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Well I went and picked up my bridesmaid dresses today, that was exciting. All of this stuff for the wedding is exciting. Prince Char is sick today though so I've been trying to take care of him but I haven't done much of anything. Right now he's sleeping so hopefully he sleeps all night and feels better in the morning. I am close to finished with all of our Christmas shopping, I hope everyone likes what we get them this year. For my friends I think I'm going real simple this year, I did on everyone else, so I feel so cheap but I just don't have the money right now. I just realized how weird it is for me to be awake and Prince Char be sleeping usually it is the other way around. I really miss my friends, mainly Paige and Alicia and even Ron. Also even though I'm not that close to them Majesta, Erica, Amber, and Amanda. So I will have to see if Paige, Alicia, and I can get together and do something soon. I haven't spent time with anyone in soooo looonnnggg.......... :( Well I'm supposed to take my GED tomorrow but looks like that might have to wait until next month because the lady didn't tell where to take it and I can't get ahold of her, so yeah....Enough complaining for now, I will post sooner or later.

Well I officially am done with highschool as of today! I get my GED next Wednesday at least I take the test. This will be a short post. Prince Char is at work and I'm just waiting for him to get home. The best part of my day so far has been when I was talking to my friend Alicia, and before and after that my day has went down hill. I don't know where I'm going right now or how I got here....

Finally!!!!!!!!! Prince Char and I have pretty much decided on our wedding location. We will be going to check out the place soon, tomorrow I have to call and make an appointment! I'm so excited right now! And a lot of the thanks goes to my soon to be sister in law, well it's Prince Char's brothers wife. Anyways talk to you all later just had to get out my excitement. Man a major load has been lifted off my chest!

Well work wasn't too bad today. The time goes by rather quickly so that helps. Although I wasn't looking forward to coming home today because it's another night by myself. At least Prince Char has a life right. He's playing games at his step-brothers house, which I dont' mind I don't want it to sound like I do, I'm glad he gets out of the house and has fun with his guy friends. No I came home took a shower and waxed my eyebrows, yay!!! Not really but ya know. I started to watch a movie but my head is aching so I think after I finish this entry I'm laying down and going to sleep. The first thing I did when I got home was defeat the next level of Mario Bros.. Yes, I shame all female kind, Prince Char has turned me into a mini game geek which with some practice and more experience I will be a complete and total geek. oh well. I'm excited last night we found out STAR WARS EPISODE III REVENGE OF THE SITH, comes out on video on NOVEMBER 1ST2005!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was such a good movie I loved it! And a bonus with that movie is Hayden Christenson is quite Hott. But ssshhh certain others must not know I think that..... Well I will end my entry with that note....

Well my day went quite well, even though like I said earlier I was wasting it away. When Prince Char came home we sat on the couch together for awhile that was nice it felt like we hadn't cuddled like that in awhile. Then my mom offered to fund a night out for us so we took her up on her offer and went and ate at pizza hut. Then we just walked around the mall, Wal-Mart, and Target. While at Target we had to dash out to the car thinking I'd lost a lot of money but hoping I left it in the car, which I did, Thank-you God. I looked at Bibles in some stores tonight, I don't knwo what I'm looking for in a Bible, guess I'll know when I find it. The next place my search will continue is online somewhere. Anyways I nagged on him about my ring again, I feel bad and it's not his fault I don't have it yet. I don't know why i bother him about it, it's not quite as important as I make it out to be. When I make a big deal about it, it's just because I'm being selfish and I hate that. I'm so sorry I even bring it up at anytime, I guess it's like all good things come in time kind of thing. Prince Char moved the last to aquariums to their knew location and we filled them up with water. So now all three are by our bed and we can hear my frogs at night if we listen. I love those frogs. And of course I love Prince Char. I miss my friend Lance, he just went to college like a day ago and I miss him. I didn't really hang out with him this summer and he and I aren't as close of friends as we were when we worked together but it's because we didn't get any time to spend together. I could never hang out with him with out my friend Paige which is his girlfriend. They come in a pair kind of deal. And then when Leash comes with the three of us we have a lot of fun. I really want to make sure my last year of school I get the friends I want as close to me as possible so we don't ever lose contact. Anyways it's about my bedtime I have to work tomorrow, not excited about it!

Well I have the day off of school and work today fortunately. But it's almost 2:30 and I have nothing productive completed to show for it. Prince Char gets out of work at 3 so he'll be home around 3:30, so that's cool. We will probably clean when he gets home. Our room\mini-apartment isn't that dirty it's more unorganized. We put a floor over what was an open view to downstairs and it's like an extra room. But we need to get the organizing and rearranging finsihed because his friend Gabe is coming up and will be staying with us for a night. Yeah and I've been sleeping for like the past 2 hours or so because I have a killer headache. Plus I have all of the stuff to look at for the wedding I could just die. So I should probably be doing that other than complaing on here but oh well. I'm depressed that I have to go back to work tomorrow, not only because I have to work for the next 3 days and Prince Char doesn't but because as much as I like this job, I dont' want it anymore. I am only keeping it to help for the wedding and help my parents. That's all for now maybe I'll come complain some more in a little bit.

Well I have finally got one of my friends to get a lj so I know Prince Char isn't the only one reading mine. My best friend since 2nd grade,(talk about going through pretty much everything with me) she's been there for me. Even though she didn't know what to do or say on somethings she still was there. We've had our fights and our laughs and still love each other. Anyways, this won't be a particularly long post even though I definitely have the time. Prince Char went to his cousins to work on his story which is cool. But I'm bored and lonely. I miss him a lot today so a couple of hours seems so short. Oh well.... I will probably do wedding research or watch tv maybe both. I'll post again...

This will be a quick entry and long overdue as usual. I started my senior year two days ago. Part of me is so excited because it's my last year, but when I went back the other part of me realized how much I am going to miss some of those people. Regardless I'm more excited than anything because when school's done, Prince Char and I are getting married! It's weird how much one person can mean to you. Naturally you are born with a love for your parents and family, that love doesn't amaze me. My love for my friends doesn't either it's seems normal as well. But my love for Prince Char is so great sometimes overwhelming. We realized how fast our relationship progressed, and neither of us knew we were ready for a relationship like this, but we quickly discovered that we were although we hid in denial about it for some time. (In my opinion anyways. Not a time but for some time.) We are working on our relationship with God as well, we need to work harder to be honest. There's a lot of things we need and want to do and we both really want to become closer with God. I know we will and as long as we work harder than we have been we will succeed. Prince Char has given me so many things. He's given me hope, will, sight, new wonderful people in my life and most of all happiness and a better relationship with God. I love how he answers my questions and always is there for me. I know in previous entries I've probably said much to the same thing I'm saying now. But at least whoever reads my entries will know I still feel the same. Prince Char is working more on his story, I'm so proud of him and have such faith in his ability to do all that he wants to do, he just needs the time and lately he's been making more time to do it. I on the other hand have no clue what I'm actually doing right now. I know I'm going to school and working. Other than that everything is frazzled. I'm trying to plan our wedding and I cannot find or decide on a location. It's so frustrating! I know in the end it'll all work out and that adds a lot of comfort to my mind and stress level. I do and I don't care at the same time where or what it looks like because I'm happy to be marrying someone I love so much and someone I know loves me. Anyways I need to get ready to go!

After posting yesterday my day kind of went down the pooper for the most part. I had my plans almost demolished but, luckily Prince Char was there as always. He was and is as am I (wow that ones getting confusing) upset. But even when I am trying to be strong and not seem weak I can't around him. He sees right through everything and I try to hold in tears as long as possible because I know he hates seeing girls cry because it's like a knife in the chest, and I don't want to ever hurt him in anyway. But after he left last night it was worse but better. Worse because he wasn't here with me and I miss him like you wouldn't believe. Better because my father gave me the least little bit of hope. I still couldn't sleep and probably won't for awhile, at least not a lot and not peacefully.
I'm happy after texting him and him texting me back all day. And then he called me this morning I was supposed to call him. But I was waiting for when I thought he'd be on his way to work and he beat me to it. Whenever I hear my customized tone for when he calls me I get so excited! So he has definitely put me in a better mood and made me feel better today! :) So to my Prince Char: I Love You!
I must say I am proud of myself for posting 3 times in this last week. That's quite the accomplishment for me.
Anyways, I will talk about my day so far. At my medical careers class, we are going out on what we call work experience at the hospital, which is just job shadowing. And on the floor that my classmate Kellie and I are on together we are basically unwanted slaves. The nursing aides despise because we are students and are far from eager to educate us or let us learn in anyway. They think we are only good for doing the jobs they dread doing. But lately they have been doing all their work before we get there and then they send us away, which we are supposed to stay up there but we leave anyways. So yesterday and today Kellie and I sat in the cafeteria and today we were smart and brought money for food. I had Jello (Yum, yum) and a trail mix. Then I also got a ring in the gift shop, that says Prince Char's middle name on it, but that's what he goes by so it works for me. Then I had McDonalds for lunch, Oh Boy I need to start working out. And my last to classes we watched movies. So my day has been so easy. And then getting to talk to Prince Char, I love it!
And as usual I was serenading myself in my car on the way home. It's a scary thing, because I am a horrible singer....Lol... But I enjoy it. Today it was to Incubus, which I am listening to right now. Alright I am going to go do something probably not productive but ah well. I get to see Prince Char in like 4 hours so that's all I care about.

So far today hasn't been too bad for me. Just my usual missing Prince Char, and dealing with people at school. It makes me sad when I see the people around me and how they are so lost. I once again am certainly not the best example of a Christian but I am saved and I am trying to live day to day as the Lord would want me to. I do sin and do things I shouldn't, I won't deny that. But I'm more found so to speak than my friends at school whom half of them aren't sure about God and if he really exists. They have fallen victim to the belief and I put that purposely, BELIEF of evolution. Oh how I would love to hand out Kent Hovind DVDS by the packs to them or kegs( that was for a certain someone's amusement). Today for instance like 4 girls on the TBA bus, proved their misinterpretation of God and being a Christian as well as going to heaven, to me anyways. I just hope and pray they find their way to God. Once again I'm not looking down on anyone by any means, because I dont' set as good as examples as I should or could for that matter. Well that's all I have to say for now I was just quickly posting because I was replying to a comment.