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Welcome to the world, Little One
[OOC: Fudging the timeline a wee bit...Shann;s baby is due Sept 5, but due to mun work schedules, we want to get the baby born and the wedding RP'd beofre school starts and I got back to work full time in early August. So...For the sake of the storyline, it's Late July roight now. As in, the baby is still going to be early, but only a month, not two. So yeah. Deal with it]
She'd woken up just after three o'clock. After using the bathroom, she crawled back into bed beside Sawyer. He stirred, but she threaded her fingers in his hair and told him to go back to sleep. She lay awake watching him sleep for a while, subconsciously paying attention to the changes in her body.
She woke him just before five, and told him it was time. He blinked at her, she smiled at him. It was early, she knew, and there were risks, but she also knew there wasn't much she could do about it. For whatever reason, Dylan was ready to make her entrance, and Shannon was more than ready to be rid of the extra weight.
An hour later, she was on a table with her legs spread. Three centimeters dialated. And determined to have the baby natural.
Three hours after that, she was screaming for drugs.
Two more hours, and she was exhausted, flat on her back, watching the nurses clean the newborn and test her reflexes. She was wrapped in a soft pink towel and placed gently in Shannon's arms. Shannon looked up at Sawyer, amazed at the little miracle they'd created.
She'd woken up just after three o'clock. After using the bathroom, she crawled back into bed beside Sawyer. He stirred, but she threaded her fingers in his hair and told him to go back to sleep. She lay awake watching him sleep for a while, subconsciously paying attention to the changes in her body.
She woke him just before five, and told him it was time. He blinked at her, she smiled at him. It was early, she knew, and there were risks, but she also knew there wasn't much she could do about it. For whatever reason, Dylan was ready to make her entrance, and Shannon was more than ready to be rid of the extra weight.
An hour later, she was on a table with her legs spread. Three centimeters dialated. And determined to have the baby natural.
Three hours after that, she was screaming for drugs.
Two more hours, and she was exhausted, flat on her back, watching the nurses clean the newborn and test her reflexes. She was wrapped in a soft pink towel and placed gently in Shannon's arms. Shannon looked up at Sawyer, amazed at the little miracle they'd created.
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After pondering the issue for a few weeks, I've decided to drop Shannon and Boone (
best_blue_eyes) from 
theatrical_muse. I haven't really done anything with either of them for a while, and I just can't justify hanging on to them now. I don't have the time or energy to devote to them.
I am eternally grateful for all who played with my babies. I regret giving them up, but it's time. Hopefully someone will pick them up in-game and give them the attention they deserve.
I'm keeping both journals, and my occassionally let them out to play if anyone is interested. But as far as TM, they are officially up for adoption.
best_blue_eyes) from theatrical_muse. I haven't really done anything with either of them for a while, and I just can't justify hanging on to them now. I don't have the time or energy to devote to them.I am eternally grateful for all who played with my babies. I regret giving them up, but it's time. Hopefully someone will pick them up in-game and give them the attention they deserve.
I'm keeping both journals, and my occassionally let them out to play if anyone is interested. But as far as TM, they are officially up for adoption.
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1. Do you place your faith in God? If no, why not?
No. I mean I believe in God and all, but...I don't know. I never really went to church when i was a kid, and my mom died when I was really little, and my dad...I mean, why would Go let that kind of stuff happen? Boone used to tell he God was looking out for us, but I think he only said that to try to make me feel better. It really only made me feel worse because if God was looking out for me, why did my dad do the things he did?
2. What's the best thing about being in love? And the worst?
I've never been in love before. Sawyer'sreally the first. And he's just wonderful. Being in love with him is...I don't even know how to descrive it. He's just great. He wants to do everything he can to keep me happy. The sex is incredible. It has a lot more...I don't know...It's more than just sex. Even when we fool around, it's so incredible. I actually feel it. It's not just...you know?
The worst part about it? I never really thought about there being a worst part. I guess it's...fear. I worry about him. he's so reckless and tough, but he's not really tough. He's a big softie and I'm always afraid something's going to happen to him. Like I don't want him out of my sight.
3. If a genie appeared and granted you three wishes, what would they be? (no wishing for more wishes)
Three wishes. Hmmm. 1) I wish my baby is healthy and happy. 2) I wish Boone would get the help he needs right now. I know he made an appointment with a shirnk, but he didn't go and he's...he's not well. Anyone can see it. I'm scared for him. 3) I wish Sawyer could be free of the demons from his past and just be happy.
4. What's been the hardest experience in your life?
It's difficult for me to talk about. I don't really know if I can talk about it. My father...the things he did to me. Living with that, the fear, the...he threatened Boone all the time. I did what he wanted me to do so he wouldn't hurt Booone. Boone...when iw as a kid, Boone was all I had. He was the only person I could trust...I would have done anything to protect him. That turned into anger and contempt, I turned bitter and cold because I was afraid. I didn't want to be hurt again.
5. If you could change one thing about yourself, would you? And what would it be?
Like physically? I don't know. I...I used to hate everything about myself. My father made sure I didn't believe I was pretty or smart or anything but ugly and worthless. Good for hitting and...and...other things, and...well, I believed him. Bu now? Being with Sawyer has heped me see...I am pretty. And I am smart. And I am worth something. So unless I can change the past and make it so he never put a hand on me, I'm pretty happy the way I am.
OOC: My background for Shannon and Boonew was established before the "Hearts And Minds" episode aired and I didn't want to alter what I had too much, so their background is slightly different. They are full blood brother and sister, not step siblings.
No. I mean I believe in God and all, but...I don't know. I never really went to church when i was a kid, and my mom died when I was really little, and my dad...I mean, why would Go let that kind of stuff happen? Boone used to tell he God was looking out for us, but I think he only said that to try to make me feel better. It really only made me feel worse because if God was looking out for me, why did my dad do the things he did?
2. What's the best thing about being in love? And the worst?
I've never been in love before. Sawyer'sreally the first. And he's just wonderful. Being in love with him is...I don't even know how to descrive it. He's just great. He wants to do everything he can to keep me happy. The sex is incredible. It has a lot more...I don't know...It's more than just sex. Even when we fool around, it's so incredible. I actually feel it. It's not just...you know?
The worst part about it? I never really thought about there being a worst part. I guess it's...fear. I worry about him. he's so reckless and tough, but he's not really tough. He's a big softie and I'm always afraid something's going to happen to him. Like I don't want him out of my sight.
3. If a genie appeared and granted you three wishes, what would they be? (no wishing for more wishes)
Three wishes. Hmmm. 1) I wish my baby is healthy and happy. 2) I wish Boone would get the help he needs right now. I know he made an appointment with a shirnk, but he didn't go and he's...he's not well. Anyone can see it. I'm scared for him. 3) I wish Sawyer could be free of the demons from his past and just be happy.
4. What's been the hardest experience in your life?
It's difficult for me to talk about. I don't really know if I can talk about it. My father...the things he did to me. Living with that, the fear, the...he threatened Boone all the time. I did what he wanted me to do so he wouldn't hurt Booone. Boone...when iw as a kid, Boone was all I had. He was the only person I could trust...I would have done anything to protect him. That turned into anger and contempt, I turned bitter and cold because I was afraid. I didn't want to be hurt again.
5. If you could change one thing about yourself, would you? And what would it be?
Like physically? I don't know. I...I used to hate everything about myself. My father made sure I didn't believe I was pretty or smart or anything but ugly and worthless. Good for hitting and...and...other things, and...well, I believed him. Bu now? Being with Sawyer has heped me see...I am pretty. And I am smart. And I am worth something. So unless I can change the past and make it so he never put a hand on me, I'm pretty happy the way I am.
OOC: My background for Shannon and Boonew was established before the "Hearts And Minds" episode aired and I didn't want to alter what I had too much, so their background is slightly different. They are full blood brother and sister, not step siblings.
Current Topic: What in your life are you most dissatisfied with?
What am most dissatisfied with in my life right now? I don't know. I'm pretty happy right now. I think, honestly, I'm happier than I've ever been. I've got a couple good friends, which I've never really had before. and a man who loves me. I've had that before, but not like this. Aaron loved me because I was beautiful. Obviously that wasn't gonna work out. But Sawyer...I think Sawyer really loves me. Me. Not some vague image of me.
I'm having a baby, which is totally cool. I'm due in the early part of September. Right now, that seems so far away. I know being a mom is going to be a huge responsibility, and before I got pregnant, I wasn't anywhere near ready for it. I'm still not, but I'm getting there. And by September, I'm gonna be good and ready. We've already picked out a name, and we've been looking at cribs and stuff.
Oh right. The question is what am I dissatisfied with. I don't know. Maybe...maybe my brother. Boone and I...we've had a difficult relationship, to put it mildly. And I know he wasn't exactly thrilled when I started getting serious about Sawyer. But I am serious about Sawyer. And I really wanted Boone to be happy for me. I wanted to ask him to be the baby's godfather, but I don't know. He hasn't really said much about the baby at all, and he gets all weird on me if the subject comes up. I don't know if dissatisfied is really the word, but I wish things were different with Boone.
I'm having a baby, which is totally cool. I'm due in the early part of September. Right now, that seems so far away. I know being a mom is going to be a huge responsibility, and before I got pregnant, I wasn't anywhere near ready for it. I'm still not, but I'm getting there. And by September, I'm gonna be good and ready. We've already picked out a name, and we've been looking at cribs and stuff.
Oh right. The question is what am I dissatisfied with. I don't know. Maybe...maybe my brother. Boone and I...we've had a difficult relationship, to put it mildly. And I know he wasn't exactly thrilled when I started getting serious about Sawyer. But I am serious about Sawyer. And I really wanted Boone to be happy for me. I wanted to ask him to be the baby's godfather, but I don't know. He hasn't really said much about the baby at all, and he gets all weird on me if the subject comes up. I don't know if dissatisfied is really the word, but I wish things were different with Boone.
Boone's brave enough, I guess I could too...
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What's the furthest away you've ever been from the place you were born/created? How did you get there? Why did you go? Did you return or even want to come back to where you came from?
Do not even talk to me about that stupid island. It's somewhere in the South pacific. It's a TROPICAL Island, and there's polar bears. Explain that to me, please. Or, no. Don't. I said I don't want to talk about it. And I don't. I really really don't. I don't even want to think about that stupid island ever again.
You know what's worse than polar bears? Looking back, and seeing how Sawyer was there, right there, and I didn't see him. I mean, I saw him. I knew who he was, we even had a little fling at one point. Or maybe it was twice. But...I didn't bother to really look at him. I didn't see how great he is, how wonderful.
But, it's okay because I'm making up for it now. We're making up for it. We're off that stupid island, and we're so much in love it's scary. I never knew I could love like this. So completely. Without wanting anything in return, except his love. There's no prize, no scheme, no manipulation. It's just love because it's real and it's true.
And I've gone completely off topic here. Uh. Okay. Um. I was in a plane crash. The plane went down on this polar bear infested tropical island. My brother was there, and Sawyer, and a bunch of others survived too. And there was Nadia and Ethan and...none of that really matters now either.
Describe what your "happily ever after" would be like
Me and Sawyer, that's my happily ever after. I'm already there. I'm pregnant and in love. The only thing left is for him to ask me to marry him, but I'm not really in any big hurry. If he asked me now, I'd say yes, but I don't want him to ask because of the baby. I want him to know he's ready for that, because even though we already live together, and we're having a baby together, marriage is a huge step. And, it scares me a little too, so I really don't think about it too much, except I know I want to get married outside, but not on the beach. I've had enough of beaches to last me a lifetime. And wherever we go on honeymoon, we have to drive because I am not getting on a plane. There was a couple who died in the crash on the island that were planning their wedding. Claire found their wedding planner in the wreckage. That was sad.
I just want to be with Sawyer. I don't care if we never get married. It's enough for me to know I love him and he loves me and our kids are going to be loved and they're not going to sleep with one eye open or tip toe around the house, always wondering if they're going to get smacked or not just for breathing.
Do not even talk to me about that stupid island. It's somewhere in the South pacific. It's a TROPICAL Island, and there's polar bears. Explain that to me, please. Or, no. Don't. I said I don't want to talk about it. And I don't. I really really don't. I don't even want to think about that stupid island ever again.
You know what's worse than polar bears? Looking back, and seeing how Sawyer was there, right there, and I didn't see him. I mean, I saw him. I knew who he was, we even had a little fling at one point. Or maybe it was twice. But...I didn't bother to really look at him. I didn't see how great he is, how wonderful.
But, it's okay because I'm making up for it now. We're making up for it. We're off that stupid island, and we're so much in love it's scary. I never knew I could love like this. So completely. Without wanting anything in return, except his love. There's no prize, no scheme, no manipulation. It's just love because it's real and it's true.
And I've gone completely off topic here. Uh. Okay. Um. I was in a plane crash. The plane went down on this polar bear infested tropical island. My brother was there, and Sawyer, and a bunch of others survived too. And there was Nadia and Ethan and...none of that really matters now either.
Describe what your "happily ever after" would be like
Me and Sawyer, that's my happily ever after. I'm already there. I'm pregnant and in love. The only thing left is for him to ask me to marry him, but I'm not really in any big hurry. If he asked me now, I'd say yes, but I don't want him to ask because of the baby. I want him to know he's ready for that, because even though we already live together, and we're having a baby together, marriage is a huge step. And, it scares me a little too, so I really don't think about it too much, except I know I want to get married outside, but not on the beach. I've had enough of beaches to last me a lifetime. And wherever we go on honeymoon, we have to drive because I am not getting on a plane. There was a couple who died in the crash on the island that were planning their wedding. Claire found their wedding planner in the wreckage. That was sad.
I just want to be with Sawyer. I don't care if we never get married. It's enough for me to know I love him and he loves me and our kids are going to be loved and they're not going to sleep with one eye open or tip toe around the house, always wondering if they're going to get smacked or not just for breathing.
Just talking to hear the sound of my own voice
My skin is so dry. Just all of a sudden. It doen't matter how much moisturizer I put on it. It's still dry. *Sigh* I read in one of the pregnancy books that it's because of the hormones from the pregnancy. I also read that by now the baby's brain is starting to develop. That is just...wild. To think ther eis a living little person inside me. It's crazy. I read this book, Your Pregnancy Day By Day book, and it's just wild.
Today is Day 39. 277 days left. My book doen't really say much about today, jus tthat by tomorrow the feet will start to develop and there should be pigment in the baby's eyes. Sawyer and I both have blue eyes, so, the baby should too, right? Is that how it works? I don't know.
Sawyer and I talked a little about the baby the other day. I have falled in to the habit of calling it a "her" because "it" is so imersonal. I don't really care if it's a boy or girl, as long as it's healthy. I know, that's what most people say unless they have a difinitive reason for wanting one ove rthe other. I'd kind of like my little girl to have a big brother, someone to look out for her and protect her and stuff like my big brother did for me. Except my baby won't need that kind of protection.
I know having a baby is a huge thing. Once it's born, I can't give it back. It's a life long commitment. And, I'll be the first one to say I'm scared. But I'm also excited. And by the time the baby is born, I'll be ready for the adventure. Sawyer and I are going to be great parents. know a lot of people don't think we can hack it. That just makes me all the more determined. I'm gonna prove them all wrong.
Today is Day 39. 277 days left. My book doen't really say much about today, jus tthat by tomorrow the feet will start to develop and there should be pigment in the baby's eyes. Sawyer and I both have blue eyes, so, the baby should too, right? Is that how it works? I don't know.
Sawyer and I talked a little about the baby the other day. I have falled in to the habit of calling it a "her" because "it" is so imersonal. I don't really care if it's a boy or girl, as long as it's healthy. I know, that's what most people say unless they have a difinitive reason for wanting one ove rthe other. I'd kind of like my little girl to have a big brother, someone to look out for her and protect her and stuff like my big brother did for me. Except my baby won't need that kind of protection.
I know having a baby is a huge thing. Once it's born, I can't give it back. It's a life long commitment. And, I'll be the first one to say I'm scared. But I'm also excited. And by the time the baby is born, I'll be ready for the adventure. Sawyer and I are going to be great parents. know a lot of people don't think we can hack it. That just makes me all the more determined. I'm gonna prove them all wrong.