Remus J. Lupin

I keep staring at the ceiling in bed, but I don't close my eyes.
I get up and look at the window, and yet I still can't close my eyes.
So I take a walk around the castle, but I just don't feel tired when I get back to the commons to get in bed.
I keep pacing the floor, but the sleep won't come.
I wonder if I need to have Sirius or James knock me out every night in order for me to sleep.
I think I'm an insomniac.
And the circles under my eyes get darker. n.n

I guess the work is just getting to me...

And the ball...I don't even remember going to it now.
My head hurts again. >.<

Oi...and Sirius, I want my jacket back, I've seen you wearing it around , and I wouldn't mind having it back. n.n

Thanks...
And goodnight...
I hope...

...*his eyes are red.* Ball....what ball? My head hurts...
*flops down on the bed and passes out*

I looked out my window this morning when I got up...

It was snowing.

I always loved the snow, because I would run through it and feel the cold.

Forget everything that was wrong...

Forget ANYTHING that wasn't going right...

Escape.

My mind blank of all.

The chill of the wind and my own heavy breathing the only thing penetrating my consciousness...

It makes me think of all who surround me, but at the same time how far I am from them, no matter how close...

No matter how many times we embrace, or clasp hands, or even tap each other...

I live in my own thoughts.

My frustration.

My anger.

My sadness.

Melancholy is my maiden name from birth,
and the only one to see through that are all of you.

Days have passed since I've been here,
yet it feels eternity.

Enough from me.

I'm pathetic.

I cling.

Don't worry about me, I'll bother you with more nonsense of my own doing.

Its not that its a problem...

but that it has been for so long...

If you read all of the above, I commend you.
Not many can share in my disgusting guilt ridden thoughts.

I thank you.


And I send you my concern and compassion to whatever ails you.

Though I may fail you, all of you know,
you can never fail me.

Oh crud!!!

I forgot everyone's presents... T.T

*falls over and is shot by ten people.*

It's times like these that I feel like I've been studying and focusing too hard.... n.n

Well, I guess I could scrape together something...

Good Luck to me. =/

It's been a while since I said anything I would suppose, in any case quite a bit has happened recently, but I'll not go into them. A few furry, and unneeded problems popping up here and there, but all is well.

I've been sitting in the halls looking around at the other students as they so easily pair off...and I still wonder what will happen of myself... Do you really want to look at me and see something more? I don't know... I don't know if I ever will know... Being friends is better than nothing, I guess.

It started snowing outside my window this morning... I couldn't help but smile when I saw it. This part of the year was always my bittersweet oracle, but it is always happy to some degree. Sirius and James were saying something about crashing a wedding, I guess I'll have to watch over them again, make sure they don't get into too much trouble as they seem so prone to do. ^_^

I must've not been paying too much attention this year... Just trying to get through with my mind still in tact, and something of a happy disposition... Well, I guess thats enough ramble from me!

Lily, James, Don't Hurt eachother tooo badly.

Sirius, Don't get into too much trouble.

^_^

And all Mauraders are reunited. I'm waiting for Prongs and Padfoot to get back from their kitchen run so that we can do the annual celebratory meeting...thing.

No fights, that I've seen, between Lils and James, and I HOPE TO KEEP IT THAT WAY!!! *meaningful look*

I think Siri took all my chocolate. I swear, he's insane sometimes.

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I guess I haven't been around much...but it's just my furry problem and all. ;P

Anyways, I've been made Prefect. Me and the lovely Ms. Evans will be going around enforcing rules on all you slackers. Aka, for the less dense, Siri. *grins* You'll never win Padfoot...never. *laughs*

I think I've gone through half my homework...and I got my school supplies.

Can I say that I'm excited for school to start? It's too claustrophobic here.