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So I don't know if this is a real situation or not, but I think I am having a 'quarter-life crisis' (hopefully not a mid-life crisis, because 44 is too young to die!) But I am MAJORLY depressed lately. I will be 22 next weekend and to me, that's nuts. I can't believe I have been out of high school for almost four years when the memories seem like they just happened yesterday AND the fact that I have dreams about high school ALL THE TIME now!!!!! Life is just passing me by so quickly; I can't even remember the date. I am so depressed all the time lately, but most of the time, I just would rather just lay in bed and watch Boy Meets World than go out. Which may explain why I am such a fucking whale at the moment. I can't find an exercise routine to stick to and I am not buying a gym membership because when I start Nova, I will have one for free. Which reminds me, since I will be a hermit for the next four years, I need to party it up and have the best summer of my life this year. Last summer was good, but this one needs to be better.
I have been missing Ryan A LOT lately. He is turning his life around finally and I am finding him more appealing now I guess. Like they say, you never know what you have until it's gone and that's how I feel these days. And I have tried moving on. I was talking to this guy a few days who I thought was worth my time, but he told me I was too old for him (he will be 21 in June) Granted, I don't usually wanna date guys younger than me, but he seemed really nice and that we would get along well. But his name was also Ryan, so I should have just assumed the worst. haha
School is going really well this summer. I NEVER thought I would say this, but I am actually starting to LOVE physics. Crazy, I know. My lecture and lab teachers are amazing and I am going to be sad to see this semester end. Even though I will not use physics in pharmacy school, I have learned a lot this semester.
Also, I don't know what is going to happen with my job, but my boss has hired 3 new people full time and a PHARMACIST within the past 6 months. Business was booming in December/January, but now we are really slow. He told me that to be able to pay everyone's salary and stuff for the day we need to make $3200 in prescriptions/day. We have been averaging less than $2000/day, so I don't know what he is going to do. It sucks because as much as I hate that place, I wanted to pick up as many hours I could over the summer. Idealy, full time would be amazing. Although I make shit money compared to most technicians, it's a job and I know I won't get fired even if I royally fuck up.
But BTW I don't know if I told you guys, but I absolutely hate my job. I hate the drive, I hate the repetition, and I HATE working with Sandy. (Which is kind of rude for me to say because she had a mini heart attack the other day, but it is the truth.) She is just too fickle for me; one day she tells me I should look for a new job and the next day she asks me how many days a week I will work there during school. But that's another story. So I had sent out applications EVERYWHERE. Hospital pharmacies and retail. As much as I said I didn't want a job in retail, I feel that if I can get into a retail place, I will most likely have a job somewhere when I graduate. I was called for an interview at Target, but our answering machine was turned off, so I went to the store to ask if they had received my online application and the guy was like I called to set up an interview, when are you available? So he started asking me some questions and I never got a call back for an interview from him, so I tried to call him one day and he was in a meeting.I really just don't think they wanted to hire an intern because you have to pay them more than a tech. Whatevs. So I had had the number of my dad's cousin's husband who is a Manager at Costco for weeks and was too nervous to call him and ask what a job in Costco pharmacy entailed. After I tried to call the guy at Target, I put my brave face on and called Mike and he gave me the number of this guy named Floyd who I called to get more information from. He was thrilled I called and was very enthuiastic, which was a good sign. He told me to call him when I got my intern license and he would place me at whichever Costco I wanted to work at. So I am pretty much set with a job there and I am stoked. Their hours are AMAZING, no work on Sundays, no work on holidays, and they pay really well. A tech there makes over $20/hour, so I will be making more than that, I hope! Also, they have a program that they will pay for $10,000 of your pharmacy school tuition for the P2-P4 years if you agree to work with them for a certain amount of hours. I am ALL OVER that shit. The less loans the better. And I even told Floyd if by the time I graduate there are no jobs around here, I would be willing and able to relocate. I am anxious to start working there and not have to drive to Boca for work; maybe I will actually see some of my paychecks instead of handing them over to BP. haha
So I mean it's not like my life is total shit, I do have some stuff going for me, I just need to lose about 20lb and find a really good guy. Also, why is it almost 5am and I haven't slept tonight, yet I woke up at 6am yesterday and didn't take a nap at all today?? I don't even pull all-nighters when I have a huge test or somethig...what the eff??
I have been missing Ryan A LOT lately. He is turning his life around finally and I am finding him more appealing now I guess. Like they say, you never know what you have until it's gone and that's how I feel these days. And I have tried moving on. I was talking to this guy a few days who I thought was worth my time, but he told me I was too old for him (he will be 21 in June) Granted, I don't usually wanna date guys younger than me, but he seemed really nice and that we would get along well. But his name was also Ryan, so I should have just assumed the worst. haha
School is going really well this summer. I NEVER thought I would say this, but I am actually starting to LOVE physics. Crazy, I know. My lecture and lab teachers are amazing and I am going to be sad to see this semester end. Even though I will not use physics in pharmacy school, I have learned a lot this semester.
Also, I don't know what is going to happen with my job, but my boss has hired 3 new people full time and a PHARMACIST within the past 6 months. Business was booming in December/January, but now we are really slow. He told me that to be able to pay everyone's salary and stuff for the day we need to make $3200 in prescriptions/day. We have been averaging less than $2000/day, so I don't know what he is going to do. It sucks because as much as I hate that place, I wanted to pick up as many hours I could over the summer. Idealy, full time would be amazing. Although I make shit money compared to most technicians, it's a job and I know I won't get fired even if I royally fuck up.
But BTW I don't know if I told you guys, but I absolutely hate my job. I hate the drive, I hate the repetition, and I HATE working with Sandy. (Which is kind of rude for me to say because she had a mini heart attack the other day, but it is the truth.) She is just too fickle for me; one day she tells me I should look for a new job and the next day she asks me how many days a week I will work there during school. But that's another story. So I had sent out applications EVERYWHERE. Hospital pharmacies and retail. As much as I said I didn't want a job in retail, I feel that if I can get into a retail place, I will most likely have a job somewhere when I graduate. I was called for an interview at Target, but our answering machine was turned off, so I went to the store to ask if they had received my online application and the guy was like I called to set up an interview, when are you available? So he started asking me some questions and I never got a call back for an interview from him, so I tried to call him one day and he was in a meeting.I really just don't think they wanted to hire an intern because you have to pay them more than a tech. Whatevs. So I had had the number of my dad's cousin's husband who is a Manager at Costco for weeks and was too nervous to call him and ask what a job in Costco pharmacy entailed. After I tried to call the guy at Target, I put my brave face on and called Mike and he gave me the number of this guy named Floyd who I called to get more information from. He was thrilled I called and was very enthuiastic, which was a good sign. He told me to call him when I got my intern license and he would place me at whichever Costco I wanted to work at. So I am pretty much set with a job there and I am stoked. Their hours are AMAZING, no work on Sundays, no work on holidays, and they pay really well. A tech there makes over $20/hour, so I will be making more than that, I hope! Also, they have a program that they will pay for $10,000 of your pharmacy school tuition for the P2-P4 years if you agree to work with them for a certain amount of hours. I am ALL OVER that shit. The less loans the better. And I even told Floyd if by the time I graduate there are no jobs around here, I would be willing and able to relocate. I am anxious to start working there and not have to drive to Boca for work; maybe I will actually see some of my paychecks instead of handing them over to BP. haha
So I mean it's not like my life is total shit, I do have some stuff going for me, I just need to lose about 20lb and find a really good guy. Also, why is it almost 5am and I haven't slept tonight, yet I woke up at 6am yesterday and didn't take a nap at all today?? I don't even pull all-nighters when I have a huge test or somethig...what the eff??
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