bitter_b

I wanna be remembered for the little things that make me, me.
My always brightly colored chipped fingernail polish.
My never flawless hair.
The way I pick at my hang nails when I'm nervous.
The way that music solves everything.
The way I can never hide my awkwardness.
And the way I can never hide my smile, if I'm truly happy.

I know your bad for me
I know we will NEVER be together
and you will NEVER be the man I need

yet I cant stop thinking about you.

I had a dream last night and I woke up in such a good mood. And in the dream we were together.

I read a quote today saying if you wanna know where your heart is, look at where it goes where it wanders.

i think of you when my mind wanders...

all i hafta say about that is I need to find something else to think about

For a minute I faultered.
For a minute I looked at Shain and wished it was you.
I had dreams of how I wished things would have gone.

The last time we were face to face, your words had no effect. I looked at you for what you've always been. All talk.
I still wanted to wrestle. So we'd have an excuse to touch. I still wouldn't have refused a kiss. Cause your still the best kisser.
The best sex I've ever had I don't love, and I don't ever want to have sex with him again.

I dont know why I loved you.
It had a lot to do with the dimples, and blue eyes.
The emo music we listened to in highschool didnt help.

But I'm no longer a love ridden teenager.

I'm ready to settle down and have a life and your not stable enough.

You're childish ways are no longer a chalenge to me.

Shain's childish ways are his fits and ADD.
But he left all he had behind for me.
His big brown eyes look at me, lovingly, far more. He's quicker to appologize and admit he's done wrong, He doesnt lie, twist his words, to make me feel at fault for the issue.
He calls me out when I'm being a hyper sensative bitch, but he loves me enough to take 99% of it, and want more.

Goes as far to love me for how much of a bitch I can be.

He'll chase me from room to room when I walk away.
You'd never even respond.

I only love you because you were my first.

I think I can finally say I'm over you. Here I come Texas

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I'd rather be bitter than indifferent
I love working with people but shit
is there anything that makes you lose hope in humanity other than working with the public?
"I hate mankind, for I think myself one of the best of them, and I know how bad I am."

not to mention the opposite sex
jebus
frankly the same sex doesn't make it any easier
Lesbians hate bi girls
*very much deserving tho, i hate most bi girls even tho i am one*

i'm destined for a long loving relationship with my vibrator