy. I was so hurt last night by some of the things said to me by someone I thought cared about me that I just didn't care any more. I'm usually the kind of guy who only lets sexual things happen when I'm in a relationship. I didn't realize how fooling around could be. I was free. I was fine with it. It shocked me. I really thought my feelings for ex would be an iron chastity belt....but seeing how he treats me and the things he does.....It really freed me. Geeeeee.....I had fun going out dancing! I talked to a couple guys I hadn't seen in a while. This one guy named Adam (hot) lives in Indiana....ugh...that's why I never called him b4 when I met him a long time ago. Well come to find out he's had a crush on me since he met me and now lives 10 min away...yay....I still have to go to dinner w/Chris....who keeps calling me and I keep putting him off....he's a nice guy...but I don't need a boyfriend and he's sooooo the boyfriend type. Adam would be a good guy to date casually. I danced with Tyler last night. I've had a crush on him for like 2 years....he's been working out majorlly...looks hot as F*$k.....but hey...i've been doing my push ups and crunches like a MO FO too....hahahahaha. But neway.....I had a lot of fun dancing and grinding w/Tyler.....damn....and then he leaned in and kissed me sooooo hot....damn....we danced soooooo close....WHEW....had to catch my breath.....but he's got a job in the major gay spotlight and he's very popular so I don't know......I'd have to think about that one. Another new person....well not so new....damn these good guys keep resurfacing in my life....Dean (cute...def good guy dating material) has been calling me....I met up w/him online not too long ago and we were just chatting friendly like...come to find out he's a guy that i met thru someone i dated like 7 years ago! I had the biggest crush on him and not the guy i went on the few dates with....lol....too funny.....well he's moving to cincy soon. He lives 45 min away right now....but we've really hit it off. I just don't know about dating tho...i mean i'm not completely over the whole anthony thing....but casual stuff isn't that bad......no strings....maybe anthony is on to something here....I can see now why he doesn't want to date anyone right now.....I'm a little shocked....a little embarassed....a little happy that it happened....it proves something to me tho....just that I can control that situation and take better control over my emotions.....I can seperate sex from love. Wow.....I've discovered something new about myself....
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