i’ll start making games again as soon as somebody gets this boot off my fucking neck

made for manifesto jam 2026

there is a version of this manifesto that is much more personal and much more vulnerable and maybe i'll share it eventually but i just do not feel comfortable posting it right now.

i am worried what i've written here is cliche and saccharine. who's up getting cliche and saccharine tonight⁉️

made with html and css. fonts used, both free: OldStyle and Du Bellay. itch background from texture town.

thank you to kari, november, and jaspy for reading it before i posted it. i love manifesto jam.

much of this manifesto is about having a complicated relationship to making art when struggling with getting material needs met. i would like to share some resources i know of for helping getting material needs met. they very much are not enough and are like a bandaid when massive systemic change is needed. revolution is suicide prevention. i wish i still had access to my old job's full database of resources, but i'll share some i remember and some other ones i know of here. most of these may be limited to the u.s., but some may have info or links to elsewhere that can be useful outside of the u.s., as well.

• anti-carceral crisis support:
  • Project LETS: this links to their crisis support page, which includes a list of crisis lines that don't call the cops, but i also want to highlight their extensive alternatives to self-harm list.
  • THRIVE lifeline: currently only open for chat support weds-thurs 10:30 pm-4:30 am pst, unfortunately
  • Wildflower Alliance: they have a peer support line, open 7 pm to 9 pm et mon through thurs and 7 pm-10 pm et fri through sun, but i believe it is only staffed by one person at any given time, so you have to keep calling til you get through. i do appreciate that, in addition to not calling the cops, they also don't collect personal info or perform assessments.
• medical bill support:
  • Dollar For: one i learned about recently. they help people find out if their medical bills qualify for charity care, and then file the paperwork for them. however, i believe they recently accepted a lot of money from openai and posted about incorporating ai into their processes in the future, and i am obviously wary about the idea of openai potentially gaining access to vulnerable peoples' medical info, so be aware of this. 
  • Patient Advocate Foundation: i believe that they have some financial assistance programs, and some other advocate assistance and resources. they also have a National Financial Resource Directory, which looks like it can help people find other resources/orgs offering a number of kinds of assistance.
  • To Write Love On Her Arms treatment & recovery scholarship program, ie a therapy fund. available in the u.s. and internationally.
  • Inclusive Therapists' list of therapy and mutual aid funds
  • maskbloc.org: international resource for finding local mask blocs for help accessing free masks, covid tests, and other support/equipment
• other databases of resources:
  • findhelp
  • from when i lived in la, here are some for if you're in la, specifically:
    • Trans Defense Fund LA has an extensive resource list
    • LAPL's stable living resources (some of these are pulled from findhelp, i believe)
      • a lot of libraries can help direct to local resources, and i'm also seeing an increasing number incorporating tool rentals into their services. some offer job search assistance, too.
• pet care funds:
  • Brown Dog Foundation financial assistance request form
  • The Onyx & Breezy Foundation
    
  • Magic Bullet Fund, now closed, has a list of other organizations that provide financial assistance for pet medical care
  • Paws 4 A Cure assistance request page
    
  • Frankie’s Friends financial assistance request page 
  • The Pet Fund's assistance application page
• rental assistance funds and employment assistance resources tend to be very local, so i don't really know of any larger ones that i can link here, but please know that rental assistance funds and emergency funds and eviction defense funds do exist, particularly in cities. also, 211 can help you find stuff like this sometimes.
  • in the bay: Stay Housed Bay Area, the BACS emergency rental assistance application, the Bay Area 211 website, OPL support services, SFPL resources (scroll down on that linked page for different kinds)
  • if you're looking for resources in your area, some ideas of places to look for: LGBTQIA+ resource centers, local therapy practices or peer support organizations, libraries, churches (many have food banks), weird corners of local government websites (they are often poorly designed and hard to navigate so it can be easy to miss what resources they offer). all these options may, even if they themselves don't have support to offer, know of other places, refer out to other places, have databases of their own. obviously churches and the local government can have baggage and don't always feel like safe places to turn for support.
  • in rural areas, sometimes there are small peer support orgs, but you may have to zoom out a little to ones in the county or neighboring counties. there are some specific funds for rural areas, and some virtual support services offer financial aid or discounts for people in rural and sparsely populated areas. just putting "rural assistance," "rural community resources," and things like that into a search engine, some things came up that would be worth looking into. if i learn more about them, i'll add them to this list.
• other resources:
  • fat-friendly health professionals list: last updated 2016 unfortunately, but could still be helpful for getting an idea where to look. mostly u.s., but some international.
  • project n95: while they no longer sell masks, they do link to where you can buy masks they once sold elsewhere