1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before? learned how to go into the city and enjoy it, made a 4 layer cake, sat in on a grad class...this has not been much of a year for firsts, but that's ok.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Well, my resolution was to be healthier and I suppose I accomplished that to some small degree. Going forward I hope to be more disciplined and deliberate in all of my actions. Can't go wrong with thinking more before I act.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes!Erin had Jack in August, Shannon had Reilly on October 12th, and Maria just had Vincenzo a few weeks ago.
4. Did anyone close to you die? No one close to me, no.
5. What new places did you visit? Marco Island/Fort Meyers Florida. I really loved it...more than I expected to.
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011? steady, decent income (still! This economy stinks.) I'd also like to have more direction in my career, which will come when I get into grad school. A boyfriend would help my sanity a great deal too, if the universe is taking requests.
7. What days from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? The day Reilly was born, because it was a big clusterf*ck. I was temping and they wouldn't let me leave to go to the hospital. Then once I got there the security folks wouldn't let me up to the maternity ward.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting grad school applications out, keeping the sink mostly free of dishes (not necessarily in that order!)
9. What was your biggest failure? Losing my momentum when it comes to improving my health. I really need to pay more attention next year.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? My right knee has been acting up since October, and it's making me cranky.
11. What was the best thing you bought? I have to say my gym membership, even though I wasted half of it. It's good til March, so I'll be getting my ass back there after the new year.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Everyone who made an "It Gets Better Video".
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Everyone who thinks it's justifiable to hate and mistreat someone for what they look like, or who they love
14. Where did most of your money go? toward bills and a summer course I took at Montclair.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Reilly!
16. What song will always remind you of 2011? Healing Hands by Marc Cohn and anything else on Mark and Claire's wedding CD.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? Happier, which is nice. ii. richer or poorer? In more debt but with more income prospects. iii. thinner or fatter? Thinner...working on it!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Exercising, learning
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Arguing
20. How did you spend Christmas? Same as always. Jay Sack and Sean came over on Christmas eve late at night.
21. Did you fall in love in 2011? To keep with the trend of the past few years...yes, with Reilly.
22. How many one-night stands? None!
23. What was your favorite TV program? I really liked Huff and Third Watch, in addition to the usual. I can't wait until the remaining seasons of Third Watch are released on DVD.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I'm not big on hating.
25. What was the best book you read? The Gargoyle by Andrew Davidson and Body Farm series by Jefferson Bass..as well as the new Kathy Reichs and Patricia Cornwell, of course.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery? Marc Cohn makes great music BESIDES Walking in Memphis. Who knew?
27. What did you want and get? Direction! Finally!!
28. What did you want and not get? more monies.
29. What was your favorite film of this year? Nothing Stands out. I don't think I saw many movies.
30. What was your favorite theatrical production of this year? Definitely didn't see any of them.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 27. I worked on my actual birthday then had a party that weekend.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Enough money to live comfortably
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? unchanged.
34. What kept you sane? Having focus. Friends and TV.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? No one in particular
36. What political issue stirred you the most? GLBT issues.
37. Who did you miss? same as always.
38. Who was the best new person you met? Rita and Lauren from my neuro class
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011. That having people really is iportant. And that it's true that time waits for no one.
40.) Where did you ring in 2011? Alone in the basement, watching Bones on DVD
41.) What was your status by Valentine's Day? still single
42.) Were you in school (anytime this year)? I took a summer course and then audited another in the fall.
43.) How did you earn your keep? on and off at a construction company in Jersey City, some temp assignments.
44.) Did you ever have to go to the hospital? Only to wait for Reilly to be born.
45.) Have you ever encountered the police? No.
46.) Where did you go on vacation? Florida. I saw alligators!!
47.) What did you purchase that was over $500? 4 credits worth of undergrad physical anthro.
48.) Did you know anybody who got married? Mark and Claire
49.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with? The usual.
50.) Did you move anywhere? back up to the first floor from the basement?
51.) What sporting events did you go to? I didn't.
52.) What concerts did you go to? I don't think I went to any concerts either.
53.) Are you registered to vote? Yes.
54.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7? No.
55.) Where do you live now? Mom's
56.) What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2011? Re-apply to Binghamton.
57.) What's the one thing you regret about this year? That I spent a lot of money and lost a lot of wages (relatively speaking) for a class that doesn't mean an awful lot in the long run. I had fun, though. And it helped me feel more certain about what to do next...so all's well that ends well. I also can't shake the feeling that I should have gone to the protests just once, because they were so close to home and so intense.
58.) What's something you learned about yourself? That I am very affected by circumstance. Next step is to make that less so.
59.) Any new additions to your family? Reilly! Also Jack and Vincenzo.
60.) What was your best month? I don't know. I'm not sure this question is particularly useful.
61.) What from pop culture will you remember 2010 by? More politics than pop, but all I can think of is Occupy Wall Street.
I am such a ball of nerves lately it's not even funny. Between worrying about grad school (Am I doing the right thing? What if I'm not and then I get in and everything sucks? What if I'm AM and no one accepts me and everything sucks?) and all of the impending family and friend events (Eva's Christening, Shannon's baby, Mark's wedding) my mind is chronically on hyper-speed. Of course, this in turn produces the oh-so-productive anxiety spells and accompanying brain fog. I swear I've contemplated a hundred crap-tastic visions of the future before I even make it out of bed in the morning.
Then, yesterday afternoon, I got an email telling me that I was chosen to be the VISTA for Catholic Charities in Maine. Great. Fine. Lovely. Maine is nice. The lady there is super nice. But Catholic Charities has nothing to do with Anthro, and I know myself- if I go a year without focusing on my goals, they will drift out of focus and I don't want that!
Today I am interviewing for a VISTA position with a mental health center, also in Maine. It is still not ideal to leave town with all of the milestones I mentioned about to come up, but at least I can make it work FOR me when it comes to my experience and my CV. Right?
If I had it all to do over again, I would have made so many different choices. Small ones, maybe, but important ones. I have to accept the fact that deciding to do something as big as a PhD program at this point in my life puts me at somewhat of a disadvantage. Sorting through the chaos to figure out what I **need** to be doing right now is turning out to be very stressful, but I'm happy to say that I am hanging on for now, and plan to stay that way.
Arrrrgggh! I could use some encouragement today, I think. Encouragement and advice about how VISTA in Maine fits in at this point.
Oh hey journal land...sorry I haven't been around. Turns out I'm lazy. I'll hit the highlights-
-lost two more pounds as of this past Wednesday and am keeping my fingers crossed that this upcoming week I will hit the ten pound mark. This makes me really happy.
-I finished up The Lace Reader by Brunonia Barry, which was a very good read. Certainly satisfying for an Alice Hoffman fan...it's set in Salem and involves just enough magic to keep it interesting. I'm pretty psyched to start in on her second book, the name of which escapes me at the moment.
- I'm going back to school! Not officially or in any way that involves commitment, but still going. I'm taking Physical Anthropology at my alma mater this summer and I am leaving my current job in order to focus on it and on my anthropology knowledge as a whole. I've started following some great blogs, and I am hoping to add some journal subscriptions and organization memberships as well. I can't afford a second class right now, and nothing else being offered is worth the price for me anyway, but I want to spend full-time hours deciding whether or not I am destined to be an anthropologist.
-I'm pretty sure I'm going to Vermont for Memorial Day Weekend with Ada, Bonnie and Chris. I love that I'm gonna be in New England. I love that I'm adding another state to my list of places I've been. Mostly I love that I am still close enough to my high school friends to be taking vacations together. Gives me the warm fuzzies.
I promise I will never update via bulleted list again. It feels so wrong.
1.Who in your life has most recently had a baby? My sister had Eva Marie last August. She's the best thing in the entire world. Yesterday she climbed up my face and stood on my nose, and when I plucked her off and sat her down on my lap she made crazy eyes and drooled on my. It was amazing.
(I have to mention here that my cousin's girlfriend is due in August and my best friend is due in October, and I am SO looking forward to two more of these funny little creatures around. I haven't hung out with babies since my 16-year-old brother was one,so this is a new trend. Here's to growing up.)
2.Who in your life has most recently purchased a car? My best friend. The one with the munchkin on the way. Apparently it's black and 4-door. I don't know that she's ever owned a 4-door before. Warms the heart, don't it?
3.Who in your life has most recently lost a fair amount of weight? My buddy Bonnie. She looks absolutely fantastic. Last week she treated me to a zumba class at the Y. That stuff is hardcore, but clearly it's worth it.
4.Who in your life has most recently gotten a terrific haircut?
Hey guess what? The answer to this one is ME. For the first time since before I moved to New Mexico (and I'm talking a good while before)I actually allowed someone to crop more than the scraggly bits off my hair. It was only about three inches, but that's a big step for me. Plus I let the nice lady put in layers and a face frame. Now I've got puppy ears hanging out of my ponytail like back in high school. I have to admit it looks cute, though, and soon enough I'll be able to stuff those suckers into a hair tie.
5.Who in your life has most recently begun a new job? As far as I know, that would also be me...but since my job is supremely boring and temporary anyway, I don't wanna talk about it. I will tell you, though, that my friend Sean's tutoring has picked up to the point that he's walkin' around with gobs of money AND getting thank-you letters from grateful parents. He says it hardly feels like work. Guys, I think we should all get on board with this.
I read over the two book reviews I posted and I think they sound silly. That's not how I would speak, so it's not how I'll write. I'd rather just tell you what I'm reading, how I feel about it, and whether I think you ought to read it too...but maybe without referring to the author contstantly like we're buddies and using so many flowery transitions.
So I've been on a huge Alice Hoffman kick this spring. I've always loved her books, but I've never read four back to back like I just did. I can't help it- the stories just make me happy. I am amazed by how she can take reall ife, in all it's grayness and grit and flat-out unpleasantness- and make even the worst stuff seem kinda magical. If I could be a Real Writer, that is the kind of writer I'd aspire to be.
I'm currently finishing up Blue Diary and should really get going now so that I don't miss my typical morning routine of parking my car in Jersey City and reading for ten minutes. It really makes my day much more palatable.
OH oh oh! Easter weekend I also started a book about a guy who works as a doctor on extreme travel/adventure expeditions. I learned a sht ton of thuss in the first 50 pages but left it at my aunt's house on Easter. I'll talk about it (probably til no one wants to hear anymore) as soon as I get it back and start reading again.
I wasn't holding out much hops for this week, but as of this morning I am down 2.6 lbs. from last week. Now I just have to hope the trend continues. I went to the gym with my sister last night and did some serious hill climbing on the treadmill. I find it to be a great way to boost the effectiveness of the workout as well as kill time (one minute at this elevation, the next minute a bit steeper and so on). I'm also doing one hundred pushups. When I finish the program successfully, I'll move on to their two hundred sit-ups and two hundred squats. I'm excited. I love a challenge that doesn't require much decision making on my part.
I've spent the morning trying in vain to untangle and articulate my thoughts and feelings about Bin Laden's death. I hope that this post helps, but even if it doesn't I need to say something to mark this day and the strong reactions to it.
I am an American, with all of the freedom and privilege that birthright implies. And I am forever grateful to the men and women who risk their lives in an effort to protect that freedom, even when I might disagree with the politics of the plan. I am proud of my country for coming together in the face of disaster ten years ago. I am proud of that city sitting three miles to the east of me as I write this. I remember the complete breakdown of daily life that September 11, 2001 brought to the nation and especially to the New York area. I can't think of it without crying, or without feeling an absolutely visceral need to do whatever I can to bring some small bit of peace and kindness to my little corner of the world.
No part of me, though, has been able to rejoice in more death. Killing Osama Bin Laden is a symbolic victory for us in this seemingly endless, insidious WAR that has come to color so much of our lives over the past decade...a war with very real, daily consequences we'd all rather forget. I am by no means sad that a man capable of so much evil is gone from this world. I'm not saying any of this out of sympathy for him or for those who consider him a hero. It's just that celebrating- not tolerating as a necessary evil, but actually CELEBRATING-the violence of war runs contrary to everything that I believe about what it means to live with grace and humility.
I truly hope this post doesn't make anyone think of me as unpatriotic, because if it does it means I have failed in my attempt to express myself accurately. I'd love some thoughtful discussion to help me (us?) to further "unpack" the issues brought up by Bin Laden's defeat.
Thanks for listening, and please hit up the "comment" button.
Ok, so in my profile I have a list of things that make me happy that I copied from a Thanksgiving post several years ago. I love that list. I read it like once a week just to be reminded of all the wonderful things there are in my life. So in keeping with that trend, I've decided to dedicate Sundays to remembering why I love my life.
Oh good lord. What is happening to me. I've gone soft.
But whatever.
I love Bon Jovi, because his music makes me nostalgic for home when I am away and content in the moment when I am here, which traditionally has not been easy for me.
I love lounging around on weekend mornings, savoring my coffee and catching up on things that are important to me.
I love cardamom because it reminds me of New mexico and dill because...dill is awesome.
I love everything about Dar Williams' music. She feels like a friend of mine, although I've never even spoken two words to her.
I love when my living space is clean and uncluttered. Makes the whole damn world seem brighter.
I love the look of surprise on people's face when they see all of my tattoos. That has nothing to do with my reasons for getting them, though.
I love transitional times once they hit full speed. It's kinda like a rollercoaster- trepidation the whole way up, then laughing with my hands up in the air all the way down.
1.If you were suddenly unable to make any excuses, what could you realistically do today to address whatever in your life is keeping you from being healthy and happy?
I could get in my car, drive to New England with my dog, find an apartment, and hit the pavement looking for work.
2.What are your feelings about professional wrestling?
I think it's pointless. I was going to say that I don't have an opinion, but anyone who's read my journal for any length of time is probably sick of hearing that. I have an opinion, and that is that professional wrestling is silly and pointless.
3.What is the brightest, most colorful article of clothing you actually wear once in a while?
Over the years I've been known for a variety of oversized, blindingly bright sweaters that I wore shamelessly and often one of which had the most awesome elf hood on it. Unfortunately they've all succumbed to random circumstance like hungry (spiteful?) mice, overzealous washing machines, or playful canines. The brightest thing I have left is the awesome tie-dye shirt I brought in 1999 and am actually wearing as I type this. Small world.
4.What’s something you do, not because you want to or because someone’s compelling you, but because it’s the right thing to do?
I *always* return my shopping cart to the little kiosk. And I cut up the plastic rings from 6-packs so birds and fish don't strangle in them.
5.What’s a food you’ll keep eating until it either runs out or someone stops bringing it to the table? Macaroni and cheese. I have to stay away from it for the most part from now on.