A week from today it'll actually be Christmas. Wow, Christmas. I can't believe that I've actually lived in Bathurst for a full year. I've become so much happier this year. Last year, I had absolutely no confidence in myself and I was as quiet and meek (if you can believe that) at school as I was at home. I was a perfect little 'angel', who, for seemingly no reason, sometimes burst into tears.
But now I only burst into tears if I have a reason - most of the time, anyway. Actually, a lot of the time it's for the same reason (roll of eyes). Parents, huh? The main cause of teenage angst. Oh well - nothing I can do about it. I depend on Mum and Ian to get me through the rest of school (and probably part way through uni as well) so I have to stay here. I love my mum, don't get me wrong. But sometimes I just wish I had someone to give me a hug.
Now listen to me - I'm some sort of emotional sap who can't get by on their own. Well, that's not true. I'm perfectly fine (most of the time). Hey, did that rhyme? LOL ;). Anyway, I think I've come so far since November/December last year. This year, I'm practically an entirely different person. I saw Stephanie in Sanity yesterday, and I actually sneered at her. GO ME! She deserved it, for what she said to me at Metro 5 when I was with Milly. Stupid cow. Stephanie, not Milly (never you, Milly!).
I've noticed a lot's changed about the way I move and the way I talk as well. I didn't speak very loud last year - a lot of the time I just didn't bother to speak up in class because I thought that the teacher wouldn't call on me anyway (and most of the time they didn't, proving me right - stupid La Salle). But at MKC, I feel a whole lot more appreciated. A lot of people rag on MKC, but since I can compare it to LSA, I know that we've got a great thing there.
And the way I move, the way I speak. I look and sound a lot more confident now as well. Not at home, but you know - I'm always being told what to do at home. I can't really be outspoken and stubborn at home, because then I will get worse than a demerit. Not that I've ever actually gotten a demerit or a detention in my high school life anyway lol. At school I'm - not boasting or anything - but I like to think I'm friendly and approachable (except to Meg :S). I was even so bold as to wear tinsel and coloured hairspray in my hair on the last day or school (gaspshockhorror!).
Wow, it's past midnight. No wonder my eyes are drooping. If you will notice, the extras on my sidebar have changed once more. I try to update them every time I get on the computer (if there's been a change), and since I finally finished 'Trickster' - it was both 'Trickster's Choice' and 'Trickster's Queen' in one volume - I once more picked up the 'Chronicles of Narnia'. Most of my friends are excited about seeing the movie (what a bunch of nerds we are lol), but I'm kind of apprehensive. I prefer to imagine the things in the Chronicles - it's not the sort of thing you can really see on the big screen. I'll probably criticise it too much to really enjoy it.
OK, getting sleepy now. I'm going to go and sleep, and I might (or I might not) get back on tomorrow. I'm planning on renewing my knowledge of Disney songs. I don't know why, so don't ask why. I just feel like watching 'Aladdin' and 'The Lion King' and 'Hercules'. (shrug) It's not like it's a crime for a teen to watch kids movies. You also understand a lot more of them when you're older. You actually realise what the profession of the girls Aladdin drops in on, is. ;)
Write soon!