blackjackrocket, posts by tag: obsession - LiveJournal

A note first--I finished this a week ago and posted it to Serebii, but my other two places had issues. I can't seem to post to Bulbagarden because I can't log in for some unknown reason, so if anybody connected with them is reading this, please alert someone. I can consistantly read the site so I know what *isn't* going on, but it doesn't accept my login information--it doesn't even reject it, just doesn't do anything at all. I've tried to send messages but haven't recieved any replies. And as for LJ, well, I just plum forgot.


Anyway, I hope you all enjoy! I mean, it's been over a year and all. I wish it came faster. And I have no idea what to do in the next chapter! So ideas are very welcome.





( To exaggerate myself to that degree was to be literally larger than life, and that was something that lent itself quite well to my desired path.Collapse )

So! When we last left our heroes they had run off from a fashion event held by Veronica's mother! What will the big city hold for them?


( Read and find out!Collapse )

Here, have 550+ Kumoricon pictures

And for those of you wondering who I went as, what the mystery costume was...


So it seems there was almost no mystery at all, was there? Of course, me blabbing it all over the Kcon boards may have had something to do with that.



Also on an unrelated note, let me just say that I found this terribly amusing. As if I'm somehow the only wank magnet that RPs. I can barely keep up with SBG--when do these people think I have time for another game, especially one that involves an entire secret identity?


And to keep everyone here satisfied, evidence that I am indeed working on Obsession. Have a brief excerpt that I wrote yesterday!

( An excerpt from Ob23. It has ghosts. Sort of.Collapse )

Ok so I need motivation on Obsession. It's been far too long since the last chapter and yet I can't seem to get this one to where it should be.

People! You've read my fic! Or most of you have, anyway. Give me something to inspire me. Especially something relating to the fic. Something relating to Jirarudan, something about art collecting, about airships, whatever you have.


Been feeling so sad lately too. Even before the asshattery last week. So frustrated with the world as a whole. How is it that standing up for myself can come so naturally to me and yet be so difficult for most people? It just...nngh! I get so angry at people for being spineless and I get accused of being too aggressive and trying to force people to endanger themselves by speaking out. But if people had spoken up throughout history, there wouldn't BE any danger right now in this sort of thing. It's so frustrating! I can't comprehend how people think at all, and it's constantly spun to make me the "odd man out" and accusing me of being insensitive towards victims. Are people content to BE victims? No other mindset could possibly make not speaking up make any sense.

To me, everyone else is stupid. To them, I'm insensitive. What the hell is going on?

I'm on vacation in Tacoma this weekend and am posting this from lagomorphintime's computer! It's almost 2:30 am and I've been working on this since xalifesochanged visited back in JULY. It's also about the same temperature outside as it was then (srsly, mid-40s in July wtf). Anyway, let's proceed!




(  To be regarded along with the art, as essential as the frame…or perhaps I was just being overdramatic.Collapse )

I've been so busy with writing! But now I have it--Obsession 21!


( So the secret I have may be of greater interest to you than those people out there, who treat money like coins to a cat.Collapse )

So I'm here, I'm totally here.

But it's one of those times where I can't really think of much to say.


Anyway, there was a Fandom Secrets secret about Obsession. And of course some douchebag accused me of self-posting. Fucking dillwads. Right, so I'm the only person who can ever be affected by my own fic, huh? Hell, I even know who posted it. And she's not me.

Besides, don't these people also accuse me of having no ambition? I can't have no ambition if I'm doing the stuff the secret maker talks about (yes that's a direct link to the secret if you didn't want to load the whole post), so they need to either accept that yes, other people DO like my stuff, or just shut the hell up.

Hell, there's two people I know of on dA who list me as their favorite writer. I guess that makes them my sockpuppets or something (yes I got accused of that once. There was a Jiri secret up and trolls came out AGAIN, and accused the ENTIRE POPULATION OF warewacollector of being my sockpuppets!).


Someone on Bulba said that because of my history, people don't trust me. What. Sure I have a reputation as a wanker, but the issue there is that I'm TOO direct. Being a wanker doesn't make you untrustworthy. And if I'm too direct, then I'm unlikely to lie or be INdirect.


See, this is why I hate people. Anyway, you know what we haven't had in a while? Icons!

( Contains various baddies, miscreants, and evildoersCollapse )


And also some random stuff I cobbled together a while ago.

( Bursting at the seams with Galactic goodness! 'Goodness' being a relative term with them, of course...Collapse )


Also, a reminder about my comms! You all know WWC like I mentioned earlier, and rocket100. There's also pokemacros, pokemon_manga, ffvi100 (which has only EVER gotten ONE fic), and, for private RPing, pokesandbox (there's a contact post if you want to do something with one of the characters covered). Also tgcomm but I didn't create it.

Oh holy crap I can't believe I made my deadline by 22 minutes. Obsession chapter 20! More than a year past due but still in 2009! Although it took me until 2010 to post it. Note to self--next time you mention an upcoming event in the fic's timeline, don't take four and a half years to get to it.





( Art was supposed to be something new. Something special, something sacred, something irregular. To only show what we see every day is a waste.Collapse )

...I don't know what to say.

I really don't...


I've been sick for over a month. I've been feverish, shaky, coughing hoarsely, dazed, itchy...I can't seem to focus on anything for very long at all...

I've been trying to write Obsession. I started the 20th chapter, but so far it's very slow going. I've gotten maybe a page and a half done, and that's in varying parts no less. Usually I write straight through, but I can't focus for that long so I have to write in spurts and pray like crazy I can link them together somehow.

Breaking my focus even more...goddammit. Why do I have to get attached to these characters? It never ends well. ( spoilers and stuff you're probably better off not knowing about meCollapse )



I hope I feel better soon. In any regard.

I don't know what it is about this time of year. Something always happens to make me miserable. Last year it was Maddie dying and I never truly got over that. But even that wasn't even the first thing. I think I've been scared to write ever since that "everything you write is the same" comment at a con last year and then doing that fic with Abby that made us so depressed that to this day we haven't edited it.

Only one of those things should have affected me, and I never even met her. Why did it hit me so hard?


...dammit.

First off, do you want to hear my voice acting? Now you can! And streaming too!


So it seems that it's that time of year again, by which I mean while everyone else is busting out fifty thousand word stories, I'm working on Obsession. And this time I actually finished a few days early! Remember last year when it was an hour before the deadline? Yeah, plenty of space this year.

Here for Bulbagarden, here for Serebii...or you can read it here!



( Such brilliant minds you both possess! Such brilliant Collectors you'll be!Collapse )







Anyway, don't forget to buy my stuff! (speaking of collectors...)