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What I’m Digging #3: Favorites of 2023
Dec. 31st, 2023 11:42 amIs it even a blog if you don’t do an end-of-year round-up the last day of December? If we don’t look back on the last twelve months of our life and cherry-pick a handful of things we liked, does the year exist at all? Are we human, or are we dancer?!!
With those hard-hitting questions out of the way, have a few favorites off my list:
( Read more... )Mirrored from Cryptids and Capybaras.
Do Not Pet the Fluffy Cows
Aug. 11th, 2023 10:05 amAbout six weeks ago, I was here:
( A whole bunch of pictures from my trip out west! )Mirrored from Cryptids and Capybaras.
What I’m Digging #2
May. 26th, 2023 11:35 am“I’ll make this a weekly feature!” I said. Two months later… uh.
But here are some things I’ve enjoyed recently!
What I’m Hearing: You’re Wrong About recently did an episode about how the New York Times has fallen down on the job when it comes to reporting on trans people. That led me down a tiny rabbit hole to Gender Reveal, which has been a fantastic listen as somebody whose nonbinary egg only cracked a couple years ago. I am always down for people talking about gender and pushing back against the binary!
What I’m Reading: The Archive of Our Own, a major fanfic website, is undergoing a reckoning over how it handles complaints of racism; #EndOTWRacism (OTW = Organization of Transformative Works, the org that runs AO3) has been trending in fandom circles ever since a concerted pushback campaign began earlier in the month. On Dreamwidth, chestnut_pod wrote an impressively detailed, thorough post about actions OTW could take that balance the needs of communities of color with the anti-censorship “maximum inclusivity of content” ethos AO3 was founded on. The comments have a ton of lively and incisive discussion going on, too — both about the End OTW Racism campaign and OTW/AO3’s ongoing issues.
(I also wrote a Dreamwidth post of my own, from the perspective of somebody with a library preservation/book conservation background, in specific response to people insisting “it’s an archive, it HAS to collect everything!” Related: there’s a new play that just opened in DC, “Here There Are Blueberries,” based on a true story of how the Holocaust Museum handled the inclusion of reprehensible content in their archives.)
What I’m Watching: I watched… all of ten minutes of Dungeons and Dragons: Honor Among Thieves with my girlfriend last weekend before her TV crapped out, and now I’m just patiently sitting on my hands, waiting for when we can watch the rest of it. Even just the tiny bit I saw was as fun as everyone’s been saying. I’m not a fan of how Everything Is IP nowadays, but look: if you’re gonna make a movie based on existing IP, a roleplaying game that allows endless flexibility in story and character is 100% the way to go.
Mirrored from Cryptids and Capybaras.
End OTW Racism
May. 18th, 2023 01:35 pmI started to write this up as a Mastodon thread and promptly realized it was way too long, so now it's a DW post!
So. I have a lot of feelings about OTW and End OTW Racism as a book conservator/general preservation person, most of which verge into tl;dr territory. But I'll try to give the tl;dr:
1. OTW needs to decide if AO3 is going to function as an archive whose mission is maximum inclusivity of content, or if it's going to function -- even in part -- as a social hub. Because frankly, it can't be both.
2. While muting and blocking features are a step in the right direction, if AO3 wants to have any social components on its site, it is by necessity going to have to sacrifice some of that "maximum inclusivity of content" mission. Because online social components, as proven time and time again, require moderation. They prioritize community formation and maintenance over raw content.
3. In my professional life, I err on the side of preserving as much as possible, because we never know what the readers and researchers of the future will find important or useful. It's my job to bring as much of our past forward into the light as I can, with as little judgement as I can.
4. Even the most heinous content can have value as a reflection of societal mores of a certain time, place, or community, if -- IF!!! -- a librarian/archivist does their due diligence in properly classifying it as such and providing necessary context. I believe strongly that whitewashing the ugliest parts of our past and present does us all a disservice. But preserving those materials has to be done with care and thoughtfulness.
5. If AO3 wants to insist on maximum inclusivity of content as its archive mission, and wants to position itself as a true archive, it needs to do the hard, necessary work of providing the classification and context that every archive has to endure. You want to keep that racist trollfic? You'd better be prepared to explain what value it serves, which community YOU believe you serve by choosing to include it in the archive, and face up to the fact that you are alienating communities of color in the process. How will you reconcile that? Archives have to do it all the time, but said reconciliation is part of the hard and necessary work OTW doesn't seem willing to do.
6. Even aside from all of this professional talk: hate speech laws exist, y'know? It should not be a difficult decision to remove blatantly hateful things. End OTW Racism isn't talking about the edge cases here; they say as much in their mission statement.
Anyway, the REAL tl;dr: while my professional values align with the mission statement of AO3, it is not being handled with any of the care and due diligence it needs if it wants to be a true archive, at the expense of hurting huge chunks of our community. I stand with End OTW Racism and join the calls for OTW to do better.
So. I have a lot of feelings about OTW and End OTW Racism as a book conservator/general preservation person, most of which verge into tl;dr territory. But I'll try to give the tl;dr:
1. OTW needs to decide if AO3 is going to function as an archive whose mission is maximum inclusivity of content, or if it's going to function -- even in part -- as a social hub. Because frankly, it can't be both.
2. While muting and blocking features are a step in the right direction, if AO3 wants to have any social components on its site, it is by necessity going to have to sacrifice some of that "maximum inclusivity of content" mission. Because online social components, as proven time and time again, require moderation. They prioritize community formation and maintenance over raw content.
3. In my professional life, I err on the side of preserving as much as possible, because we never know what the readers and researchers of the future will find important or useful. It's my job to bring as much of our past forward into the light as I can, with as little judgement as I can.
4. Even the most heinous content can have value as a reflection of societal mores of a certain time, place, or community, if -- IF!!! -- a librarian/archivist does their due diligence in properly classifying it as such and providing necessary context. I believe strongly that whitewashing the ugliest parts of our past and present does us all a disservice. But preserving those materials has to be done with care and thoughtfulness.
5. If AO3 wants to insist on maximum inclusivity of content as its archive mission, and wants to position itself as a true archive, it needs to do the hard, necessary work of providing the classification and context that every archive has to endure. You want to keep that racist trollfic? You'd better be prepared to explain what value it serves, which community YOU believe you serve by choosing to include it in the archive, and face up to the fact that you are alienating communities of color in the process. How will you reconcile that? Archives have to do it all the time, but said reconciliation is part of the hard and necessary work OTW doesn't seem willing to do.
6. Even aside from all of this professional talk: hate speech laws exist, y'know? It should not be a difficult decision to remove blatantly hateful things. End OTW Racism isn't talking about the edge cases here; they say as much in their mission statement.
Anyway, the REAL tl;dr: while my professional values align with the mission statement of AO3, it is not being handled with any of the care and due diligence it needs if it wants to be a true archive, at the expense of hurting huge chunks of our community. I stand with End OTW Racism and join the calls for OTW to do better.
...once again I completely forgot to crosspost stuff I'm doing elsewhere to this journal, BUT, if you haven't seen it already: I'm offering up a fanbinding for the ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
fandomtrumpshate's 2023 charity auctions!
There's more details over on Tumblr if you're interested, including the bidding form + the current high bid. (Which is $180 at the time of posting, apparently?? Holy shit.) Bidding closes tomorrow, March 5th, at 8p ET, so get on it if you're interested ❤️
fandomtrumpshate's 2023 charity auctions!There's more details over on Tumblr if you're interested, including the bidding form + the current high bid. (Which is $180 at the time of posting, apparently?? Holy shit.) Bidding closes tomorrow, March 5th, at 8p ET, so get on it if you're interested ❤️
yet another online island
Feb. 12th, 2023 11:02 amSo I just realized I never mentioned it here, but I started up a more general blog/online space for myself after Twitter crashed: Cryptids and Capybaras, where I can gather all my stuff and maybe have a slightly less shitpost-y place to noodle around in. If folks want, I can set up some automations to crosspost here, since I'm still gonna talk about media and weird shit and whatever dumb dad joke made me laugh uncontrollably this week. But yeah! It's there if you interested.
In fact, I just posted something about the movie "EO" (which spoils the ending right off the bat) -- not quite a review, but musing about how my media consumption changed during the pandemic.
In fact, I just posted something about the movie "EO" (which spoils the ending right off the bat) -- not quite a review, but musing about how my media consumption changed during the pandemic.
Cohost: Honestly, this has been the biggest disappointment for me. It looked like it had so much promise! The best things I liked about Tumblr and Dreamwidth in one platform! But I gotta be honest with y'all, seeing the way the userbase reacted to Denise's breakdown of the TOS killed every last drop of my enthusiasm. The quickest way to know you are way too young for me and your primary experience with fandom socmed has been via Twitter and Tiktok: calling Dreamwidth of all places a direct competitor of, uh, pretty much anything nowadays! And then sealioning into every Twitter thread that mentioned DW with "um actually just so you know~~"! I spent so much time screaming THAT'S NOT HOW THIS WORKS, THAT'S NOT HOW ANY OF THIS WORKS in my head, my god. You can disagree with things Denise said without ascribing ulterior motives where she's steepling her fingers like an evil corporate overlord, laughing maniacally as she chases another poor little startup off the internet. Yeesh.
Also they still haven't fixed the biggest problems in the TOS, so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Mastodon: I... I am so embarrassed by how much I love Mastodon, gang. I do recognize and understand all its flaws, especially in just how stupidly white it is; the culture absolutely needs some big changes in a "challenge the comfortable and comfort the afflicted" way, especially around content warnings, if they want it to remain useable. But as someone who primarily used Twitter to keep in touch with friends, Mastodon's skew toward conversation over promotion -- at least in the instance I'm on -- has been a goddamn delight, and the mods of my instance have also been pushing hard to make the necessary culture changes that'll lead to a better, more inclusive socmed experience for everyone. I hope people stick around there! I really do!
I also think it helps that my instance skews fannish, but in an ancillary way rather than as its sole focus? Swimming around in MDZS/CQL fandom has been genuinely great the past two and a half years, but I don't think I realized how much I needed a break from being in such a high-intensity (and, tbh, high wank level) fandom. I'm still keeping up with my MDZS/CQL buddies on Mastodon! There's a way to follow hashtags that means I'm still getting plenty of fanart and fic recs in my feed. But it's a much more sedate experience overall.
All that said...
Tumblr: Y'all. Y'ALL. WHEN DID TUMBLR ACTUALLY GET FUN AGAIN. It has such big unhinged Daniel-Radcliffe-in-a-bathrobe-with-two-guns energy, they actually made things like tag filtering native to the app/website, and in the past forty-eight hours everyone invented an entire movie whole-cloth that already has like 200 works on AO3??? I take back all my hatred, this is fantastic. So far I'm only posting onexcineribusbooks, but with the way things are going, I might actually start using my bcgphoenix placeholder account too. We'll see! Big chaos mood; you love to see it.
Dreamwidth: I'm, uh, still being a big baby re: posting here. I'm gonna try to set a goal for myself to comment more on other peoples' posts, though; if I can push myself out of passive reader mode and into feeling like I have more of a community presence, I think it'll help all the weird feelings.
Also they still haven't fixed the biggest problems in the TOS, so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Mastodon: I... I am so embarrassed by how much I love Mastodon, gang. I do recognize and understand all its flaws, especially in just how stupidly white it is; the culture absolutely needs some big changes in a "challenge the comfortable and comfort the afflicted" way, especially around content warnings, if they want it to remain useable. But as someone who primarily used Twitter to keep in touch with friends, Mastodon's skew toward conversation over promotion -- at least in the instance I'm on -- has been a goddamn delight, and the mods of my instance have also been pushing hard to make the necessary culture changes that'll lead to a better, more inclusive socmed experience for everyone. I hope people stick around there! I really do!
I also think it helps that my instance skews fannish, but in an ancillary way rather than as its sole focus? Swimming around in MDZS/CQL fandom has been genuinely great the past two and a half years, but I don't think I realized how much I needed a break from being in such a high-intensity (and, tbh, high wank level) fandom. I'm still keeping up with my MDZS/CQL buddies on Mastodon! There's a way to follow hashtags that means I'm still getting plenty of fanart and fic recs in my feed. But it's a much more sedate experience overall.
All that said...
Tumblr: Y'all. Y'ALL. WHEN DID TUMBLR ACTUALLY GET FUN AGAIN. It has such big unhinged Daniel-Radcliffe-in-a-bathrobe-with-two-guns energy, they actually made things like tag filtering native to the app/website, and in the past forty-eight hours everyone invented an entire movie whole-cloth that already has like 200 works on AO3??? I take back all my hatred, this is fantastic. So far I'm only posting on
Dreamwidth: I'm, uh, still being a big baby re: posting here. I'm gonna try to set a goal for myself to comment more on other peoples' posts, though; if I can push myself out of passive reader mode and into feeling like I have more of a community presence, I think it'll help all the weird feelings.
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Nov. 6th, 2022 11:26 amSo... okay. Hi again, Dreamwidth.
I mentioned in passing on Twitter that posting on DW makes me antsy for reasons I can't fully articulate, beyond the simple weight of a twenty-year-old journal account. (First LJ post in 2002! What the fuck, y'all.) No matter how much I lock down or delete, it's still right there -- the amount of baggage is paralyzing sometimes, as is the feeling that I can't just make tiny little shitposts and go about my day like I've done for ages on the birdsite. But Twitter's imploding, people are scattering, and I'm trying to remind myself that the early LJ days were nothing BUT multiple one-line pithy shitposts a day, so, y'know. Maybe it'll be okay.
I set up a Linktree to gather all my new socials in one place, as we all sort of mill around in the lobby of the internet waiting to see which train everybody boards. I joined Cohost (though I'm not planning to post anything else there until the TOS issues![[staff profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user_staff.png)
denise pointed out get addressed), and I'm tentatively pleased by my Mastodon experience so far; I didn't find it as confusing as advertised, and the instance I joined is packed with SFF writers cheerfully shooting the shit and posting pictures of their cats. Obviously Mastodon has its own issues, but overall I wouldn't be displeased if more folks migrated there, tbh.
The only place I'll be actively angry about going is Tumblr. Fuck Tumblr! I swear to god I have Tumblr PTSD from too many years of swimming in The Discourse, and I always hated how hard it was to have conversations there without reblogging the same post over and over.
Meanwhile, out in the real world, life has been... honestly, pretty consistently awful for the entirety of October and now extending into November. Work is imploding so violently that god knows what my office will look like in the next six months, my dad almost died of a heart attack a couple weeks ago, my craft room got literally eaten by moths (though luckily 95% of my bookbinding supplies survived), and I've been fighting with my insurance company over a $1000 medical bill that they swore back in August I wouldn't have to pay. Plus I still have four or five books to bind that I was supposed to finish by Halloween and just... couldn't, in between everything.
Also I turn 38 in a week. Good god.
In conclusion:
I mentioned in passing on Twitter that posting on DW makes me antsy for reasons I can't fully articulate, beyond the simple weight of a twenty-year-old journal account. (First LJ post in 2002! What the fuck, y'all.) No matter how much I lock down or delete, it's still right there -- the amount of baggage is paralyzing sometimes, as is the feeling that I can't just make tiny little shitposts and go about my day like I've done for ages on the birdsite. But Twitter's imploding, people are scattering, and I'm trying to remind myself that the early LJ days were nothing BUT multiple one-line pithy shitposts a day, so, y'know. Maybe it'll be okay.
I set up a Linktree to gather all my new socials in one place, as we all sort of mill around in the lobby of the internet waiting to see which train everybody boards. I joined Cohost (though I'm not planning to post anything else there until the TOS issues
denise pointed out get addressed), and I'm tentatively pleased by my Mastodon experience so far; I didn't find it as confusing as advertised, and the instance I joined is packed with SFF writers cheerfully shooting the shit and posting pictures of their cats. Obviously Mastodon has its own issues, but overall I wouldn't be displeased if more folks migrated there, tbh.The only place I'll be actively angry about going is Tumblr. Fuck Tumblr! I swear to god I have Tumblr PTSD from too many years of swimming in The Discourse, and I always hated how hard it was to have conversations there without reblogging the same post over and over.
Meanwhile, out in the real world, life has been... honestly, pretty consistently awful for the entirety of October and now extending into November. Work is imploding so violently that god knows what my office will look like in the next six months, my dad almost died of a heart attack a couple weeks ago, my craft room got literally eaten by moths (though luckily 95% of my bookbinding supplies survived), and I've been fighting with my insurance company over a $1000 medical bill that they swore back in August I wouldn't have to pay. Plus I still have four or five books to bind that I was supposed to finish by Halloween and just... couldn't, in between everything.
Also I turn 38 in a week. Good god.
In conclusion:
...net raised, freezing every time it looks at me funny, and pouncing to wrestle it into submission when it's got its back turned. (I hope.)
Anyway! WE MADE IT. Like 2020, that's the only achievement I'm bothering to count for 2021, because, I mean... [gestures wildly at the world] Granted, I am really proud of the ficbinding operation I got off the ground, and I made some huge professional strides that were a long time coming, but the longer this pandemic goes on, the more willing I am to shrink my expectations. I don't mean that in a bad way -- more in a cheesy "enjoy life's simple pleasures!" way. Sometimes my biggest achievement can be putting on pants and making a really good cup of coffee. I'm cool with that.
...all that said, I definitely signed up forgetyourwordsout this year. Um.
I'm on the absolute lowest pledge tier -- 75,000 words -- with the hope that between that, and a ridiculous mono-tasker I got off eBay, I'll finally break through the hideous writer's block that's been dogging me for literally seven years. It breaks down to just under 300 words a day, M-F, which... that's doable, right? (Right? Um.) I'm starting with the self-indulgent bullshit I tried to tackle for NaNoWriMo before dropping out all of 200 words in; if that shakes off enough of the dust, then it's on to a streamlined and simplified Eternal WIP where I stop aiming for something Big and Important and THEMATIC and just, y'know. Write the fucking story, instead of getting too deep in my head about it.
I don't know how useful the GYWO Discord will be, sadly, partly because it's really fanfic-heavy while I'm trying to write original stuff, partly because of personal beef I've got with a participant who's all over the server. Which is a shame. (Dear Discord: please improve your blocking features!!) But WHATEVER. Just having check-ins and occasional sprints will be helpful enough! Hopefully I can sustain this + the day job + continuing to take ficbinding commissions without burning myself out.
(Speaking of the day job... uh, positivity rate around here is anywhere from 30% to 70%, depending on whose statistics you're reading, multiple hospitals have gone to "crisis standard of care," this is a gazillion times worse than when they moved us part-time for a chunk of 2020-2021, and yet we are still not back in emergency status yet. So that's cool!! Meanwhile my staycation turned into a quarantine because my sister tested positive right after we had a small family gathering for Christmas -- she had super-mild symptoms, thank god, and I tested negative, but, well. thisisfine.jpg)
Ugh, anyway, on that cheerful note: happy new year, gang. I hope this year is easier for all of us.
Anyway! WE MADE IT. Like 2020, that's the only achievement I'm bothering to count for 2021, because, I mean... [gestures wildly at the world] Granted, I am really proud of the ficbinding operation I got off the ground, and I made some huge professional strides that were a long time coming, but the longer this pandemic goes on, the more willing I am to shrink my expectations. I don't mean that in a bad way -- more in a cheesy "enjoy life's simple pleasures!" way. Sometimes my biggest achievement can be putting on pants and making a really good cup of coffee. I'm cool with that.
...all that said, I definitely signed up for
getyourwordsout this year. Um.I'm on the absolute lowest pledge tier -- 75,000 words -- with the hope that between that, and a ridiculous mono-tasker I got off eBay, I'll finally break through the hideous writer's block that's been dogging me for literally seven years. It breaks down to just under 300 words a day, M-F, which... that's doable, right? (Right? Um.) I'm starting with the self-indulgent bullshit I tried to tackle for NaNoWriMo before dropping out all of 200 words in; if that shakes off enough of the dust, then it's on to a streamlined and simplified Eternal WIP where I stop aiming for something Big and Important and THEMATIC and just, y'know. Write the fucking story, instead of getting too deep in my head about it.
I don't know how useful the GYWO Discord will be, sadly, partly because it's really fanfic-heavy while I'm trying to write original stuff, partly because of personal beef I've got with a participant who's all over the server. Which is a shame. (Dear Discord: please improve your blocking features!!) But WHATEVER. Just having check-ins and occasional sprints will be helpful enough! Hopefully I can sustain this + the day job + continuing to take ficbinding commissions without burning myself out.
(Speaking of the day job... uh, positivity rate around here is anywhere from 30% to 70%, depending on whose statistics you're reading, multiple hospitals have gone to "crisis standard of care," this is a gazillion times worse than when they moved us part-time for a chunk of 2020-2021, and yet we are still not back in emergency status yet. So that's cool!! Meanwhile my staycation turned into a quarantine because my sister tested positive right after we had a small family gathering for Christmas -- she had super-mild symptoms, thank god, and I tested negative, but, well. thisisfine.jpg)
Ugh, anyway, on that cheerful note: happy new year, gang. I hope this year is easier for all of us.
BUT. In the spirit of conquering our fears:
✨ holiday love meme 2021 ✨
my thread here
I'm going through another quiet cycle, fandom-wise; I got a little burned out (as my prior post about The Brain Bees can attest) and still feel slightly crispy around the edges. But -- as always -- I love you all and hope you're doing well. ❤️
my thread here
I'm going through another quiet cycle, fandom-wise; I got a little burned out (as my prior post about The Brain Bees can attest) and still feel slightly crispy around the edges. But -- as always -- I love you all and hope you're doing well. ❤️
bzzzzzzzzzzz
Oct. 27th, 2021 01:02 pmOKAY, SO. In the next few days (I hope, I hope), I'm finally going to get my fanbinding portfolio updated over on Tumblr -- and when I do, I'm also going to fuss with some IFTTT formulas so whatever I post over there will get crossposted here. Things might get weird, or wonky, or spammy for a hot second. If they do, I apologize! Hopefully everything will get settled quickly enough that y'all won't even notice.
Anyway, the past couple months have been... weird? Yeah. Let's go with weird. I used the phrase "buzzing nest of bees" to describe my brain over on Twitter; when I had brunch with![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
walksbyherself last weekend, I mentioned how by pre-pandemic standards, I haven't been that busy, but formerly-normal-busy feels borderline untenable now. This societal re-entrance thing kind of sucks sometimes! I've also been on-and-off sick with things that aren't covid, but have still knocked me out for a week or two at a time. It's all combined to where I want to lay facedown on the floor for about a month, while simultaneously getting on my own case about how c'mon, what have you really done to warrant lying facedown on the floor, I mean really. All while the bees go BZZZZZZZ and swarm over my executive function.
(Remember when I only had to work every other week? And could sleep? And do stuff? Sigh. I'd call it "the good old days" if it wasn't because, y'know, work was trying to keep us all from contracting the goddamn plague.)
Still truckin' along, though! Some days that's the best we can hope for. Love you all; be well. ❤️
Anyway, the past couple months have been... weird? Yeah. Let's go with weird. I used the phrase "buzzing nest of bees" to describe my brain over on Twitter; when I had brunch with
walksbyherself last weekend, I mentioned how by pre-pandemic standards, I haven't been that busy, but formerly-normal-busy feels borderline untenable now. This societal re-entrance thing kind of sucks sometimes! I've also been on-and-off sick with things that aren't covid, but have still knocked me out for a week or two at a time. It's all combined to where I want to lay facedown on the floor for about a month, while simultaneously getting on my own case about how c'mon, what have you really done to warrant lying facedown on the floor, I mean really. All while the bees go BZZZZZZZ and swarm over my executive function.(Remember when I only had to work every other week? And could sleep? And do stuff? Sigh. I'd call it "the good old days" if it wasn't because, y'know, work was trying to keep us all from contracting the goddamn plague.)
Still truckin' along, though! Some days that's the best we can hope for. Love you all; be well. ❤️
If you were curious...
May. 14th, 2021 09:02 pm...yes, it's extremely typical of me to get REALLY EXCITED about something -- say, coming back to Dreamwidth for fandom stuff -- and then just, uh, forget about it for two months at a go. Er.
I mean, part of it is that we're still in a pandemic and I don't have much to talk about? Though honestly, I'm getting a little worried about how my brain will react to the country ~reopening~ over the next couple weeks; I went to an actual restaurant for Mother's Day, for the first time in fifteen months, and even though it was just me + mom + one sibling and SIL, it wrecked me. I came home and slept for three hours. It felt like I'd just spent six days at DragonCon. Like... how did I do this before? Can't I just stay an indoor cat for a while longer? Yikes.
(that said, I am so fucking excited to go to my first weightlifting class since last February pretty soon. even if that will wreck me in a totally different way that may involve crawling up the stairs because my legs don't work anymore. tell my family i love them, clear my browser history, etc etc.)
Anyway! I'm still making books! (Fuck am I proud of how that binding of Tempo Rubato turned out, for real.) And I'm gonna start taking commissions next month! Probably closer to the middle-end of the month, tbh, considering how the current projects are moving, but IT'S HAPPENING. I've done the odd conservation commission here and there over the past twelve years, but never something sustained with a Ko-Fi and everything, so fingers crossed it goes well.
Meanwhile, it's Friday and the delivery guy just showed up with some dandan noodles from the place that's become my go-to since the pandemic started, so time to shove a late dinner in my mouth and go tf to sleep. ❤️
I mean, part of it is that we're still in a pandemic and I don't have much to talk about? Though honestly, I'm getting a little worried about how my brain will react to the country ~reopening~ over the next couple weeks; I went to an actual restaurant for Mother's Day, for the first time in fifteen months, and even though it was just me + mom + one sibling and SIL, it wrecked me. I came home and slept for three hours. It felt like I'd just spent six days at DragonCon. Like... how did I do this before? Can't I just stay an indoor cat for a while longer? Yikes.
(that said, I am so fucking excited to go to my first weightlifting class since last February pretty soon. even if that will wreck me in a totally different way that may involve crawling up the stairs because my legs don't work anymore. tell my family i love them, clear my browser history, etc etc.)
Anyway! I'm still making books! (Fuck am I proud of how that binding of Tempo Rubato turned out, for real.) And I'm gonna start taking commissions next month! Probably closer to the middle-end of the month, tbh, considering how the current projects are moving, but IT'S HAPPENING. I've done the odd conservation commission here and there over the past twelve years, but never something sustained with a Ko-Fi and everything, so fingers crossed it goes well.
Meanwhile, it's Friday and the delivery guy just showed up with some dandan noodles from the place that's become my go-to since the pandemic started, so time to shove a late dinner in my mouth and go tf to sleep. ❤️
intro post!
Mar. 14th, 2021 03:28 pmOh, hey, there are new people here! Hi new people! 😄
I'm Beth, aka Phoenix, aka![[x.com profile]](https://p2.dreamwidth.org/0abf207ab719/-/x.com/favicon.ico)
murderdimples if you came here through CQL twt. I'm a Fandom Old(ish) who -- at least in the past -- has used this journal for a mix of fannish + personal stuff. I'm still trying to figure out what that balance will be like in the future, but yeah, in between a lot of feelings about Wei Wuxian, it's probably safe to say you'll hear about my cat, my gender identity as a newly-hatched nonbinary person, and maybe some roller derby once my league can re-emerge from covid hibernation. I'm also big into storytelling in general, and I love messing around with tarot decks as a way to explore the stories we tell both ourselves and others.
(God help me, both Wandavision and The Falcon and the Winter Soldier mean you might eventually get some yelling about the MCU, too. Just when I think I'm out, etc etc etc.)
I also bind fanfic books! It's a fairly new endeavor, even though I've worked with books in some fashion or another for over a decade, but I've got the beginnings of a portfolio atexcineribusbooks and plan to start offering commissions later this year. I'M SO EXCITED.
Anyway, good to see y'all's faces. Hope you're having a lovely day. ❤️
I'm Beth, aka Phoenix, aka
(God help me, both Wandavision and The Falcon and the Winter Soldier mean you might eventually get some yelling about the MCU, too. Just when I think I'm out, etc etc etc.)
I also bind fanfic books! It's a fairly new endeavor, even though I've worked with books in some fashion or another for over a decade, but I've got the beginnings of a portfolio at
Anyway, good to see y'all's faces. Hope you're having a lovely day. ❤️
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May. 7th, 2019 03:06 pmSo, uh...hey. New username, who dis, I guess?
I'm trying to consolidate the pseudonym I use for all my fannish activities; I also picked my former username literally half a lifetime ago, when I was seventeen, and to say it's time for something new is A BIT OF AN UNDERSTATEMENT. So. Yes! Same name as my fannish Twitter now and the same name I've been using for fanfic for a good while, too.
IOU: one post about Endgame, which I deeply deeply loved and made me cry buckets, but is also a movie I saw about twenty-four hours before slicing open my left index finger with some gardening shears, which has made typing a bit of a pain (figurative and literal) for a week and a half. I'm out of the comically large splint, though, and the stitches come out tomorrow, so brace yourself for a lot of big personal feelings about the end of the current MCU cycle.
Oh, yeah, and I bought a house about a month ago? So that also happened. Pretty sweet.
Hope y'all are doing well. ❤️
I'm trying to consolidate the pseudonym I use for all my fannish activities; I also picked my former username literally half a lifetime ago, when I was seventeen, and to say it's time for something new is A BIT OF AN UNDERSTATEMENT. So. Yes! Same name as my fannish Twitter now and the same name I've been using for fanfic for a good while, too.
IOU: one post about Endgame, which I deeply deeply loved and made me cry buckets, but is also a movie I saw about twenty-four hours before slicing open my left index finger with some gardening shears, which has made typing a bit of a pain (figurative and literal) for a week and a half. I'm out of the comically large splint, though, and the stitches come out tomorrow, so brace yourself for a lot of big personal feelings about the end of the current MCU cycle.
Oh, yeah, and I bought a house about a month ago? So that also happened. Pretty sweet.
Hope y'all are doing well. ❤️
