listening log:
♪ d( - ﻌ - )b ♫
august 18 2026:
cooking mackerel for dinner tonight
and tending to fresh and sad heart
i leave for NYC on friday
august 10 2026:
tonight’s my last night with lakeside studio :(
the last week and a half has been writing wherever i can… in whatever pocket i can find… on the lake and across the water on the island where i grew up
currently i’m restructuring and rebuilding process, and looking for new angles into sound generation
i recorded tiny sounds of barnacles and interference from the radio tower and the hum of a hornet’s nest
i guess i’m finally tiptoeing into the cold water shock of writing my album, tbh i’ve been putting off because i’ve felt scared. but now it’s just happening!!!!!!
i’m back to my day job this week but then leaving for a tiny east coast tour at the end of the month! playing in NYC and then for the first time ever in philly * _ * i’m excited to travel and see friends and share music w people
there’s a lot more to say but i can’t say it right now. i turn 27 this month and all i want is to go to the skrillex concert……
july 24 2026:
ate cake and now my stomach hurts while i’m listening to maurizio - m5 12" i just bought -……-
may 6 2026:
hiiiii
it’s been a while since i posted here at all. sorry! i started a new job and life got busy…
i’m cooking a korean pancake right now and texting my friend archie. she’s a clothing designer and makes some of the coolest and most beautiful clothes i have ever seen before… i know and understand nothing about what she does / how she does it so it’s just magic to me.
i have to be up at like 6:30 for work tomorrow -……- and it’s currently 25 min past midnight. i’ve just been in the weirdest mood today, like i’m not actually alive or something. what going back to work after a beautiful weekend will do to a girl…
i was on vashon yesterday with friends and we swam in the lagoon. we found lots of starfish and crabs and sand dollars and even a sea urchin. it was a really beautiful day
i’m preparing for a concert on the 15 and feeling so stressed… my first solo piano performance i’ve ever done. finishing songs makes me go crazy. it will be okay
this is my spring playlist right now:
⭐︎ yuri umemoto - friday
⭐︎ rihanna - get it over with
⭐︎ ralph tresvant - sensitivity (extended version)
⭐︎ ricky lee jones - flying cowboys
⭐︎ the style council - long hot summer (extended full 12" version)
⭐︎ the-dream - bring that body […side note OMG new dream project this year has me * . *]
⭐︎ salyu - valon-1
⭐︎ gold in the shade - over you
⭐︎ lucinda williams - something about what happens when we talk
⭐︎ prince - when we’re dancing close and slow
⭐︎ chuquimamni-condori - thought of you E DJ edit
⭐︎ asia cruise - boyfriend
⭐︎ yuri umemoto - wednesday
⭐︎ bloodz boi & jackzebra - whisper
⭐︎ off peak - baby it’s you
⭐︎ noriko tujiko - bosom
⭐︎ alex isley - into orbit
⭐︎ future - when i think about it
⭐︎ salyu - nijino saki
⭐︎ blessed and blushing - may i have your attention please
⭐︎ gud - key out n the moon
⭐︎ lili boulanger - d'un vieux jardin
okay, talk to you again soon~
february 10 2026:
new best song ever??????
february 9 2026:
owwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
today i cooked potatoes and salmon and listened to yuri umemoto and saw my mother and bought aquaphor and thought about my album some and cried on the couch. and all of a sudden feel so LAME. why………… i know why *sigh*
but my nails are perfect today~
february 3 2026:
to-do list today:
✖︎ laundry
✖︎ paint nails
✖︎ reply to texts
✖︎ pay rent
✖︎ buy gloves for dishwashing
✖︎ play piano
february 2 2026:
frank and wurlitzer ❤️
february 1 2026:
january 28 2026:
#usva
january 26 2026:
albums that are bringing me comfort right now
david sylvian, ai aso, derek bailey, joshua chuquimia crampton, fennesz, nicolas bernier, kago
january 25 2026:
cate and ceci at the marsh today
atsushi fukui
january 24 2026:
i am so horrified with what is happening in this country right now.
i don’t even know what to say… the violence that emanates from this place is eternal and feels never-ending. sometimes it seems like all we know how to do. it’s so awful. it’s literal hooded nazi specters haunting the streets and carrying out acts of such deep evil and useless, hateful pain in the name of fear and security.
i have this deep-seated feeling that we are being observed (by what exactly… i am unsure) and judged, and disappointing so deeply whoever or whatever it is that is watching us.
i return to this feeling whenever there’s a new murder, or execution, or bombing… the shame of all of this hatred and bloodshed and violence will live with our species for as long as we exist, and likely beyond that too :(
january 22 2026:
i went to the dentist today
january 20 2026:
paddy mcaloon
does anyone else feel life getting faster and faster? it seems like every day… i’m constantly losing my balance and just slowly tripping over my own feet into a somersault into the next day. i don’t know what it takes to find one’s balance… when things are so chaotic all the time! does it ever get better, or at least easier? it doesn’t make sense…… esp not at 5:48AM -_- goodnight
january 19 2026:
feel like a seashell today
jiji ❤️
january 7 2026:
2026 !!!
let’s get this year guys ❤️
i burnt my tongue this morning on my coffee…
should i start posting here more?
i ❤️ you!
december 31 2025:
it’s the last day of 2025. it was a very painful, brutal year. somehow still filled with a lot of beauty. i remain grateful and blessed to be surrounded by such loving & beautiful friends and family. if you’re reading this ~ i wish you the best in the new year ❤️ even to my opps. may we all grow and learn from our mistakes. i’m reposting my 2025 favorites tonight to close out the year.
these are my top releases of 2025, arranged in no particular order. i will likely be adding titles as i work my way through my backlog in the next few months. despite the large list here, i have an even larger list of music from this year that i haven’t had the time to get to yet! 2025 felt like a very powerful year for new music, a nonstop barrage really…
albums:
○ erika de casier - lifetime ○
○ arthur russell - open vocal phrases where songs come in and out ○
○ u.e. - hometown girl ○
○ bambinodj - silent dispatch ○
○ papo2oo4 & subjxct 5 - papaholic, vol. 1 ○
○ instupendo & ripsquad - ripstupendo ○
○ YT - oi! ○
○ kelela - in the blue light ○
○ skrillex - fuck u skrillex you think you’re andy warhol but ur not!! <3 ○
○ baba stiltz & okay kaya - blurb ○
○ chuquimamani-condori & joshua chuquimia crampton - los thuthanaka ○
○ chuquimamani-condori - edits ○
○ easygoingtech - easygoingtech ○
○ dorothy carlos - ear world ○
○ addison rae - addison ○
○ andré 3000 - 7 piano sketches ○
○ adrianne lenker - live at revolution hall ○
○ mark ernestus ndagga rhythm force - khadim ○
○ 7038634357 - waterfall horizon ○
○ djrum - under tangled silence ○
○ mammo - general patterns ○
○ dan english - sky record ○
○ louis philippe & the night mail - the road to the sea ○
○ alex G - headlights ○
○ jim legxacy - black british music ○
○ worldpeace DMT & rowan please - the velvet underground & rowan ○
○ dean blunt & elias rønnenfelt - lucre ○
○ marjorie -W.C. sinclair - beimax chessclub ○
○ stone - dream curtain eternally gentle ○
○ cortex of light - illuminotechnica ○
○ special guest DJ - our fantasy complex ○
○ torus & danny L harle - starlight divergence ○
○ oli XL - lick the lens - pt. 1 ○
○ rooster - rooster slipped ○
○ james K - friend ○
○ earl sweatshirt - live laugh love ○
○ varg2tm - ᚦ ○
○ VS—55 & varg2tm - himlens blad ○
○ VS—55 - psykofarmaka handcuffs ○
○ ben bondy - XO salt llif3 ○
○ joanne robertson - blurr ○
○ paul st. hilaire - w / the producers ○
○ malibu - vanities ○
○ thirteendegrees º - clique city vol. 2 ○
○ ouri - daisy cutter ○
○ geese - getting killed ○
○ moh baretta - under nights until 2 ○
○ destroy lonely - </3 3 ○
○ icez - oso cruel ○
○ rosalía - lux ○
○ onemillionkisses - chuggmuzik ○
○ trhä - lact'eben ○
○ feeo - goodness ○
○ fabiano - landmarks ○
○ shinetiac - infiltrating roku city ○
○ shinetiac - live at café blue gelato ○
reissues:
○ varg2tm - skaeliptom (2012 tascam 05 cs remaster) ○
comps:
○ various artists - ping volume one ○
○ various artists - les heures claires ○
mixes:
○ chuquimamani-condori - ily travis (chuqi chinchay is god & god bless america) ○
○ chuquimamani-condori - precious memories ○
○ mark ernestus - ra.100 ○
○ kk.shucko - expanse ○
EPs & singles:
○ proc fiskal - canticle hardposte ○
○ 7038634357 - fall apart ○
○ simplyfunk - chatty/eye2eye ○
○ the crying nudes - greaser remix (ft panda bear) ○
○ the crying nudes - ber3ft ○
○ standing on the corner - baby ○
○ arca - puta / sola ○
○ floral resources - terra preta ○
○ clay - orbis ○
○ OK EG & priori - serpentine ○
○ xang - live by it ○
○ xang - don’t sound the same ○
○ xang - i like it ○
○ realyungphil & gud - back ○
○ realyungphil - far from home ○
○ realyungphil - coldest nights ○
○ realyungphil - 8hr drive ○
○ realyungphil - ayo ksuuvi ○
○ fakemink ecco2k & mechatok - makka ○
○ esdeekid fakemink & rico ace - LV sandals ○
○ ueda takayasu - schnee von gestern / schnee von gestern (live) ○
○ alex G - afterlifedemo ○
○ snupe - yes hello? ○
○ erykah badu & the alchemist - next to you ○
○ papo2oo4 & subjxct 5 - graduation ’07 ○
○ papo2oo4 & subjxct 5 - college dropout ’04 ○
○ papo2oo4 & subjxct 5 - warren sapp ○
○ papo2oo4 & subjxct 5 - residente papo 13 ○
○ wordcolour - tihkal002 ○
○ georg-i - rebuild ○
○ car culture - nothingburger ○
○ mac demarco - home ○
○ slikback - taped ○
○ NMNL - 1622005 ○
○ NMNL - cu3ro ○
○ NMNL - d$g [freestyle] ○
○ big thief - incomprehensible ○
○ onemillionkisses freddy moreno & globalboy da glowup - chanchullo ○
○ onemillionkisses freddy moreno & globalboy da glowup - #tultapek ○
○ onemillionkisses globalboy da glowup & goldenvato - chilli willis ○
○ allen mock - the first pressure ○
○ DJ polo - currents / night waves ○
○ agilität - nicht stabile, sondern leicht verletzbare konstitution ○
○ herbalistek - inner surface ○
○ lucki & lil yachty - i don’t care… ○
○ yorck street - my small piano ○
○ alex51 - ohne sie ○
○ iglooghost - bronze claw iso ○
○ cwtch - paranthesis ○
○ kehlani - folded & folded (brandy remix) ○
○ instupendo & ripsquad - ripstupendo lusi dreamworks ○
○ mala & magugu - militant don (vocal) ○
○ vat6ré - you need a feature? ○
○ vat6ré - swagmusikk ○
○ ledbyher - what’s the reason? ○
○ ledbyher - remember, remember ○
○ ledbyher - wrong ○
○ balenci02 - fullauto ○
○ joeyy - still ○
○ icez - tundra ○
○ VS-55 & këkht aräkh - tårar blir till blod ○
○ micofcourse - hi, bye ○
december 15 2025:
december 14 2025:
december 12 2025:
辻子紀子
my mix for 3XL’s monthly radio show on NTS is now streaming here or here : ]
i’m very proud of it
many layers of music, woven together like a quilt
the tracklist is slightly messed up on the website, so i will share the corrected version here:
gamelan gendér wayang of banjar tegal, kuta - seléndro
supersilent - 6.2
jerry hunt - transform (stream)
monolake - mass transit railway
K wata - sling of life
richard devine - veolic revolving
E+E - fire gut (original version)
paul jebanasam - depart as | air dx stop ∂ρ/∂ /dt somewhere = +∇⋅(ρ sigma*(y waiting -x) v)=0 ∂ρ/dy/dt for = you x dim
xang & .cutspace - head trauma
AGF - nyi roro kidul
pent - babble acids
visible cloaks, yoshio ojima & satsuki shibano - lapis lazuli
aoki takamasa - that melody…
autechre - gr4
ben shirken - take it all (feat. dorothy carlos & muein)
salon music - down down
edgard varèse - poème électronique
scott walker - dream sequence
august V. M. - phase 1 (from oval)
baba stiltz - DKNY
tod dockstader - piece #8
kelela - raven (unplugged)
david toop - caberima night insects, bird and moths, pt. 2
johann sebastian bach - chorale “ach gott und herr”, BWV 714
november 28 2025:
it’s almost december
november 10 2025:
brandy & frank <3
october 17 2025:
*bites lip*
this song blew my mind the first time i heard it almost 10yr ago… so feminine and sexy and tripped out. it was one of those trax that felt like a window into an entire potential sound or future, this era of sinjin hawke prod was just unmatched (wolves for kanye, yea hoe w gangsta boo, bussgun w scratcha & killa P). i really love revisiting the early pelican fly, fractal fantasy & luckyme stuff… it all felt so tender and romantic but w such forward thinking beats & production. as an ableton-obsessed teenager playing in string ensemble & orchestra i was so fascinated w the use of bells, strings, horns and other orchestral elements in a bass music context. sometimes it was a bit too much but also the over-the-topness is kinda cute idk
day 1s know cashmere cat was always my fav, idk if i will ever be able to articulate why his music connected so much for me & continues to occupy such a special place in my heart. his EP ‘wedding bells’ still feels so singular in its vision and palette… ugh, it’s perfect music to me. this music feels sooooo particularly tied to the cultural context of the 2010s… it’s really hard to imagine a lot of these tracks having a place on dancefloors / playlists today (did they ever truly live anywhere else besides soundcloud & blogs???), BUT i also can envision some of these sounds being re-contextualized into the zeitgeist in the near future. i read this last.fm comment that was like “maybe cashmere cat stopped releasing music at the perfect time. his music made sense in the 2010s but the musical landscape is so different these days”. it’s so interesting how sound and context flows and shifts, especially via the internet. i feel like this is a bit of a forgotten era… it was pre “future bass”, “deconstructed club” and PC music / hyperpop and seemed like it never truly caught on or blew in the same way some of these other waves of the soundcloud era did. these artists and labels seemed to be sitting in this murky, mercurial, influencing-mainstream-but-somehow-still-underground zone. it was a bit more developed, more evolved or grown than some of the other stuff from this time, firmly internet music but w a really beautiful diversity of influences. i really liked the meeting of underground and localized genres like footwork & jersey club with avant garde and experimental sounds coming from artists like arca, tri angle records, both of the former’s work with björk & weird grime mutation stuff happening in the UK at the time
i really love this nadus record ‘broke city’. it captures the essence of a lot of the productions of this time but ties itself back into jersey musical context in such a gorgeous way. nearly all reference points for most of these (mostly white) producers were coming from localized black music scenes like jersey club, footwork, grime, trap etc. and i always wished there was more focus on the black pioneers & innovators of the sound like nadus, sliink, rashad, spinn, uniiqu3, DJ tray, J heat, paypal, taye etc. shoutout sinjin for uploading this footage and putting me onto DJ rashad. rest in peace ❤️
lastly, my all time fav charli track ~ prod sinjin hawke
(,,>﹏<,,) <3
u know i can’t dance but u want me to
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october 16 2025:
madeline stepien live :o
october 15 2025:
heartbroken…… ily forever D. i love this version of this song
october 13 2025:
~checking in~
back from summer travels n gigs and feeling TIRED! this time of year brings up a lot for me and just feels v emotionally charged in reflection and anticipation of wintertime. and fortification. starting to grab at certain records and lean towards certain cozy and internal sounds. nico calls to me…
connie and i have one more live show in seattle on the 26, then a few more DJ gigs and the year is over! so much has changed this year. learning and loss and practicing but mostly stumbling. + a few victories ❤︎₊ ⊹ lots of tears. this is my favorite song right now:
the ouri album is going to be so amazing. so much i could say but… her music is important.
back soon! +_+
want to live in this video forever
august 2 2025:
happyyyy august [hi!]
i just arrived back home in seattle this morning ~ i was in hawaii visiting a friend & got stuck because of a tsunami… i’m home for about a week then leaving for honcho, crazy…
i’m typing this from my new macbook! my old one was literally on the verge of exploding. i feel so hi-tek RN
july 19 2025:
today’s the day…
it’s official ~ i’m playing at honcho this year!!!
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jess/succubass’ programming for hemlock nights was posted this morning, i’m playing alongside some of my friends & fav DJs like: jake muir, enereph, iha & special guest DJ. i am less familiar with aeir, doula, and x3butterfly ~ but excited! i feel so fucking blessed, i have been dreaming of playing at this festival since my first year attending 3 years ago. i really did not think that it would happen so soon…… it’s still difficult for me to wrap my head around. sometimes dreams come true~
july 17 2025:
perfect song. sobbing
july 15 2025:
connie / enereph and i are finally launching our new collaborative music project / electronic-band:
✳ VVX subhunters ✳
through the last few years of our friendship we have dreamt up blurry ideas of music work together and slowly sketched out what something like this could look like, now it’s taking shape! we will be debuting our work together at osmosis in the trees this september with a live set, and have some yet-to-be-announced gigs following that weekend. i feel so nervous and excited and inspired… i’m so honored to be embarking on this journey with my friend (& lowkey my hero…). in addition to building this live set ~ we are heavy in the recording studio ATM
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weekly recommendation: try to get out swimming this week, wherever you are! if you are in seattle~ SWIM IN THE SOUND! LAKE WASHINGTON IS NASTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;) …
also check out bobby / nohup’s incredible blog post about fake lossless files and EZ audio file conversion
july 8 2025:
Y'ALL DON’T KNOW ABOUT DEEP FOREST MAGIC OR REMOTE VIEWING!!!!
~ s e e k e r s w h o R l o v e r s ~
july 7 2025:
poetry my grandfather wrote in the 80s
july 6 2025:
*hi*
what’s up? where are you right now? do you want to be there? would you like to be somewhere else? i’m still here, i’ve just been doing most of my writing in my journal recently. stuff i don’t need to talk about online~
summer is kicking into gear and i already feel dizzy o_0 so much going on… i have some vey exciting news and gigs to talk about soon. i’m excited, and nervous
today my heart is hurting and i just feel like a fish flopping around on the ground. one of those days where being alive is so deeply uncomfortable and everything seems to ache and itch and crawl. sundays……
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one of my favorite songwriters right now is this artist called 井上水晶-mia- ~ most of her music exists on a 10 year old soundcloud account as demos. this is one of my favorites:
it’s just such sweet, pure pop music. her melodies are like candy to me… and i lowkey love these types of arrangements that sound like they were done entirely with a 90s/00s yamaha workstation keyboard. this is music for a girl just trying to get by in the big city…
she kept a blog for years which i enjoy reading from time-to-time (sidenote: this reminds me of the existence of imogen heap’s personal blog which was also great…but i am now realizing has been taken down (˃̣̣̥ᯅ˂̣̣̥) immi whyyyyyyy) and i spent this evening digging through some of her entries. this one really resonated tonight~ and inspired me to update my blog!!!
that’s it for now. wishing you luck and a strong & healthy summer ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ
june 4 2025:
my new mix for atmospheric river is out today
may 25 2025:
i’m in portland right now, last night i DJd as part of my friend pith’s art show. this is what i played:
my set happened right at twilight which was cute ❤︎ channeling sunset heartbreak
you’ve been on my mind … i wish that i could turn back time
i wish that i could turn back time
may 18 2025:
table by the door
wallet on the ground
bag of rubber bands
everything is lying
may 12 2025:
really obsessed with these homemade esoteric interdimensional sacred geometry torus/fractal quasi-science graphics right now. some of these are legitimately so beautiful…
somebody is probably going to open this page and see these out of context and be like WTF is this girl on right now. don’t worry about it mama!
may 9 2025:
i feel just like a dogwood tree
yeah somebody come and carved a cross outta me
and they carried me down to jerusalem
and the people there gave me to the carpenter’s son
may 8 2025:
In Xanadu did Kubla Khan A stately pleasure-dome decree: Where Alph, the sacred river, ran Through caverns measureless to man Down to a sunless sea. So twice five miles of fertile ground With walls and towers were girdled round; And there were gardens bright with sinuous rills, Where blossomed many an incense-bearing tree; And here were forests ancient as the hills, Enfolding sunny spots of greenery. But oh! that deep romantic chasm which slanted Down the green hill athwart a cedarn cover! A savage place! as holy and enchanted As e’er beneath a waning moon was haunted By woman wailing for her demon-lover! And from this chasm, with ceaseless turmoil seething, As if this earth in fast thick pants were breathing, A mighty fountain momently was forced: Amid whose swift half-intermitted burst Huge fragments vaulted like rebounding hail, Or chaffy grain beneath the thresher’s flail: And mid these dancing rocks at once and ever It flung up momently the sacred river. Five miles meandering with a mazy motion Through wood and dale the sacred river ran, Then reached the caverns measureless to man, And sank in tumult to a lifeless ocean; And ’mid this tumult Kubla heard from far Ancestral voices prophesying war! The shadow of the dome of pleasure Floated midway on the waves; Where was heard the mingled measure From the fountain and the caves. It was a miracle of rare device, A sunny pleasure-dome with caves of ice! A damsel with a dulcimer In a vision once I saw: It was an Abyssinian maid And on her dulcimer she played, Singing of Mount Abora. Could I revive within me Her symphony and song, To such a deep delight ’twould win me, That with music loud and long, I would build that dome in air, That sunny dome! those caves of ice! And all who heard should see them there, And all should cry, Beware! Beware! His flashing eyes, his floating hair! Weave a circle round him thrice, And close your eyes with holy dread For he on honey-dew hath fed, And drunk the milk of Paradise.
may 6 2025:
may 5 2025:
may 2 2025:
someone to set my heart free ᓚ₍⑅^..^₎♡ ❀⋆.*:･
april 30 2025:
i found my españa shirt ^_^
shawty think she really a bad bitch
with bad credit… ($_$)
april 28 2025:
camryn’s dazed beauty feature came out today :’ ]
so proud
april 27 2025:
i know only one word today
when i speak nothing else will come out :(
april 22 2025:
april 15 2025:
if i could see through walls i could see you’re faking
if you could see my thoughts you would see our faces
hiiiii, if you’re reading this! i hope you’re having a nice day~
(i’m actually very curious who, if anybody is checking this page… *_*)
i’ve been avoiding doing much writing at all recently, here or in my real diary. to be honest, i’ve been struggling with my mental health in a very real and difficult way … every day presents a different set of challenges that i rarely feel equipped to deal with or handle. i’m taking some steps to take better care of myself but am also trying to be open and honest with myself and the world about where i’m at. i’m so thankful for my friends and community who have kept me afloat while i squirm and writhe about, trying to figure something out.
on the other hand i am having so many ideas, and feeling deeply inspired in this very practical way that i’m always hoping for. wanting to take real steps and materialize ideas rather than just dreaming of them. coming up with a 5 year plan…… 5 years to finish writing my record, record it and release it before i’m 30! : P
i’ve also conceived a new project that i think will really change my entire writing process, a totally new angle of creating and presenting music for me. working on that mwahahahahaha…………..
signing off to shower and have some onigiri for lunch <3 xo
april 4 2025:
rest in peace
march 22 2025:
march 5 2025:
thomas dolby
march 3 2025:
manifesting new jim legxacy tape by summer 八(＾□＾*)
pauline oliveros: “i was a young person in a field in which everybody was hiding in technical considerations, hiding their feelings, hiding their motivations. it still goes on - the techo-jocks that are out there. technocracy feels so safe. i had to prove myself, prove i could be a jock too.” (excerpt from david toop’s ‘ocean of sound’ [just finished this evening, an excellent read which i highly reccommend!!!])
march 2 2025:
perfect pop
february 26 2025:
february 13 2025:
january 24 2025:
wait i forgot sideproject are the best band of all time…
i looove these songs ⤵
january 21 2025:
albums i think will change the entire game this year:
~james K record~
~dan english debut full length~
~oli XL lick the lens~
quarter century check-in!
january 10 2025:
tomorrow i’m DJ in portland with D. dan and some other really amazing DJs for werm party
january 2 2025:
2025!!!!!!
i finally realized today on the way to the grocery store, after much deliberation, what my song of the year was for 2024:
not sure why this wasn’t immediately obvious to me, as it’s easily my most played track of the year. when i was a little kid i would replay ‘such great heights’ on my CD player over and over and over again because i loved living in the atmosphere of that song so much, and just wanted to exist in it forever. there’s something magic in that synth pattern. torus’ version is basically a piece of music i have been waiting for almost my entire life without even realizing. stretching this perfect loop into essentially infinity, building a whole world around it. i’m considering making an hour long version so i won’t have to keep hitting replay when it’s over. it’s a perfect song to me~
december 28 2024:
when people talk about scott walker’s 60s pop songs having been made for bored & sexually repressed housewives they’re talking about me!
december 26 2024:
my top releases of 2024 in random order:
(going to be editing / adding to this as i remember stuff)
albums:
○ pent ~ trepidation cycles ○
○ fine ~ rocky top ballads ○
○ mount eerie ~ night palace ○
○ naemi ~ dust devil ○
○ mk.gee ~ two star & the dream police ○
○ the crying nudes ~ the crying nudes ○
○ autechre ~ AE_2022- ○
○ torus ~ summer of love (2024) ○
○ joeyy ~ try ○
○ perila ~ intrinsic rhythm ○
○ lucy sissy miller ~ pre country ○
○ merely & malibu ~ essential mixtape ○
○ chino pacas ~ que sigan llegando las pacas ○
○ joanne robertson & dean blunt ~ backstage raver ○
○ bladee ~ cold visions ○
○ shenseea ~ never gets late here ○
○ toxe ~ toxe2 ○
○ doon kanda ~ lili ○
○ NMNL ~ ##PaKBaileJerk2K24 ##45*16 ○
○ erika de casier ~ still ○
○ joshua chuquimia crampton ~ estrella por estrella ○
○ chanel beads ~ your day will come ○
○ jessica pratt ~ here in the pitch ○
○ molina ~ when you wake up ○
○ anysia kym ~ truest ○
○ laetitia sadier ~ rooting for love ○
○ kevin & ben bondy ~ laundry ○
○ sideproject ~ sourcepond ○
○ clarissa connelly ~ world of work ○
○ priori ~ this but more ○
○ clairo ~ charm ○
○ partynextdoor ~ partynextdoor 4 ○
○ colle ~ montalvo ○
○ hana stretton ~ soon ○
○ ESP ~ promise ○
○ cameron winter ~ heavy metal (added 5/16/25) ○
singles & EPs:
○ dan english ~ across my jaw ○
○ baba stiltz & okay kaya ~ i believe in love ○
○ okay kaya ~ undulation days ○
○ bambinodj ~ bino ballads ○
○ joshua chuquimia crampton ~ 「Edit Boots」 Vol. 1 ○
○ n ev ~ ephe ○
○ james K ~ blinkmoth (july mix) ○
○ james K ~ hypersoft lovejinx junkdream ○
○ azúcar - grifa ○
○ ichiko aoba ~ lucifèrine ○
○ ichiko aoba ~ flag ○
○ panda bear, sonic boom & mariachi 2000 de cuberto pérez ~ reset mariachi ○
○ katseye ~ touch ○
○ pent ~ digitals ○
○ juanito ~ xpecta ○
○ myuk ~ cocoon ○
○ porter robinson ~ cheerleader ○
○ [not a single but..] ariana grande ~ eternal sunshine ○
○ SOPHIE, kim petras & BC kingdom ~ reason why ○
○ e wata ~ EP 1 ○
○ ø ~ fermionit | kulmamomentti ○
○ 7038634357 ~ solid orbit / grace eject ○
○ LT ~ verb-0 ○
○ tondiue ~ word to the centipede ○
○ CCL ~ plot twist ○
○ ciel & CCL ~ tilda’s goat stare ○
○ SnPLO ~ seven hundred and fifty loops ○
○ 2302 ~ untitled ○
○ 2401 ~ untitled ○
○ objekt ~ ganzfeld ○
○ enereph ~ immortal mirth ○
○ world rally blue ~ tales of the tarmac ○
○ big zen ~ dragonfly ○
○ shinetiac ~ starfrog slipmoded ○
○ D. tiffany ~ bass philosophy ○
○ burial ~ dreamfear/boy sent from above ○
○ opheliaxz ~ slow ○
december 21 2024:
weirdo squelch-tech i found in a dusty cheap 12" bin last week
irdial majick ଘ(੭◉ω◉)つー☆
december 20 2024:
~boofs~ honcho 2024 from ceci’s film roll ☆
been thinking: soooo much rly promising new experimental music i hear is totally ruined (…for me) by an unnecessary 4x4 kickdrum pattern … a track will be so gorgeous or really interesting sound design / composition and then the most obnoxious kick will come in and it’s just like *_____* whyyyyyyyyyy. house + techno etc. is one thing (obviously love this music & deeply respect the history and culture) but so much of the time i just feel ~ does this track really benefit from having this element? or is it just here because one feels it should be there. not everything has to be for the club … often i feel we can achieve “the most vivid rhythmic reality” with no drums at all and instead relying on natural pulse and implied rhythm (something aligned more with the rhythm & oscillations of nature: waves & the tides, day & night cycle, the orbit of our solar system, etc.) the lack of explicit rhythmic direction allows room for more complex and (imo) interesting rhythms to be perceived / felt. when we untether music from percussion, we allow it to “stretch out endlessly, as if moving in zero gravity” … wiley’s devil mixes and weightless grime music (as i’ve written about here previously) are great working examples of this concept, and how powerful it can be. NONE of this is meant to discount percussive music ~ the drum is a magical & fundamental instrument that our entire concept of music is built on, from like day one early human times. i love drums, especially when done well and with care / intention. dance music is built on drums! i guess i’m moreso suggesting some alternatives; and a re-examination of the ways we utilize rhythm in our music. maybe nobody else cares about this and it’s my weird life-music-fixation, but it feels important to me!!!
december 13 2024:
“it’s not just a refined sound, but a refined consciousness. conscious of the environment… the technology… the industries… the industry… the bureaucracy… the earth… the life…the love… the people… the dogs… the cats… the fish… the plants…and of course, the speakers…”
december 11 2024:
iykyk
december 3 2024:
december 2 2024:
it’s been a while since i logged anything here … i’ve been super busy with life & music stuff and scatterbrained as hell. prepping for some upcoming parties i’m really excited about, and trying to take care of my brain *_* going to try to write here more regularly, my laptop is kinda fucked up RN though …
〜 sola 〜
october 30 2024:
it’s all happening!
october 28 2024:
osmosis in the trees was incredible …
more thoughts later
some wisdom from nakata-san lol
“free gaza we on the corner like israelites”
october 22 2024:
about to leave for osmosis festival~
october 21 2024:
october 20 2024:
spent the week feeling fucking insane before realizing i forgot to do my injection last week LOL
i fell asleep to this video last night <3 RIP avicii
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october 19 2024:
new chino pacas record is perfect ➶
his voice has changed really significantly (esp noticeable on newer tracks like ‘mami chula’), in a really beautiful way i think over the last few years ~ he was only 17 when ‘el gordo trae el mando’ came out ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ·̫ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀ literally born in 2006 … i think the changes to his voice really suit his style of corridos. chinito’s a really talented songwriter already and there’s something so special about his melodies, something about the contour of them. drake’s “verse” on the album sucks so bad though and ruins the entire track he’s featuring on. in the words of deb: “god drake is soooo annoying he’s such a leech”. apparently he made an entire subsidary label to release the record, i’m grateful chino’s being given the platform but it’s so obvi drake just smells blood in the water and is desperate to stay current / relevant. his spanish sounds sooo bad too …… OK take him off the album and then it’s perfect!
october 18 2024:
grief is an expression of love </3
FEELING tangled
so i’m listening to joni & stevie tonight
october 16 2024:
best of jammer’s birthday
⋆. 𐙚 ˚ meridian walk ꩜ .ᐟ
thinking about wiley’s devil mixes ~ imo some of the most interesting and forward thinking bass music ever made to this day. this ↑ one is from 2002. minimal, completely beatless but still rhythmic, somehow retaining enough energy to provide an instrumental for MCs to freestyle over. wiley was using these amazing huge wacked out bass tones that take up almost the entire frequency spectrum, and virtually nothing else (aside from some skeletal eskibeat hits & oneshots). you can really hear the blueprint for tracks like ‘bipp’ by sophie here, especially in the bubbly synthesized “snare” sound and the bass. anybody who knows me knows i go crazy for this kind of stuff: drumless, experimental, bassy, *weightless* … it’s totally futuristic music. and grime MCs were freestyling over this stuff in the early 2000s !!! really incredible :o
wiley on the devil mix:
october 15 2024:
Life (…It Eats You Up)
october 14 2024:
short interview w neo gibson aka 7038634357 & preview of their piece ‘rope’. neo is one of my favorite contemporary composers and makes music that feels to me like a logical and important development in the electronic music canon. releases like electric soundtrack a large part of my day-to-day life and feel like a calm refuge within the onslaught of 21 century digital life. i have a deep respect for their work and find a lot of inspiration in their sound palettes and intentionality. i’m currently working on a transcription of their song ‘sink’ which i will share here when i’m finished
rest in peace shaaban al-dalu, murdered at 20 years old alongside his mother. this genocide is more and more sickening every single day. my heart breaks for the people of gaza, and all of the people suffering at the hands of violent colonialism in the world right now. i hate that our world is like this, that the united states and israel are capable of such cruelty and inflicting suffering on such a large scale. it’s fucking disgusting, horrifying. the taxes we pay funding the creation of the very bombs (US made) that were dropped on shaaban al-dalu and his family, and all other innocent people in gaza. we will live in shame for eternity reflecting on these times
october 13 2024:
this video of mika vainio performing live in oslo …… obsessed w the kid staring into the camera at 4:25 like what is he doing there ?!
one of my other favs ~ pan sonic performs erkki kurenniemi
rest in peace mika vainio <3
camryn says: “haaaaaiiiiiiiiiiii”
october 12 2024:
DJ storm
october 11 2024:
should i put out ?
october 10 2024:
new synposes mix from pent ~ tribute to the late ernstalbrecht stiebler
BRAT SUMMER RUINED MY LIFE
( ｡ •`ᴖ´• ｡)
october 9 2024:
just getting home from work, it’s late
this is what i wore tonight:
some ppl told me i look cute :’ ] and that my hair is long. one guy asked me if august is my real name and i told him “yes”
i got some new stationery while out on the island last weekend that i’m really excited about. in my old life i worked at a stationery shop *_* crazy
re: blue ant …
signing off for the night ~
⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆
my friend lucy’s new music video !!! her album pre country is one of my favorite releases of this year
sonnets-unrealities I by e.e. cummings
october 8 2024:
karen dalton: in my own time (2020)
screenshots from archived 2004 release page for ‘who is it’ by björk, from bjork.com
(‘who is it’ was originally intended for inclusion on vespertine, with production by bogdan raczynski :O)
camryn and i freaked ourselves out big time over the weekend thinking about “the big one”, at one point we were convinced we were smelling sulfur in the air (a supposed early seismic activity warning sign) … apparently people in southern washington / oregon have been smelling something recently which is terrifying. i downloaded the myquake app yesterday so that i can get a 30 second warning before a catastrophic earthquake hits (•‿•") heheh…….
october 7 2024:
me asleep in kaya’s bed this morning
show w chanel beads was rly fun last night ^_^ 30 min DJ sets are an interesting challenge, i’m not used to mixing out of tracks so early & so quickly
this is what i played:
today i say a techno prayer 八(˘ -˘ *)
i’m asking for help!
the luminous beam to feed me
while i sleep~
jenny01
obsessed w this track my new friend calum wrote and produced for japanese singer-songwriter myuk. really tight, gorgeous digital arrangement (the MIDI banjo pre-chorus!) paired w calum’s dense shibuya-esque harmony ~ it’s classic bo en, but dialed in nakata-style to work in an explicit pop context. all that to say … IT’S A REALLY GOOD SONG! he kindly sent over a guitar chart for me so i’m excited to spend the night learning the chords ☆☆☆
october 4 2024:
the universe taketh away … and she giveth
october 3 2024:
working on it …
october 2 2024:
i also believe in a drumless pop future!
october 1 2024:
recording a karen dalton cover today. 24/7 stomachache that just won’t go away. visiting the octatrack hospital
september 30 2024:
from cori ^_^
yasutaka nakata’s chords are always perfect
i need to start making my grocery lists before i’m in the store … doing my shopping. downloading google to my phone in the produce section to look up recipes -_-
i started reading william gibson’s ‘pattern recognition’ last night, downloaded as a PDF from some sketchy university website curriculum and sent via email to my kindle i got for christmas when i was 12. while trying to open the file i accidentally activated the built-in MP3 player and J. cole’s song ‘work out’ started playing out of the little speakers. the kindle let you store i think 10 songs on it at a time, what i had loaded onto it as of 2012 is as follows:
~ ‘work out’ by J. cole
~ ‘scary monsters and nice sprites’ by skrillex
~ ‘whatcha say’ by jason derulo
~ ‘rock ‘n’ roll (will take you to the mountain)’ by skrillex
~ and ‘first of the year (equinox)’ also by skrillex
i remember having ‘dance (a$$) (remix)’ by big sean and nicki minaj on there too but must have taken it off at some point. i would listen to the same 5-10 songs over and over on my skullcandy headphones while i read zombie apocalypse fiction in the back of my parents’ car on road trips. one night we stayed on a family friend’s farm in the middle of nowhere montana and i remember fully convincing myself i was hearing an oncoming zombie horde outside of our cabin, to the point that i woke my parents up and forced them to go outside with me to check. it was just cows, mooing in the night in the farm’s pasture. i stopped reading zombie apocalypse fiction pretty soon after that
today is hard but i have my piano ❤️ and william gibson and rice perfume and my girls and my headphones and burt bacharach ❤️ and my guitars
⌑~♬♪܀⊹ i took a chance on you! … ᝰ.ᐟᶻ 𝗓 𐰁⊹ ࣪ ˖
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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⡾⠛⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⣷⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣾⠏⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⠿⣷⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣰⠟⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⣿⣆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣼⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⢻⣷⡀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣴⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢻⣷⠂⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⡟⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢻⣧⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣾⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢰⡟⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⡇⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡏⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢻⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢺⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣾⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢻⣷⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢰⡿⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣴⣿⣿⣿⣿⣦⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣴⣿⣿⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⢠⣿⠃⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⣿⣿⣿⠇⠀⠀⣠⣿⠋⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⣷⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠉⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠉⠁⠀⢀⣾⡟⠁⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣴⡿⣷⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⣾⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣾⡿⠋⠀⠘⠻⣷⣤⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣠⠿⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣼⡿⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⣧⡛⢿⣦⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣴⡿⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣾⠏⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⣿⡤⠈⠻⠿⣷⣄⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣤⣤⣦⣴⣴⡆⢀⣠⣶⠿⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⢃⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢹⣷⡀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠻⠿⢶⣤⣤⣀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⣉⣀⣤⣤⠿⠛⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣾⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠛⠻⠿⠿⠶⠶⠶⠾⢿⣿⡛⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⢠⣾⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠀⢀⣤⣤⣴⣶⣤⣄⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣻⠗⠂⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⣾⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢰⣷⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⣿⣴⠾⠟⠉⠀⠀⠀⠉⠛⠿⣶⣀⠀⢀⣤⣶⠾⠿⠛⠶⠿⣶⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⢰⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠘⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠸⣷⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠻⣷⣾⠟⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⢿⣆⠄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⢠⡿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢿⣧⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢹⣷⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣠⣤⣤⣿⣇⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣤⣤⣤⣀⣀⣿⡟⢶⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⣾⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⢿⣷⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⢷⣦⣀⣀⣴⠟⠋⢩⣉⠻⣿⡆⠀⢀⣾⣛⣹⡍⠉⠛⠿⠟⠀⢸⡆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⢰⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⢿⣦⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠉⠉⠁⠀⠀⠙⠛⠛⠻⣷⡀⣿⡟⠙⠛⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣼⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣼⡟⢿⣶⣄⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣠⣾⠟⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⡿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣾⡏⡀⠀⠉⠙⠛⠿⣶⣦⣤⣤⣤⣄⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣰⡿⠀⠹⣧⣀⠀⢀⣠⣴⡾⠟⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣿⢿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢠⣤⠀⠈⠙⠿⠿⠿⣿⣿⢿⡇⠀⠀⠈⠻⠿⠛⠋⠁⠀⢰⡿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⣧⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠀⠈⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣼⡟⠈⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡗⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣾⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⣿⡾⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡟⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠸⣿⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠙⢿⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣼⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣾⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠈⠹⢦⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣠⣾⠟⠉⣿⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡿⣿⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠲⢦⣤⣄⣀⣀⣠⣤⣴⠿⠛⠋⠁⠀⠈⢻⣧⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⡇⠸⣷⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣼⠋⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠉⠉⠉⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⢿⣧⣀⣀⠀⣀⣀⣶⠏⠀⠀⠈⠻⠷⠶⣶⡾⠿⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠙⠛⠛⠛⠛⠛⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
62 20 65 20 74 20 72 20 61 20 79 20 61 20 6C
september 29 2024:
i’m sad : (
ralf hütter: “… letting yourself go. sit on the rails and ch-ch ch-ch-ch. just keep going. fade in and fade out rather than being dramatic or trying to implant into the music a logical order which i think is ridiculous. the flow is much more … adequate. in our society everything is in motion. electricity goes through the cables and people - bio units - travel from city to city. at one point they meet and then - phwiit. why then should music be at a standstill ? music is a flowing artform.” (from david toop’s ‘ocean of sound’)
september 26 2024:
september 25 2024:
You Are The Records That You Buy
september 24 2024:
moritz von oswald: “… experimentation, exploration, sound, and listening. listen to backgrounds. this is something i was also telling my kids. you should always listen to what is happening in the background of whatever it is, whatever music. if you dive into voices again, then you can hear so many nuances. so i’m trying to broaden up the capacity of what the ear can perceive … being open, being conscious about what things are, what has a meaning. you know, everything has a meaning in life. so this is something i really learned through listening.“ (from RA exchange 690 with moritz von oswald)
karl ove knausgård: “the only genres i saw value in … were not about anything, but just consisted of a voice, the voice of your own personality, a life, a face, a gaze, a gaze you could meet. what is a work of art if not the gaze of another person ? not directed above us, nor beneath us, but at the same height as our own gaze. art cannot be experienced collectively, nothing can, art is something you are alone with. you meet its gaze alone.” (from karl ove knausgård’s ‘my struggle: book two’)
