Journal created:
on 24 December 2006 (#11888724)
Updated:
on 7 April 2008
Name:
becka
My whole life....
My whole life I have always tried to be one step ahead.
My whole life I have shaped myself to be what I think I should for other people.
My whole life I have felt guilt for who I am and things I deny to myself.
My whole life I have sought attention whether it is positive or negative.
My whole life I have rushed ahead and not let myself live as a normal child and grow up.
My whole life I have pushed away and supressed feelings.
My whole life I have felt distant from people.
My whole life I have felt close to people.
My whole life I have kept my feelings and thoughts so far away from others.
My whole life I have kept my thoughts and feelings so far away from myself.
It seems it has caught up with me now. My whole 16 years of life has caught up with me now and I feel so incredibly lost all the time . Now I am trying to figure out who I am.
My whole life I have always tried to be one step ahead.
My whole life I have shaped myself to be what I think I should for other people.
My whole life I have felt guilt for who I am and things I deny to myself.
My whole life I have sought attention whether it is positive or negative.
My whole life I have rushed ahead and not let myself live as a normal child and grow up.
My whole life I have pushed away and supressed feelings.
My whole life I have felt distant from people.
My whole life I have felt close to people.
My whole life I have kept my feelings and thoughts so far away from others.
My whole life I have kept my thoughts and feelings so far away from myself.
It seems it has caught up with me now. My whole 16 years of life has caught up with me now and I feel so incredibly lost all the time . Now I am trying to figure out who I am.