OK! So I got to work at 5:45 in the morning, tired and crap. Found out someone died, sad. I go into the med-room... find out I'm the only one in the med-room with the trainee. So I'm looking around in the drawers and Jennifer comes in, totally disgusting girl. I don't know why Mitch hired her, he doesn't even know... WELL she comes in and closes the med-room door, she's facing me and says "I don't want to scare you but..." and she puts her hand down her pants, the front of her pants and scratches. I didn't know what the hell to do. I got wide-eyed and did an awkward smile... and she pulls it out and says "Don't report me" and chuckles. Tammy (the trainee) knocks on the door and Jennifer yells "Just a minute I've got to wash my hands" The administrator and assistant admin arrived at work at 8... but I was waiting to tell Mitch about it. Finally at 10 I couldn't stand to hold it back from them so I went to the assistant admin. and told her about it and all the other weird/nasty shit she does. SO now they're going to talk to her about her hygiene and she's gonna know i said something... but that is pretty f-ing nasty. I don't care if she scratched through her panties, if she can do that she can do it through her pants. SHe can go the bathroom if she needs to scratch her f-ed up cootchie. I bet they talked to her about other crap I've said before that's why she told me not to report it. Because she walked around the med-room with her nasty-ass bare feet. She changed in the break room and she is disgusting. ANYWAYS. I'm leaving.
I was going to type somethin up on here yesterday but I don't freakin remember what. I'm getting tired of everyone at work getting wide-eyed when I swear. Not the damn oldies, the people I work with. Everyone on swing is used to it, but now on days... and they all know my mom and crap and have only seen me with my mom so I guess that's why they think that. Anyways, I'm working dasy shift now. It's 6-2:30. The other day I woke up at 5:45... I was so excited when I woke up because I thought I woke up before my alarm clock, which was set for 4:30am and I turend the light on and flipped out. I just threw my shirt and pants on, ran to the bathroom and grabbed my toothbrush and sucked toothpaste out of the tube, slipped some shoes on (without socks) and tried to stay at 90 the whole time I was driving. I got there on time! Then when I got there, the girl working before me offered her socks to me. It was so gross. Who the hell would offer they're sweaty socks to someone? And her feet are nasty. I'm not tired. I took a nap after work because I had a bad day, but I don't want to talk about it. ANyways. I'm leaving. I want to go shopping tomorrow.
Jeremiah and I went to shopko today and this dumb girl was our cashier. I gave her my credit card and you can't see the signature but I figured she'd be one of the ones that didn't check the signature because, she looked like she was a dumbass lol. ANYWAYS so she looks at the back of my card and asks if she can see my id, SO I pull it out and show it to her... she looks at it and says I have to see your signature... WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO SEE MY SIGNATURE AND COMPARE IT WITH MY ID CARD, THERE'S A PICTURE ON IT. So I was ilke, there's my name right there... there's my name on my credit card... and she was like "ok." And it's not like I changed so much that she can't tell it's me in the picture. Oh man, anyways....
Soooo. I was caregiver yesterday and today. I get to work and find out it's only me and Norma who is 73 or something on the floor for awhile. Wasn't too bad. I was stressed out and then they bring in some new girl who doesn't know what to do. That was yesterday. Today I get to work and it's me and Norma until 4. Dinner starts at 5 everything has to be done by 4:30 in order for everything to go smoothly and stuff. We didn't get anything done. We were running around at 5:15, trying to get people to dinner because we were so late. I felt really stressed out, hadn't really eatten all day. I felt dizzy so I thought my cbg was low so I drink lots of orange juice. I made it through dinner. THEN I go to take someone home, I finally got a chance to stop running around and I just fell over. I fell over infront of everyone. I could hear people yelling "Maria is on the floor... no that's Vanessa. Chia! Chia's on the floor?" It was weird. I heard someone yelling "stay still Vanessa..." so I just start crying and saying I'm fine. I got up and Chia takes me away and she stares right in my eyes and says "Vanessa don't tell me you're pregnant" I sat for awhile and everything was alright I guess. I mean I still felt shaky but my cbg was fine so I didn't think anything was wrong. Then an hour later I'm helpin some lady get undressed for a shower and I go to turn on the water in her shower. I just remember standing there looking at a pole and I fell over. I was all wet and then they sent me home... it was a pretty good day.
I got a car! Woohoo. A pretty new beetle. I used to cut pictures of them and put them on my shit. Now I have my own! Woohoo. It's blue.
And the crap on my key chain matches it. It's like my key chain and
that car were meant to be. Anyways...Today wasn't a good day at work.
It was fine until my 8pm pass. Everything goes fine until the 8pm f-ing
pass. I should just go home after I pass my fives and come back for the
10s. Anyways. I'm leaving. I'm gonna put pictures on here sometime.
BYE.
OK! So yesterday... my family returned the dog and got another one. this one is fun but I think it's ugly... but it's fun... The thing I don't like is it's hair and I took it to the groomers today (bad idea... waste of money should have done it myself or went to f-ing petsmart because they do more than just wash my damn dog and for less than $30... BUT OH WELL... Oh yeah..) and she said that her hair is just dry becuase the family that had it before probably fed her grocery store dog food so we have to wait awhile for the dogs hair to get better and run olive oil on it and shit. Um oh yeah so I worked a 14 hour shift yesterday 2-4am. FUN times. And then I came home and my mom was awake and we talked for a while so I went to bed at like 5:15 and woke up at 8 and went to the dentist. So I got LOTS of sleep haha... and now I have to go back to f-ing work. I'm not tired though. I will get tired in awhile I bet but I'm not right now. We got another bird... the other one flew away. ummm... that's pretty much it. WELL BYE.
My Royaline passed away this morning.
Cassandra called me at 7:30 to tell me... and I think she probably
passed away earlier than that... I don't know why she couldn't wait
until like 8 to at least call me, why 7:30? Becasue she gets on at like
6:30 but it's nice of her to call me to tell me... I can't sleep
anymore though.
Oh well.
I thought I'd cry a little bit when I found out but I just can't
because the last week she was just suffering and she'd keep saying bye
so I don't know. I'm happy for her and for her family. No more pain.
Two of her three kids would stay there every night and I felt so bad
for them and the other one never came down. Now they can have peace.
I hope that I can go to the funeral because I missed Alice's. I'm so
glad I went to Wilda's though.
I hope that's the end of the dying for now... and it'll be a couple
more months till we have people go.
I'll never forget the time I was having a bad day, I went to Royaline's
room and told her and she told me to lay in her bed by her so I did...
and then she told me to put my head on her shoulder and close my eyes
for awhile. And the one time when Jeremiah called me and she told me to
pick up my phone and I gave it to her. "Hello, boyfriend..."
Wow. I'm going through my journal. It's so hard to believe I've been
working at that damn place for just 7 months... it looks so little on
the calendar but it feels like a long time. ANYWAYS. Just looking for
stuff about Roy that I wrote becuase I wrote about her a lot. I sort of
feel like I'm not supposed to be that sad becuase I only knew her for 7
months and some of them have known her for along while... you
know? But I know that that's stupid..
.
SO I went in to work for Becky today. So this lady comes in to talk to me about her sisters son... He's a big druggy/drunk guy. Was banned from the place but I guess it was okay for him to come in and crap now. WELL he called his mom today and was swearing saying he was going to burn his old house down and crap. A year ago he came in there and was pissed about something his mom had nothing to do with and held a knife to her throat (that's why he wasn't allowed in the building, but since we have new head hanchos they didn't know...) SO YEAH... he calls her, she's not home and he leaves this long message. So sis comes down and says if he comes over, we have to call the cops. We locked her doors and I didn't really think much of it. I didn't think he'd come over. So around 7:30 he comes strolling in with flowers he picked from a garden. I just left her room and locked the door and he walks by and says "hey pretty thing" and I didn't know what to do. He always looks drunk/high to me so I couldn't tell if he was and if I should call the cops or not and I was scared as hell but I went to Loree and she just walked back to the med-room with me and we closed the door. I thought he might come over and try to make me open her door. While we're in there he's banging on mom's door and I talk to the operator and she knew who the hell he was and crap. SO mom let him in becuase she didn't want him to make a big scene and was calm with him and crap. They ended up taking him to jail... like an hour later. I came out when he was in the car before the cops left and he started banging his head on the window and calling me a bitch and stuff and said yelling he was going to kill me. I have a feeling he doesn't have a crush on me anymore... anyways. It was scary. And I have hives. I keep getting them... don't know why. HM.
Pay day tomorrow YAY! Had another good day, I don't get it... Talked a shit load... and slacked off... but got everything popped ontime. I don't like having a bunch of good days, like really good days becuase I know something bad is going to happen to ruin everything. And it could be some mild thing but since it happens after really good days it just seems really bad and it'll drag me down. It's weird that these good days are happening while I'm on my period... damn eve. BUT I love my period too sometimes I lay in bed and pray it comes on time because if it doesn't I'd shoot myself in the face. ANYWAYS. I'm scared for tomorrow. Med-aide meeting tomorrow. blah :( BUT PAY DAY! Woohoo. And then my weekend on Saturday and Sunday! Oh man, so tomorrow I think Loree is going to talk to this guy that keeps hitting on me and tell him to stop or something. I've been trying to avoid him and crap but he's a cook and I have to go into the kitchen to get stuff and he won't leave me the hell alone. So I finally told Loree about it and she said she's going to talk to him and tell him to leave me the hell alone. maybe that will be the bad thing.. maybe he'll spit in my food after that or soemthing. I really hate men now... well not all of them. Guys that don't like me I like well and Jeremiah... I hope he doesn't fit into the category of not liking me but yeah. I hate men that hit on me there... that's good. Or really really good looking men, that know they're good-looking, I hate them becuase they think they're all that and shit...piss me off. And ugly guys that think they're all that yeah I hate them too. WELL I pretty much hate people so I guess that's the end of this lol. Osdlfkgjdflkhjraetklh kill me. not really... not yet anyways. WELL GOOD NIGHT.
I'm mad. I ordered some books online, knitting books. I want to make an afghan but I'm looking at yarn. Why the hell is yarn so f-ing expensive. I don't want to use stupid acrylic yarn for my nice afghans. It'd cost me less if some fuckhole made a million and sold them. Pisses me off. I want to make my own though... WELL if I want my own I can either make it yucky and spend little money and a crap load of time, or make it nice and soft and spend a shit load of time becuase I don't want to mess ANYTHING up. I should practice a lot before I make one. hm hm hm. WELL BYE.
