More Colorful Than I Know

I'm such a dork sometimes. I managed to cut my finger while opening a box of staples.

Got some new clothes this weekend. Whee! It's such a pain in the butt to find a bra that fits. 44C if anybody wants to know. lol

I'm surprised it took me this long to realize it, but I...don't have any hobbies. I really don't. I've got nothing between school and work. I'm a sad, sad girl. :(
Hobbies I've considered:
-Yoga on a regular basis. I really can't focus that well.
-Sewing
-Knitting
-Hiking. I've tried to find someone to go with me, but haven't found anyone yet. There is a hiking club in the area, though...
-Biking. Same problem with hiking. Oh, and I need to buy a bike.

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As of right now, I'm banning myself from LiveJournal and Facebook. The problem is that I haven't been getting anything done these past two weeks. Among other reasons, I'm a huge procrastinator and I procrastinate very happily with LJ. The other reasons include severe anxiety and, I'm beginning to think, depression. I also get overwhelmed very easily if I have too much to do. I can't really bring myself to do much these days. I know an improvement with my diet would help. I need to get more iron in my diet and I need to eat more protein. Also, I need more B12, as I've been a vegetarian for the past three years and haven't gotten much B12 at all. I'm going to take a multi-vitamin every day and eat better. Hopefully, I'll start feeling better. Exercise would help as well. I've just been so tired lately, I haven't felt like exercising.

I need to find more productive uses of my time and so, for now, I'm banning myself from LiveJournal. If you need to contact me, comment on this entry. I'll still check e-mail every day and I have e-mail notifications turned on. You can also e-mail me directly or call me. 

Dear Body,

What has been going on with you lately? Okay, yes, I know I don't eat breakfast. But I eat lunch and dinner and a snack or two in between. Why do you get shaky and weak after not eating for more than three or four hours? I get the impression from other people that this is not normal. Also, I eat protein and a little sugar and then sometimes you get shaky and weak just an hour later. I don't get it, body. I know I treat you like crap sometimes. I should take you to the doctor. I really should. However, insurance is really touchy about tests and pre-existing conditions. At least I have insurance. I should just use what I can and then pay the rest (if there is any) on a credit card. Body, is it the Lexapro or the birth control? I know both are relatively new, but both of these pills are supposed to help, not hurt.

I'm working on eating breakfast starting on Monday. Hopefully, that should help some.

Much love,

Sara's Bewildered Brain

Would this ad be a problem if the models were lesbians in bikinis? I think not.

GM forces YouTube to yank gay Camaro ad
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Oh, I forgot about another book that I got just today. It's called Rapture Ready: Adventures in the Parallel Universe of Christian Pop Culture by Daniel Radosh. I couldn't make it through the documentary "Jesus Camp" without wanting to throw something at the tv, so this book should be interesting.

Before you think all of my money go towards books...the library is my best friend and I have access to interlibrary loan books, so YAY! :) The last book I bought at Borders was Spiritual Midwifery by Ina May...Gaskin! Complete impulse buy a few months ago. Bad, bad...but such a good book.

I know I haven't posted in a while, but I feel like there's nothing to post. I got through my first graduate school class alive and well. It was my first online class and I kind of liked it that way. There's nothing like doing homework in your pajamas! Not to say that I did homework in the morning, more late at night with the cats sitting on the exact piece of paper I needed when they had half a desk to lounge on. Silly cats!

I feel like my LJ should be about something. madwriter  has his writing and his hikes. crickets  has her fic and videos. I haven't written any fic in a very long time. My muse has left me on a permanent basis and I have acccepted that fact. I thought about chronicling my weight loss, but that's going to be a very slow process. I have taken two dance classes so far. Me and my two left feet didn't have such a bad time. I do like those websites where people post daily pictures of their lives or what they wear. I should pull my ancient (but lovely) digital camera out of hiding and take some pictures. Requests, anyone?

I could talk about the books I read. I'm currently making my way through Street Gang: The Complete History of Sesame Street by Michael Davis. There is a lot of detail in every chapter, so the going is very slow. The book covers all of the creators of Sesame Street and their backgrounds. Saturday night, I blew through It Sucked and Then I Cried: How I Had a Baby, a Breakdown, and a Much Needed Margarita by Heather B. Armstrong, the creator of the website www.dooce.com C showed me some of the baby pictures on her websites and...so freaking adorably cute. The book is a fast read and includes a lot about boobs and baby poop and all those fun things associated with a newborn baby. I also started The Midwife by Jennifer Worth. It took me a little while to get into it, but I love reading about birth stories, so I think I'm going to keep reading it. The other book I started is Quiverfull: Inside the Christian Patriarchy Movement by Kathryn Joyce. It's a little wordy so far, but I'm curious about the Quiverfull movement so I'll keep reading. I have Heart and Hands: a Midwife's Guide to Pregnancy and Birth by Elizabeth Davis. I flipped through it and it looks good, so I'll try to find time to read that, too.

On another note, I'm rediscovering my love for Boston Legal. I freaking love that show. Denny and Alan are so funny together. I’m also watching the sixth season of The L Word. I know it’s mindless fluff, but I keep watching it because I like Shane and Max and a few other characters.

Can I just say that I love David Hyde Pierce? What a lovely man.

Here's a clip of him on The View talking about his anger over Prop 8:

So...good things have been happening in my life...

1. I'm Getting Married in Eight Days!!!! Yeah, you read that right. I'm getting a little excited and kind of terrified at the whole prospect of being married. C and I moved in together last week and it's going pretty well so far. The cats are past their freak-out stage and are warming up to their "daddy".

2. I Got into Graduate School!!!! It's a distance-ed program for library science. Wheeeeee. I just hope I can be a better student now than I was back in college.

3. I Got an Interview for the Position I Applied for!!!! I'm freaking out slightly over it. The interview is set for next Friday afternoon. It's been a while since I've gone on a interview. I'm trying to find appropriate clothes to wear and am researching the library in question. Does anyone have any advice on interviewing for a job?

• 13:46 Whose bright idea was it to put the library right next to the student field? It's like trying to do homework in Wal-Mart with the music. #

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Where do you get your birth control? If your partner is on birth control, where does she get it from?

I ask because I absolutely need to be on birth control and at the start of May by the very latest. I don't have health insurance and no money to get on a health insurance plan until I get married in May. I want to get started on the pill this month so that my body has time to adjust to it and in case I have any side effects.

So, with no insurance, I have two options. One option is go to the city health department. I've gone there and asked what I should do. Their answer: They only do exams and dole out birth control two Wednesdays a month. I have to be there at 8am and they only take the first two people in line. I'm not going to take the morning off from work and then maybe not be able to get what I need.

The second option is Planned Parenthood. I love that Planned Parenthood is around, but there's not a clinic where I live. I have to drive an hour each way to get to it. Luckily, once I get the exam and the pills, I can refill my presciption online and have the pills mailed to me. The exam and the pills together are $90. Okay, I admit, that's not bad. I just wish I had $90 this week. Maybe next week. Maybe. I can also just get a consultation and the pills without an exam and that's $45. I can swing that this week. The problem is I haven't had an exam since 2001.

I'm thinking of waiting a week and trying to get the money together next week. I could also just get the pills this week and wait until May to get the exam on my husband's insurance.

Does the U.S. suck with women's healthcare and birth control or am I completely off-base?

(I'm just lucky I'm relatively healthy!)