anyway, i have a silly little photo of me in case any of yous would like to check it out under the cut. what the fuck kind of face is that? squirrelly. ( Read more...Collapse )
wow, my brain is fucked up. i rolled on friday night and then i rolled again saturday night. and then i had to wake up at noon today after i only went to bed at 5:30. lastnight was the best fuckin party in the longest time. there were probably 50 people at my friend's house. i'm used to knowing everybody there, but lastnight i probably only knew a third of them. i was so excited because colter, joey, and danky came down to spin. they are so fuckin good at what they do. what sucks about rolling is that ever guy on the face of the planet thinks that you are super pretty and asks if you want a massage (and who can say no when they're fuckin rolling ECSTASY...HONESTLY.) then they try to get into your pants and then you have to be mean but it's so hard to be mean when your brain is fat with happy. anyway, that was a fuckin fantastic night, i danced my ass off, and danced my shirt into the smelly depths of hell because of it.
on friday i did acid. it was quite fun, i must say. there were a couple things about it that bugged me though. one of them being that it lasted for fucking EVER! i thought it would never stop and then the second being that i kept thinking there was somebody right behind my ear. i would look around and not a soul be there, mate. i like ecstasy the best out of all of the drugs i've taken. does that make me weird? because no one i know agrees with me.
uhm... even though i am not a doctor yet, it would be really cool if people already started calling me Lily Wick M.D. i am going to put a little plaque on my door that says that, i am going to sign my papers like that, and my friends will calling lily m.d. oh god, i love it.
i've finally decided what i'd like to be when i grow up. i am either going to be a pediatrician or a botanist. i wish i could be both simultaneously. if i was a botanist i would live in the mountains somewhere fantastic and study all of the foliage and then i would also be growing weed in my basement for personal use. if i was a pediatrician i would be able to spend time with children whilst making a lot of money and be able to buy all of the pot i want. either way, it's a win win situation. i love children and i love plants. WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO?!
i would love to do an exchange program. the program that i am looking into goes for about 11 months which is a very long time but very very delicious. i am thinking of going to chile. italy would be fantastic also.
i love thinking about my future. tomorrow night i am going to do acid for the first time and i am so excited. it shall be fun and i shall think about things. if i feel like it anyway.
so, yesterday was a very hermit kind of day and i just hung about inside reading. i was so tired all day that i was on the verge of sleeping for hours but i didn't want to put down my book. by 10:30 i was asleep and then by 11:30 my phone was ringing. i got up to answer it and it was sally. conversation: hello? (in a sleepy crackly voice) Lilllyyyy! hi sally i just wanted to tell you i loooove you! (oh no, she's fucked up) well... i love you too sally. i loove you so much! i love you too sally. lily what i'm losing control of reality what do you mean i'm losing contro of reality yes why i'm on acid right now oh... have fun with that. good night sally. night lily! i loooove you!
and then i had weird dreams for the remainder of the night.
my friend mary did my natal chart for health and wellness. it told me to avoid wet or icy sidewalks because i tend to fall down. it also told me many things that i already knew. do people only do that astrology stuff to reaffirm what they already know or so that they can say "oh wow this astrology stuff knows everything for reals!" you know, doctors are so cool. actually i think astrology is fun. i'm so fucking tired. lily needs shower now. i really do sometimes wish that each blade of grass was made of really soft down blankets. they would have to be really small though.
today i was complimented on having a great "sick voice" which i guess is the sound of a voice when the nose is too congested to talk properly. also, they said that my laugh was good. aka an obnoxious girly chiggle. which means a chuckle/giggle. yeah, i just made that up.
hmm...sometimes i forget that teachers and parents are people.
i failed a math test but i still have a B in the class. it makes me wonder what my grade was before that. oh well.
i saw the dalai lama on sunday. he's a very real type of guy. i mean, if you're the 14th fuckin dalai lama then you have to be right? RIGHT?! that's what i thought.
i bought two books today. i think we have an addiction on our hands. i'm buying/finding/stealing them faster than i can read them. i wish i had a library like in beauty and the beast. belle was the luckiest gal in the world. school is making a fool of me. too much homework. too bad i really want an A and am willing to give up my time for it. damn me and my goals. my friends are going to a gigantic rave tonight. no thanks. thousands of people scare the shit out of me. my doggies are so cute. brutus is looking at me with his big saggy face and it's just so ADORABLE oohmg. i wish i was black.
lastnight deryn called me to hang out but i didn't realize that hanging out would involve this crackhead i (unfortunately) know. i stayed for about an hour or so out of courtesy and all but pretty much made my fat little legs carry me outa there faster than a jack rabbit with a hot poker up its ass.
school is so much fun! summer baaaad. whats funny is that i still party just as much as i did while the summer was in motion except that there is learning inbetween! so yay for that.
i woke up this morning and i had my cat in a strangle hold. that is definitely not good. she seemed a bit shaken but hey, if she wants a spot in MY bed then she must take that risk.
i am going to go and read my book. then i guess i'll do homework. i have a cold.
p.s. microwavable cream of wheat = FUCKING GENIUS!
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